The Burning …

The Burning … part of Liz MacKenzie: “Shepherds Fire”

The only thing Rudolf Steiner founded was an Esoteric Schooling and that at the behest of St Michael, the Archangel, the inspirer of courage, through 3 representatives of Maria Sophia, his wife Marie von Sivers and his co-workers; the medical doctor Ita Wegman, and the astronomer Elizabeth Vreede. He had by the First World War stopped all esoteric schooling and resorted to architecture, the arts, science and technology to try to advance the cause of Andrei Protokletos.
This attempt ended with the burning of his architectural masterpiece, The House of the Word; on New Year‟s Eve 1922/23. From the ashes of this setback he again attempted a New Esoteric School at the behest of St Michael who then guided the last year or so of his life. This Divinely inspired project remained barely a fragment and he died with only a fraction of it complete.

He was showing the world what is also contained in this study, Andrei Protokletos at work,(Andropos Sophia), in order to avert the catastrophes looming in the 20thC from out man‟s separation from the world of the spirit; man‟s irreligiousness. For this reason and this alone he decided to become president of a re-founded Anthroposophical Society since the first AS founded by those who chose to leave the Theosophical Society with him had failed miserably. He inaugurated this amid the ruins of his building during Christmas 1923, and into it he hoped to found the Esoteric School of St Michael which he would call The Free High School of Spiritual Science based on the university model. It was not to be.

The anthroposophists did not want such a school; they had plenty to be going on with from his countless lectures and few books. He died with only the smallest fraction of the School of St Michael appearing within the Anthroposophical Society. This Society has no ownership over the Esoteric School of St. Michael, or even now over the fragment of lessons given to the High School by Rudolf Steiner since copyright has now run out. Andropos Sophia demands Truth, Spiritual Science demands Truth, science in all forms demands truth. Andrei Protokletos is a being whose heart is The Truth. “.. I can impart no more esoteric a saying to you than: Christ is seeing us.” Rudolf Steiner, Dornach 1915

The AS failed to incorporate its beating heart and living breath – basic, ordinary human compassion- essentially a failure Steiner described in his sociological lectures as a failing of the middle classes arising out of the inhumanity of the industrial revolution from which they arose. This failure resulted in the First WW and the Russian Revolution. In other words, the middle classes allowed their Cain to murder Abel and denied any responsibility – Malthusianism as justification.

Rudolf Steiner and many other true Christian esotericists and hermeticists completely unknown to the Anthroposophical Society worked tirelessly to waken up humanity, and into the aftermath of the First WW he placed the small book, The Threefold Commonwealth, in the hope that the leading classes, politicians,
generals, capitalists etc would grasp the truth. Simultaneously he was working as sculptor on his carved masterpiece the 9 metre high statue of the Sons of Man which he called The Representative of Humanity.

This work was an artistic co-operative venture, a concept Steiner worked all his art work through, as was the painting of the interior of his first and only building. His building was externally a modest but technologically beautiful and accomplished building in the architectural style of his time and standing somewhere between MacKintosh‟s Glasgow School of Art and Gaudi‟s Sagrada Familia, beautiful
functionalism married to sacred necessity. The building was completed and worked on by builders and artists of all the warring nationalities of the First WW and was then torched by the enemies of Peace working through a madman.
Only his woodcarving was rescued from the flames of this conflagration.

He foresaw in these flames a further and more horrendous conflagration to come – a new crucifixion of Christ and John Humanity, as it turned out, through His Innocent and Most Beloved People, Christ Jesus parental stream – the enormity of which he expended the rest of his life trying to avert. The Truth of these matters is that wilful ignorance is an abomination and we are all born ignorant and remain woefully ignorant, but in each and every life the Holy Spirit always ensures there are many free choices and opportunities to be called. Ignorance is not a sin, wilful ignorance is an abomination. What happened in the world during the 20thC is
that Abomination came to earth to live. The mass murder of Jews, Gypsies,
Homosexuals, Incapacitated, and other innocents by “clean” technological means is the Archetypal Pilate Deed. It says, “There is no blood on our hands, they are a technical hindrance needing a final solution because they drain resources and offend the eye.

Indeed their poverty of morals, hygiene, understanding etc is an offence to the eye; let us rid ourselves of them. Let us loose eternal hell on the earth and burn them in clean fast burning ovens. Let us be economic and make useful things from them beforehand, things like experimental animals for science, lampshades and leather for craftwork, let us make their teeth into the new dollar and hide it in the lust for bullion and the artworks and the property we have stolen, for we may have need of it in the future and let us use their ashes for some useful purpose like cement or fertiliser ”

The anti-dote to this soul sickness was given 2010 years ago and has always been available. In the 20thC Rudolf Steiner gave it in spiritual scientific form. Alas his followers failed to distribute it. Instead they wasted their time building a mausoleum to him, against his public instruction during the Christmas Re-Founding meeting of 1923. All that remained of his first building was the concrete foundation and the statue. He alone would incorporate these foundations into a new building he planned to build totally in concrete.

Concrete is an Alchemical substance and at that time an innovative leader in the
construction industry both in its own terms and in technological terms. This would have been a marriage of Christian Rosicrucian Alchemy with its materiality, a totally alchemical building. The architect‟s intention was again to produce a building marrying functionalism with, this time, spiritual scientific and technological activity, artistic activity and a new esoteric school. The alchemical building material concrete would form the whole building and he himself would guide the technology and technique of the production of flowing concrete forms for he alone was esoterically capable. Into this House of Resurrected Science he would incorporate the remnants of The House of The Word. He died before
anything but foundations were laid.

Almost immediately his followers chose to ignore his instructions and themselves built, not the building the architect intended for only he could build it, but a mausoleum which in the 1980‟s had to close its doors to any more ashes of dead anthroposophists being crammed into it.

The statue occupied an upper room surrounded by the ashes of dead followers, which says it all. The rationale for this absurdity was that the carving had been attacked by a madman, a fate that also befell Dali‟s St John of the Cross. That did not prevent Glasgow City Council having the painting repaired and put back on public display, after all what harm can a madman do a 9metre woodcarving? The interior is entirely the work of his followers, as is the exterior, so it is at the very least disingenuous to call a mausoleum on a hill “Steiner‟s second building” when
the intention was to build on Dornach hill a New Acropolis in the middle of Europe for the confluence of the waters of science, art and religion. No second public building, Polis, of Steiner‟s exists on earth. The christian esotericists and hermeticists of the Athens of the North were shattered at the betrayal and the followers of Andrew Protokletos, inspired by St Michael and St Andrew vowed in the Heavenly St Michael School and on earth that Truth Will Forever Prevail over the destiny of this man, this most courageous
of brothers.

The soul sickness has not gone …

The Big Lie, and the Madness of the Gods

The True Big Lie, and the Madness of the Gods

Trump’s refusal to concede the election, and to claim it was stolen, is now said (by pollsters) to be believed to be true by millions of Americas. This is being called The Big Lie in the press.

As I pointed out years ago, the press is the last group to get what is going on. Being sort of clueless by choice.

My father owned a small advertising business in Great Falls, Montana. He watched his profession wrestle with the truth, and basically lose. Any fiction was now okay, as long as it caused people to try to buy something. If products failed to be as advertised, an army of lawyers was always available to protect the lies.

Politicians always lie, whenever they make a promise. The protection of lying pharmaceutical companies is required, in order for the money needed for modern media campaigns to get into the right pockets. Laws are bought and paid for.

There is a legend, of a Being called: The Father of Lies. He has a cousin, The Weaver of Lost Dreams. “Who knows what darkness lurks in the hearts of men? The Shadow knows” (‘50’s radio show). A shaman named Rudolf Steiner thought that The Keeper of Hearts, could balance the Father of Lies, and the Weaver of Lost Dreams.

Is there a lie at the heart of existence? A very very big and gigantic lie? Yes!

The Big Lie is that we individual human beings are not the Center of the World. Pause, listen carefully – we are the center of our experience. The center of experience is effectively Our world. Even if I so concentrate my essence, and perfectly see from inside the other’s World, that is still their world.

Out in the aethers of thought, another big lie: that we can and should give up our ego, and surrender to a group spirit-mind.

In the second Guardians of the Galaxy movie, the hero discovers that his parentage includes a God-like Celestial Being, with the name Ego. The hero’s mother is a human being born on the Earth. Ego has a dark secret. He has been going through the universe, impregnating women of many species, looking to birth another Celestial, and failing, until now.

In the inside, of Ego’s self-created planet, are huge caves full of bones … all the failures killed. Ego’s method of finding a mother receptacle includes killing them, when no longer useful.

The hero, now understanding himself better – this being half-Celestial which appears in his over confidence, … has companions. He is not traveling alone. One is a man of great strength. Another an empath. There is a talking tree, and an artificially enhanced raccoon who is an expert on taking things apart and making them better. A pair of sort of sisters who are expert killers.

Many special effects, and the gang together kills Ego.

We all have a crazy “I”. Part of which is a romantic and heroic heart. We are also part plant, part animal, and very deadly. Is there a choice between Ego, and ego? Does the God, we believe in and experience, have an Ego?

In a certain sense we begin to understand one form of the big lie, when we are about eleven. We’ve been through the deaths of the myths of Santa Claus and Easter bunnies. It is also obvious that adults are clueless. All work and no play. The ultimate wrongness is the clear fact that life is not fair. Then we succumb too, to the ambiguous and illogical demands of “adult” life, or not, after that its a matter of survival.

What was God up to, while creating the Creation. As Their primal nature is unity, then we are of God – half Celestial, and the other half ?//?

A Proof of the Madness of God.

The state we call madness is real. If we are in the image of God … ? From a certain point of view, all qualities existing are of God as well. Ergo, some aspect of God is being manifested, that can be called madness.

Here’s a tale: The secret behind karma and reincarnation is that there is only one primal consciousness, which appears in through as all of us – A snake eating its own tale, and when we look at each other, whether rock, or star, or baby human – we see ourselves expressing some unique combination of qualities, and enduring some degree of suffering, but all are one. We are the same, that is not the same, because the Now has an unpredictable future.

The Now is madness certified. Human freedom is so outrageously creatively powerful, Revelations calls It the Beast from the Abyss (of the uncreated and yet to be formed).

If there is just one being, living all these suffering lives, … merely given those facts suggests that this “person” is a masochist. Yes, of course, there is an additional way to look at this. But is it both and, instead of either or?

The creation of self-consciousness is genius, as is living in a physical body in a material world. “Living” for a time … then later sez RS, no material bodies. Genius, by Its very Nature, is “inventive”.

It is very hard to account for human moral darkness, and not believe that there must be a “reason” for all “this”. Yet, children are raped, and peoples are burned alive in ovens.

If human beings have been experiencing karma and reincarnation, they are coming back on purpose. Did any part of God even know such darkness could manifest?

Another riddle that muddies the waters for me is about “time”. One day I was contemplating the Incarnation, RS’s “Turning Point” in or of time. I made the image of the Christ Event as effecting both past and future, with that Now sending waves in both time directions.

These aspects of thought I have been sharing get even stranger.

After I started being occasionally touched by Christ, my understanding grew, and I felt that the idea of Him saving the world was inaccurate. He didn’t die for my sins. Instead, He experienced matter (life and death), because His Nature included the idea that He would not ask of us, some experience He Himself had not endured.

There is also something about what the Mystery does that is odd, yet not. They are following us. Our unpredictability is the leading edge of change. Our.

RS said that the religion of the gods is mankind. If we accept some of Steiner as viable systematic representations of reality, such as the idea of the ten hierarchies, we seem to be below them. An angel has gifts I do not. A Throne …

Then there are the hierarchies of the Father of Lies, and the Weaver of Lost Dreams, and one version of each of those resides next to our I in the soul …the Ahrimanic and Luciferic double, or as Tomberg said later, the Prosecutor and the Tempter.

We seem to be caught between cosmic powers, … one more of the light, the other more of the dark …

Or Vorlons and Shadows, as captured by J. Michael Straczynski in his television masterwork: Babylon Five.

It takes place in a galaxy in which several races of star-travel folks create a space station, where these races could meet, and try to resolve their differences. Wars erupt. Spying, secrets, and murder are everywhere. Visually it is very good for pre-digital film art.

These races are called: the younger races, as against the Vorlons and the Shadows, which are millions of years older, and the last of the ancient races, … the rest having gone Beyond the Rim.

The Vorlons ask us: Who are you? The Shadows: What do you want? In our language: the aspirations against the appetites.

Eventually the younger races realize that they have been manipulated into a war that is going on between the Vorlons and the Shadows. We are surrogates, while the most powerful stand off, out of the way until the Great Battle.

The Vorlons hide behind an encounter suit, because if they were truly seen, each race would see what was to that race, something on the order of an Archangel. The Shadows can’t be seen, unless they let you see them, and then they appear as big mechanical looking spiders.

The heroes and leaders of the younger races are a man and a women of two different races. She goes through a ritual that makes her look more human. Later, he dies and is then resurrected – for a time, by the Oldest One of all, the First One.

In a climatic scene, where two great space armies face each other in the same solar system, the two heroes demand that the Vorlons and the Shadows leave them alone, and stop manipulating us.

Meaning??? At some point the beings of the spiritual hierarchies just need to get out of the way of our I.

The Shepherds’ Fire

The shepherds’ fire

A meditative study
Elizabeth Ancrum Mackenzie M.A.


The coward slave we pass him by The man‟s the gowd for a‟ that. “ (gold)

Robert Burns 1759-1796

Liz Mackenzie aka: Barbara Gardiner

This meditative study is dedicated to all people of goodwill who see in the lust for power and greed for gold something base, pitiable and socially reprehensible. The meditative study is not a new form in Western tradition. René Descartes (1596-1650) the French father of modern philosophy used it in his Meditations on First Principles. In the 20th C France produced another philosopher of the meditative school whose profundity of thought was matched only by her personal courage and social conscience; the French Jewish genius Simone Weil (1909-1943). The 2ndWW losses to humanity of people of truth, beauty and goodness cannot be measured but in Simone Weil the world lost a philosopher of the first magnitude. In other words, Simone Weil was a serious and totally dedicated working philosopher.

She was one of the few. Rudolf Steiner was another, although of the 19thC. His book, The Philosophy of Freedom, was also a work of the meditative school. What Simone Weil was to Metaphysics (Theory of Reality), Steiner was to Epistemology (Theory of Knowledge). Such things are perhaps only of interest to students of Philosophy but in The Scottish School, La Philosophie Écossaise, it was once recognised that all philosophising is but a plant growing out of the rootstock of common sense.

Meditation is a fundamental exercise for the philosopher, the lover of thought, and maintains the link with common sense. Descartes Meditations are not easy, he begins with his own soul and we, the readers, are allowed to see the inner workings of perceptive thought as it contemplates its own experience and the thought consequences of such contemplation in his soul.

This meditative study uses a similar form, not for reasons of device or artifice but because this form is the only way that it‟s christian esoteric content can be communicated.   However, this is not a philosophic study, nor a theological study but a study in christian esotericism and mysticism and consequently it could be described as Simonean Metaphysics, after the metaphysical method of Simone Weil, or equally Spiritual Empiricism, after the epistemological method of Rudolf Steiner. These considerations are all technical, but we live in a technical and technological age and the study concerns fundamentally just this age in which we live. The study stands on its own, however, and these introductory considerations are offered in order that those who like a peg on which to hang their hats can orientate themselves and know where to find their hats on the way out. Like Simone Weil the author is not a roman catholic and grew up in an agnostic humanist household and this too is said only for reasons of objectivity and clarity.

The Shepherds Fire, the preparatory exercise, is an exercise in heart thinking which prepares a “soul space” for the Epiphanic content: at least that is the relationship of the Shepherds Fire to Liberté, Egalité, and Fraternité which presented itself to the soul of the author and is presented here. In 2000 the author published Aesthetics of Economics, a book no longer in print, which explored some of the ground of this study but withheld the content given here. The economic events of 2008/9 and their continuing aftermath make this withholding no longer justified.

For those with an interest in these matters the assisting Saints are; St Columba of Iona; St Brigid of Ireland; St Margaret of Scotland
St Bernadette of Lourdes; St Michael, the Archangel.

The Shepherds Fire
A Meditative exercise in Christian Esotericism
Michaelmas Tide 2009

The Holy Spirit, whenever It draws near, speaks Its name to me and Its name is Christ Mass. This speaking is like no other speaking. The Holy Breath is very gentle in the soul, like an infant reaching for a mother; if the soul can welcome it likewise then the following experience
can happen.

The Holy Breath, when it moves the soul produces the sound of the Angelic Choirs singing Gloria and simultaneously a deep dark night descends on the soul. If one ponders the night and allows the angelic singing to fill the soul then a third experience dawns. The heart
suddenly becomes warm and is, as it were, on fire. This mystical fire lights up in the deep dark night with great gentleness. It is not a blaze. The heavens are ablaze, not with fire, but with the singing of the angelic choirs singing both Gloria and Hosanna to God in the Highest as if the myriad stars themselves were saying Gloria, Hosanna in the Highest, for the stars spoke once to man.

In the warmth of this fire that fills the soul is the realisation of the truth that the stars are speaking; the truth is that this very night, as every night, and the night of the soul is a Holy Night. The warmth and light of this Truth kindles the Shepherds‟ Fire that keeps the sheep
safe from the wolves- one‟s own sheep and one‟s own wolves and others‟ wolves. In this safety of the heart on fire one can ask the Breath of Holiness, what are the sticks? What is the flame and how is it lit?

For one must learn to discern very clearly if one is doomed to spiritual science, and one must learn the art of questioning as a white dove. That is to say, one‟s question must arise as a white dove just as Noah‟s question arose; or as a stock dove, a blue dove, a columba, calman gorm.

Calman=dove, gorm=blue, calma=brave, a columba

This clear blue dove is an exact question about a precise aspect of, in this case, the experience of the Shepherds‟ Fire as soul experience – what are the sticks and flames and how is it lit? It is the spiritual scientific question, which is to say the columban question. The question arises out of absolute stillness, the stillness of observation, thus it is scientific in nature. However, the stillness is not the stillness of the head, the coldness and deadness of sight, but the stillness of the heart in a deep silent night: the heart stilled yet on fire, the sheep safe. When the blue dove of the question arises like Noah‟s dove it arises and returns like Noah‟s dove, and it brings with it the answer to the question.

The Breath of Holiness, the Holy Spirit, answers the question; the sticks are prayers, the flames are tears, the igniting is a Miracle of the Lord, an Act of His, an act of Divine Magic or Mystery, a Mystical Act.

Now if one is doomed to spiritual science, doomed to the abyss, one sees arising in this Holy Night, like birdsong before dawn, like a miracle in the soul, the Mystery of the Rose Cross and the Mystery of the Flame of Tears, which is also a cross. For these two are two of the many crosses that can arise on either side of the Mystery of Golgotha, the Cross of the Crucifixion. For to be doomed to spiritual science means that one has presentiments of Zoroaster; that one knows in a deep layer of the soul that the Magi from the East are approaching and it is this Zoroastrian light that has lit up the three crosses arising from the abyss of the deep.

But this strays far from the Shepherds Fire, for the Star of Zarathustra is what all the myriad stars are speaking and the stars spoke once to Man.

So, not so far from the Shepherds‟ Fire.

However, it is the Shepherds‟ Fire that brings us all to where the Star comes to rest in the Holy Land of the Heart, so those doomed to spiritual science must return to the experience of the Shepherds‟ Fire, they must have the courage to leave their Master‟s Star for the
Shepherd‟s small and fragile fire.

One sits by one‟s small fire, the sheep safe, the heart warm and on gentle fire and one contemplates The Mystery of the Flame of Tears.
Such heart-warming peace! This contemplation, if carried far enough frees another dove of peace. The question is how to
tend this small fire whose fuel is prayer and tears, for the soul wants always to have a heart this warm but must arrive at exactly the necessary amount of fuel, neither too much nor too little. One knows that many, many, many are those whose hearts, pure and simple and filled with goodness have given, and continue to give to the Lord the tears, the water He turns into wine and the wine He turns into the Flame of Tears which is the warmth of His Blood as it flows from the Cross. The red blood and the clear fluid, the Rose Cross and the Flame of Tears, the wine and the water.

The igniting of one‟s prayers and tears into the Shepherds Fire is an Act of the Lord, an Act of Mercy, of Grace and of Caritas, and one wants to live always in mercy, grace and love. So one prays somewhat as follows;

Lord grant me the courage to let this fire, which You have ignited, go out naturally, in accordance with the Will of the Father who gave us the fire that bakes the daily bread and the sacramental bread. For I am tempted to sit by this fire all the days of my life. But Lord, the night gives way to the day as our Father in Heaven has ordained it, and the baker of bread must have rest from his toil and the flames must become embers and the embers must become cold charcoal that sweetens the earth as the Father has ordained it. Lord grant me the faith to let the fire go out naturally in accordance with Thy Will in this Holy Land of the Heart which is Thine and which the Father gave to all humankind as the Promised Land. Amen

The Truth is that no human soul needs more than the Shepherds Fire called to Life by the Holy Spirit, for this is the gift of the Father; He gave His only begotten Son.

For there is no doubt that those doomed to spiritual science can be poor scientists and
instead become unwitting and even witting magicians who can, through lack of discernment and
discipline. confuse parts of the Gospel and so keep fires where none should be and fail to bring
sufficient fuel to light the fire that protects the sheep thus loosing their wolves on others‟
The Flame of Tears is the ignited Rose Cross. Christ metamorphoses one into the other and
back again as water became wine, and wine became blood, and Lazarus came forth, and the
seed becomes the plant annually.
But those doomed to spiritual science, those with the prescience that the Magi from the East
are approaching, are called to the realms ruled by the Holy Queen, the Holy Sophia, which
they cannot enter save by the Way of the Son, lest they walk unknowingly the Perilous Way.
That is their choice, their freedom: the Way of the Son, the Way of Truth and of Life or the
Way Perilous. Truth to tell there are many already walking the Way Perilous in blindness, and
some with open eyes. For again there is no doubt that those doomed to spiritual science can
be very poor scientists; and a very poor scientist is just an unwitting or a witting magician, a
dilettante, who looses his wolves on the flocks of others and who feeds the children of the
world with stones.
Christ in the Scottish Landscape
Christ as The Man of Sorrows
Elizabeth Ancrum Mackenzie 2010
William Dyce 1860
The New Jerusalem in the Holy Land of the Heart
Liberté, Egalité, Fraternité
Epiphany Tide 2010
“Hence we can speak in the full sense of the word of an outer fire, which we perceive as
we do other elements, and an inner soul fire within man. That is why, in spiritual science,
fire always built a bridge between the outer material world, and the inner soul world that
can be perceived inwardly.”
R. Steiner Düsseldorf 12 April 1909
On the ground of the Shepherds Fire exercise and the guidance given above by RS we can
now cross the Shepherds Fire Bridge in an attempt to deepen our esoteric understanding
of the Threefold Commonwealth and social theory and praxis in modern life.
Why did RS reveal the tri-partite nature of human society when he did? For the reason
that it is a divine response, at one of the darkest times in human history, to the praying of
the Pater Noster by humanity. In the last working days of his life RS prayed the Pater
Noster daily, publicly with his co-workers and in his own translation; “Thy Kingdom expand
itself in our deeds and in the conduct of our lives.”
The threefold nature of human
societal conduct is a reflection in man and on earth of the Holy Trinity.
Three Spirits with a special relationship to each other seek to incarnate in human societal
conduct; the Spirit of Liberté, the Spirit of Egalité and the Spirit of Fraternité: or, we
can say three ideals of humanity seek to rise up to meet their living content and hence
express themselves livingly on earth.
These 3 principles are cardinal or gateway
reflections in the human mind and in human society and are revelatory of the Holy Trinity.
They live in man as ideals and they seek full societal expression as the noblest of human
ideals. We can say that modern man, consciousness soul man, is in process of building the
House of Liberté, the House of Egalité, and the House of Fraternité.
In order to
understand things aright and to construct aright man needs the help of a Sophia being, he
needs wisdom.
From the wisdom of Solomon
Proverbs 24;2
Through wisdom (Sophia) is an house builded;
And by understanding it is established. And by
Knowledge shall the chambers be filled with all
Precious and pleasant things.
Through RS the „ground plan‟ of the architect was revealed.
The architect is
Anthroposophia; the „ground plan‟, the Threefold Commonwealth.
Who is Anthroposophia, the guiding wisdom in this endeavour? For the requirements of
this Christian esoteric study we must turn to Hiram the archetypal architect. This Being
has aspects of Hiram, her Anthropos nature, but essentially she is approached as a
feminine being.
Just as the physical female has a male etheric or life body so our
essential recognition of Anthroposophia across the fire bridge is firstly through her
Marian Sophia nature. It is via her Marian Sophia nature that we reach her Anthropos
nature. However we must make distinctions in her Marian nature which we will come to
later on in this study.
Elizabeth Ancrum Mackenzie 2010
This „ground plan‟ marks the beginning of the descent of the New Jerusalem, already built
in Heaven, and which descends from on high. This revelation is part of The Mysteries of
Light. Those called esoterically to this „construction‟ work are but labourers, navvies,
paddies, comparable to the much maligned workers on the lowest rung of the construction
industry ladder. For the sake of esoteric clarity this must be stated at the outset and
also that this is a vast work in which there can be no haste. The Spirit of Haste who
dominates modern life at all levels and leads to prematurity of effort and to poor
workmanship has no workplace here. Esoteric maturity is required. (This Spirit of Haste
is described vividly by Clare Short MP former International Development Minister in the
British Cabinet as the guiding spirit of the Iraq War and her evidence to the Chilcot
Inquiry into the Iraq War is invaluable source material.)
The traditional and time-honoured esoteric and practical forms of Apprentice,
Journeyman and Master prevail here. This work, the building of the societal forms for
the descent of the Celestial Jerusalem is the future of the Earth and is under the
guidance of Masters. All human beings are engaged in this work. What RS calls humanity
crossing the threshold is humanity as a whole entering its Apprenticeship.
astral/etheric „ship‟ is the modern Noah‟s Ark on which humanity will survive its own self-
created deluge, the first waves of which began crashing ashore during the 20thC and the
latest wave being in 2008/9 with the first collapse of the world economy. These astral
tsunami waves arise from the astral „earth quake‟ known in Christian esotericism as The
Second Crucifixion of Christ, the Crucifixion by Materialism, caused by humanity‟s moral
The three esoteric „ships‟ have already been constructed by the
Masters of the Craft over inestimably long periods of human history in preparation for
the descent of The Heavenly Jerusalem.
The Master of all apprentices is Hiram whom we know as Lazarus John who walked the
measure of Holy Jerusalem with the Master of Masters, Jesus Christ.
Now that we are absolutely clear that we are neither masters nor architects, overseers
nor gaffers, but labourers at the beginning of their apprenticeship we can begin to see
what we are asked to see.
Christian esotericists‟ and hermeticists‟ labour consists in
learning to see what they are asked to see; their sweat is in trying to clarify what is seen;
their crown of thorns is in describing in modern concepts what is clarified. That is the
only meaning of clairvoyance acceptable in the esoteric school to which I belong. It is, of
course, not the only meaning of the term, but it is the meaning worked by RS and is the
Christian/Rosicrucian meaning.
Let us now return to the three Houses and try to clarify what aspects of the Trinity they
represent and why. In thought, 3 Houses are conceived, but in reality they are one; just
as the Holy Trinity is three in one. This conceiving of three houses is necessary because
in human development it is an advance in consciousness from the current position where,
although the ideals are perceived and held deeply by humanity, their societal expression is
chaotic. Let us firstly consider the first of the 21stC tsunami waves to crash ashore, the
collapse in the economic realm. The crashing waves of the 20thC, its two World Wars and
spin off conflicts were essentially of the political realm. (For Christian esoteric
consideration of these see Crisis of Civilisation by GA Bondarev. This work can be used to
access further the content of the meditative picture of the political realm given later in
this study. It stands temporally on one side of 9/11, the Destruction of the Twin Towers,
and this study stands on the other)
Economic life at present is under the sway of the Myth of the Self-Made Man. This myth
is Malthusian (sociological) and composed of fragments of Darwinism married to
Nietzsche‟s concept of the übermensch within a setting of an Ancient Roman Coliseum.
Thus it is common to hear and read in media commentary on the economic realm
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references to individuals as so-and so the “self-made billionaire” or the “self-made
businessman” or the” self-made entrepreneur”.
The self-made man is economic self
interest writ not just large, but Goliath size. In the banking world are the so-called
Masters of the Universe, the übermenchen. Again, they are the Goliaths of the world
banking system. The language of the financial markets is gladiatorial, a bear pit, bullish,
predatory etc. etc.
Market forces are the „natural‟ laws of evolution here and they
function via natural selection, survival of the fittest, at least so the myth says. But the
crash of the world economy showed that politicians feared these „laws‟, feared to let the
weak immoral banks die „naturally‟ according to their own Darwinian „laws‟. Thus we are not
dealing with economic natural science but economic pseudo-science i.e. mythology, and in
their own mythological terms politicians feared to slay Goliath/übermensch and instead
continue to reward his immorality.
A very little commonsense observation would show how far from the realities of economic
life this mythology lies.
Man enters the world dependent.
Of all milk nourished
offspring in nature he is the most helpless and therefore the most dependent at birth.
He depends on others for food, warmth, shelter, all that keeps him alive. When he is no
longer mother-milk dependent he depends on the generations of farmers to produce his
foodstuffs with all the attendant agricultural labourers who pick, slaughter, sort, pack and
transport it, the generations of merchants who sell it, the generations of weavers and all
the attendant finishing labourers and engineers who invent and produce the machinery to
weave his clothes, the generations of steel workers who produce the raw materials of the
machinery, the generations of miners who mine the coal or gas or oil that fires the power
stations that give him warmth and light and fire the factories that produce the light
bulbs, fire the building bricks , produce the cement etc. etc. Not to mention the inventors
of light bulbs and the mathematics of the functionality of products.
What one finds if
one enters the economic realm by way of this simple but scientific observation – man
enters the world as the most dependent of all the creatures- is that as soon as he leaves
the mother‟s breast the dependence and inter dependence increases exponentially for all
his material needs.
If we now look to the base of all economic activity, the Earth herself, we find again
interdependence, firstly ecological then planetary then cosmological. If we go now to
Christian Cosmosophy or Spiritual Science we find described there the creation of the
Earth and Man as a cooperative working of the spiritual Higher Hierarchies. The material
economic base is the result of cooperation and interdependence of inconceivable
magnitude. Our only access to it empirically is via the concept of the mother and child,
the archetype of all production and consumption.
This realm, the realm of pure
production or creation, accessible to us only through the mother and child, is the realm of
the Father. It is empirically perceptible as the Earth on which we stand and which let‟s
not our feet go through.
The esoteric perception of it outlined here is empirically
experienced in the Pater Noster, “Father in Heaven, Give us this day our daily bread.”
Rather than self-made, economically speaking, the human being is other-made from
conception onwards.
Esoterically the self-made man is an echo of Cain in the soul of modern economic man:
Cain who has killed his brother, his other. Cain who, on the basis of self interest, alone
decides what his hereditary and inheritance should be. What is being acted out in modern
economic life is the murder of Abel, our other, our dependence on each other for any
economic life at all. In economic life we hold to the denial “Am I my brother‟s keeper?”
when the Truth is, in fact, that in economic life “I am my brother‟s keeper”. That is the
empirical scientific fact out of which true economic science can grow. Furthermore the
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Truth of economic science is that we are given each day our daily bread from out the
realm of the Father.
We cannot produce true economic science on Earth without the
true concept of production and consumption which is everything that is morally,
reproductively, historically, spiritually and devotionally contained in the archetype of the
Mother and Child, and by association the Holy Family.
Our beginning must be the
recognition that Fraternité not fratricide is the scientifically justified, morally justified
and esoterically justified guiding principle of economic life.
“And herein is that saying true, One soweth and another reapeth.
I sent you to reap that whereon you bestowed no labour; other men laboured,
And you are entered into their labours.”
John 4; 37,38
Thus it is Fraternité who is the Sprit of Man wishing to incarnate in the House of
Economia, and it is Economic Science/Truth which is seeking a home in the House of
We are justified in saying that the economic realm reflects on earth the
realm of the Father, the Maker. From His realm was all made that is made.
“All things were made by Him; and without Him was not anything made that was made.”
John 1:3
In ancient Greece economics and politics first separated into recognisably different
spheres of activity; Economics was a labour of women, Politics a labour of men. This
separation allowed Democracy to be conceived and born in ancient Athens.
The Polis,
Politics, left the unified Household to give birth to Democracy.
Men give birth to
children of the mind only, women do both. This left the Eternal Feminine alone in the
Household and from this act of Ancient Athens we derive the names Economics and
Politics as descriptive of two spheres of activity whose separation, not union, gave birth to
infant Democracy. Economics from that time onwards also reflects what is said in the
body of this study, namely, Economics means household management by women. Access to
the realm of True economic science is via the concept of the Mother and Child.
children of the mind that men give birth to have a long maturation process in human
history and the „bodies‟ of their children are societal. The world we live in is indeed
shaped by men, its unnecessary chaos and suffering is also a product of men since the
female physical body has the capacity to produce out of suffering (labour) and the chaos
of matter a physical body for another living being.
Men, and now women, are tasked to
produce societal “bodies”, community “bodies” in which ideals can live harmoniously as the
human spirit lives within a human body.
Let us now turn to Politics, historically until the 20thC, the child of the immaculate
conception of men. Shorn of all rhetoric, ideology and obscurantism, Politics is simply a
form of decision-making for community. That is to say, Politics is about community. What
is the human ideal here? Equality, particularly equality before the Law. It matters not
whether a prince or a pauper breaks the law there is a penalty. This creates a „shelter‟ for
the human spirit. A right is nothing other than a community shelter. This ideal and
Democracy are closely related.
In its progress through history the human ideal of
equality, which is still very young in its democratic expression, reflects the growing
perception that the ongoing economic murder of Abel is wrong. Just as murder itself is
against the law and is recognised as such, so murder in all its societal forms is wrong.
Politics makes the laws that govern community. Surely this is the role of the head of the
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A father or mother or both lay down the rules and transgressions have
consequences. Is this not also the realm of the Father? Until the entry of the Son into
human history this is the case. Here we must be disciplined in our thinking, for the path
to esoteric insight in this realm is straight and exceedingly narrow and it traverses that
road to Hell that is paved with good intentions.
Christ entered human history.
He became equally human with us and He suffered for
that equality. Christ is the true meaning of Equality for of course human beings are not
equal either in height, gifts, fears, social status, etc. Yet the sun shines equally on us all.
The sun-like Christ deed, the Incarnation, was the supreme act of Freedom, the supreme
act of Brotherhood with humanity and the supreme act that leads to The Mystery of the
God/Man, a mystery of equality and equivalence that is barely yet conceivable to any but
the Saints. Let us with temerity and the help of Maria Sophia attempt to approach this
It is a Mystery of Joseph. It can only be approached with the greatest reverence for it
lies in the relationship between the Madonna and Child and Joseph. Raphael, the painter,
captures this Mystery beautifully. The Madonna and her Child are equally human, as is
Joseph, but it is the Immaculate Joseph who enters this realm of Equality.
Immaculate Joseph is the Guardian of the Mystery of Equivalence, for a boy-child is born
and the father is the model for the boy and the boy is father of the man. The Father in
Heaven is the Father of the Child of the Madonna, the Father is the Model for Adam and
the Child born to Mary is the Adam of Man. It is through the Grace of the Holy Mother
that these things are revealed for our understanding and this is part of the Mysteries of
Light. This Grace now points us to the Son of Mary as a Man and to an event in His life.
We are pointed to another Maria Sophia, the sister of Lazarus. We are told in the
Gospels that Lazarus has two sisters, Mary and Martha.
Martha and Mary are both
bearers of Economia as outlined above. They maintain a House of the Lord. For without
this maintenance neither Jesus nor his disciples can work.
“Foxes have holes and birds of the air have nests, but the Son
of Man has no place to lay his head.”
Matthew 8;20
Yet by becoming equally human with us He had to lay His head, He had to eat, He had to
drink and He had to die. In these material needs we are equal.
“The Son of Man came eating and drinking..”
Matthew 11:19
Whereas we may each need differing quantities of food, drink and sleep nevertheless we
need them each and every one of us.
The Great Equaliser is Death. Here there is no
ambivalence about quantity. All living things die. Death rules the world of the living.
Christ enters human history to meet Death, for death exists only on earth. Heaven is
eternally living. Christ comes to destroy the equality of death because it is an Untruth.
Death is an Untruth, but an empirical reality.
That is his paradox.
Earthly death
processes are necessary for earthly life, within nature and within the human being. That
is why we must view Death as a spiritual being compassionately.
Death is the great
teacher, the great equaliser on earth and we, out of our own resources can never
overcome him. Death‟s equality is Stasis. Christ‟s equality is Love. As the sun shines
equally on our good and evil deeds on the earth, so shines Christ‟s Love for the earth and
humanity. Christ has overcome Death. What does this mean in terms of the Heavenly
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Polis, the Heavenly Jerusalem?
It means Christ has met Death in all his domains-
physical, soul and spiritual (earth, hell, and being) and forgiven him, Christ has loved him
and transformed him, Christ has taken all forms of death into Himself even to the
planetary cosmic level and through the power given Him by the Father is the Resurrecting
and Life-Giving Cosmic Sun of Love which quickens the dead to life. The Way, the Truth
and the Life. As death rules in the land of the living, so Christ is now ruler in the land of
death, The Holy Land of the Heart.
Thus the equality of the Son is sun-like, life producing and loving. The equality of death is
like chains, static and imprisoning. Politics has a choice, a freedom. But it is Equality as a
love aspect of the Son of Man which seeks to incarnate in the House of Politics, and Love
of the People has always been the motive for democratic politics among those with social
conscience and the virtues of the politician – honesty, honour, openness and flexibility of
mind. Politicians need these virtues to develop the courage to redeem social evil, for true
politicians already see social evils.
Politics creates and can destroy community.
community of love is inclusive.
It can create inclusively or exclusively. The
Now we must return to Mary the sister of Lazarus, the Maria Sophia of this realm.
Around Christ, Martha represents the redeemed Cain and Mary the dead but now living
Abel. Lazarus represents humanity as a whole. The moment of Cain‟s redemption is given
in the Gospels. Lazarus/humanity is sick because it bears Cain‟s denial right down into the
physical economic. Christ has to await Martha‟s full and free recognition of His
Redemptive power. No man can represent Cain for Economia is already a feminine labour.
Then Christ pronounces the Healing Judgement; “Lazarus is dead.” Thus it falls to Martha
to bring the Fratricide and the Fraternity of Man for redemption, and it is Sorority that
is the means of Cain‟s redemption. Here Martha represents Marian Sorority. She cannot
yet represent Anthropos Sophia because Anthropos, human fraternity, and Lazarus
/humanity are dead and in the tomb. Women are sisters in the pain and suffering that
brings forth children. Behind Martha stands Holy Mary the Mother, and behind Her
stands Paradisal Eve, the Virgin Femininity. The Mother Mary in her capacity as Head of
the Household as conceived and enacted in Greece centuries before brings these two
offspring of human generations together both archetypally and as a soul/physical reality.
Spiritual Cain and his sister soul-image Martha are guided to Her Son, who waits for
reasons that are not human but Divine.
“Martha said unto Him I know that he (Lazarus) shall rise again at the last day…Jesus said
unto her, I am the Resurrection and the Life…and she said Yea Lord I believe that thou
art (the Resurrecting and Life-Giving ) the Christ, the Son of God which should come into
the world.” John 11; 20-27
The human thing to do is to rush to the dying brother; even the disciples see this and
struggle to comprehend. The Redemption of Cain leads to the Raising of Lazarus. The
redeemed Cain in Martha goes quickly to be reunited with the Abel in Mary, who is sitting
still, in stasis, and they speak in secret for “the Lord calleth..”, that is to say, through
Martha, the Abel in Mary is Quickened to Life, called to Him. Thus it is through Cain that
Abel is brought back to life and the deed of Cain, the murder of Abel, is redeemed.
Together Christ, Martha and Mary go now to the tomb of Lazarus/humanity. The sin of
the murder of Abel is historically forgiven by reuniting Cain and Abel in the sisters of
This is the illness that was killing Lazarus. For this Jesus Christ wept.
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Lazarus/humanity died. The sin was forgiven.
Christ Jesus raised Lazarus/Humanity
from the tomb of our own sin, from the death sentence that is fratricide in the economic
and all other realms.
Henceforth Lazarus/Humanity was a John, a Grace of God.
Lazarus John. Humanity is a John, therein lies our equality; we are all individually named
John by the Second Adam, the Son of God, Jesus Christ our Saviour and Redeemer.
Shortly thereafter they are back in a House of the Lord maintained by Mary and Martha.
“There they made him a supper which Martha ministered, and Lazarus was one of them
that was at the table with Him.” John 12; 2
The redeemed Cain in Martha and the now living Abel in Mary are working together in the
preparation of daily bread in the Spirit of Truth about economic life.
“Then Mary took a pound of ointment of spikenard, very costly, and anointed the feet of
Jesus, and wiped his feet with her hair; and the house was filled with the (healing)
perfume of ointment.” John 12; 3
What are we seeing here? Simple gratitude on the part of Martha and Mary? An act of
devotion on the part of Mary? Yes all that but so much more: we are seeing an esoteric
and profoundly deep Truth enacted and confirmed. The working together of Martha and
Mary fills the house with healing perfume. They are the economic future. The working of
Cain and Abel, the economic past, must follow in the footsteps of Mary and Martha who
follow in the footsteps of their brother Lazarus John, who follows in the footsteps of
Christ Jesus.
The price is high; Mary and Martha had no fear in expending 1 year‟s
household budget on spikenard and its symbolic meaning and empirical effect. In Islamic
legend Spikenard was the tree from which the first Adam ate. This anointing of the feet
of the Second Adam with the spikenard of the First Adam symbolises among other things
that the sin of the First Adam and his descendants Cain and Abel is forgiven in and
through the Second Adam, not as a promise but as a fact, as deed performed. The
spikenard is not a luxury but a necessity. The anointing of the feet of Christ Jesus with
spikenard is in actuality spiritual sustenance ministered by Abel as he lives in Mary and
Mary as she lives in Abel. The tears which wash the feet prior to this Deed are the
Tears of the Mother and Son which become the Flame of Tears of The Shepherds Fire.
The light cast by this Flame enables us to see again, by Grace of Mother Mary, the basic
economic fact exposed previously in this study.
This time we see it from out of the
realm of the Son, the Celestial Polis/Jerusalem
“And herein is that saying true, One soweth and another reapeth. I sent you to reap that
whereon you bestowed no labour; other men laboured, and ye are entered into their
labours.” John 4; 37,38
The labour of a full agricultural year, 300 denarii, anoints the “I am “of The Bread of Life.
It is at this point that Judas enters.
“Then said one of his disciples Judas Iscariot, Simon‟s son, which should betray him, Why
was not this ointment sold for 300 denarii, and given to the poor? This he said, not that
he cared for the poor but because he was a thief, and had the purse and it was laid bare
to him what was put therein.” John 12; 4-6
In other words Judas had a failure of consciousness.
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He could not rise to level of Christ
consciousness of Mary, Martha and Lazarus John. He was a thief because this failure
robbed him of the light of understanding and this lack of understanding, this darkness, in
turn prompted him to try to turn back time: to take the Household Purse out of the hands
of the women and back into the hands of men, to deny the historical reality of Ancient
Greece and the part of the intellectual soul which is love and which gave birth to politics
and the infant democracy, „he cared not for the poor‟. This failure of consciousness of
Judas is the beginning of the Agony of Gethsemane and would eventually affect all the
Judas‟ denial leads to Peter‟s denials; all are failures of consciousness,
specifically the failure to recognise the Redemption of Cain and the again living Abel, and
ultimately the Power of Resurrection and Life of the Second Adam. Not that Peter did
not recognise the Christ, but that his Christ consciousness had not caught up with the
deed of Christ that is the Raising of Lazarus. The denials of Judas and Peter mark the
beginning and end intensity of this dimming of Christ consciousness in the male disciples
that would not brighten again until Pentecost. Only the consciousness of His Mother and
her ministering sisters accompanied Him fully to the cross and this is revealed in the Pieta
of Michelangelo and in the Gospel of St.John.
At the foot of the Cross christian esotericism sees in “the disciple standing by, whom he
loved” Lazarus John, Raised Humanity. From the Cross come the words heard by three
“Woman behold thy son!” “Son behold thy mother”
When from that moment this new son takes her into his own home, it is the House of The
Lord appearing in the essence of humanity, the realm of Freedom, Liberté et Libération,
the home of the human spirit and the Holy Spirit.
We are therefore justified in thinking of the realm of the Son as that realm concerned
with community and with universal humanity and with Equality, Egalité as described here.
It is universal humanity both as quality of soul and as a societal expression of itself that
wants to incarnate more fully in the House of Politics and that means that Politics is about
social conscience, and social conscience is about love and that we already know. What we
do not seem to know is that the Deeds of Love do not include killing.
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Freedom, Liberté et Libération
The home of freedom is the human spirit and the human spirit is at home in freedom.
“So come all ye at hame with freedom
Never heed what the hoodies croak for doom
In oor hoose all the bairns o‟ Adam
Will find breid, barley bree and painted rooms”
Hamish Henderson (1919-2002)
The Holy Spirit is also at home in Freedom and Freedom, the essence of Man, is at home in
the Spirit. For there is no House of Freedom other than the Body and Soul of Life.
Freedom is about the distinction between the house and the home.
All spiritual,
scientific, cultural, religious life arises out of the freedom living in humanity. As do all
wars, all destruction, all evil done on earth. That is the human wonder and tragedy. The
highest and universal community of humanity is the community of free spirits; nothing
binds them to each other but a shared Love of Freedom. What links the spirit to the body
but the soul. The soul is fundamentally religious in the pure etymological meaning of the
word, re-legare, to rejoin to reunite. All religions are Holy; religions are the holy souls of
humanity. In the sphere beyond the economic and the political – the cultural sphere- is
everything produced by the human spirit from the theorem of Pythagoras to the
microchip. This manifests on earth as everything man builds and has built for himself
from time immemorial: from huts to computers, and includes all political and economic
The exceptions are synagogues, churches, mosques, temples and altars.
These are not necessary for life on earth; these are not built for the earth but for
heaven. All this arises out of the freedom given to the First Adam and his descendents.
Out of the stream of Cain arises natural science and technology, out of the stream of
Abel arises spiritual science and technique. Cain murders Abel, but Abel does not
disappear in the human soul, he remains in stasis. This is the beginning and source of
christian Esotericism in the West. The hidden Abel stream; the visible Cain stream. In
the Old Testament they are moving towards the confluence of the waters that is the New
Testament, the Gospels, and the Good News. And it is John of Patmos, the representative
of John Humanity, the disciple whom the Lord loves who puts both hands into this living
confluences of waters and baptises the future of humanity. That baptism he performed.
It is the Revelation of John or The Apocalypse. It is at one and the same time the
Baptism in Fire and Sacramental Bread (the Holy Spirit), the Blood and the Body. Again
we must be absolutely disciplined in thought here, for St John does not brook fools lightly
and true thinking entails consequences. Due to the Raising of Lazarus the Redeemed Cain
is re-joined to his brother who is restored to him. Henceforth Cain lives in Abel and Abel
in Cain in the Second Adam. Islam has such a clear and beautiful perception of this
Mystery of Equivalence concerning Cain and Abel which is why only Islam has produced
moral banking in the modern world, and why after the economic crash only Islamic banking
remains standing true to God, “christian” banking is back to business as usual under the
guidance of the Myth of the Self-made Man.
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John the Baptist baptised the Past, human evolution, into its Eternal Present. John the
Apocalypse baptises the far future also into Man‟s Eternal Present. But man lives in an
evolving present. The two John baptisms are in linear time; this stretches back beyond
John the Baptist into the far mists of Time and in front of John of The Apocalypse into
the far, far future. In the human soul the past and the future meet in the form of hope.
Hope is the point on the line where all pasts and all futures meet. But human beings live in
an evolving present not a static present. Who then baptises the present from out Eternal
Time? Peter the Rock. Peter baptises continually and furthermore he baptises each
individually. John the Baptist baptised only once at this level by bringing humanity‟s entire
spiritual and earthly history to the Jordan where it descended on Jesus of Nazareth in
the form of a dove; John the Apocalypse baptises also only once, the Apocalypse was
written only once and its symbol the Eagle, is the rising phoenix, but Peter the Rock
baptises continually. St John the Baptist, St John and St Peter all dip their hands into
the same Holy Water and they form their hands into cups with which to bring the Water
of Life, the Baptismal water to humanity. Through Christ this water is changed into wine
for the sake of Lazarus, Judas son of Simon and Simon Peter. It was Simon who asked for
and heard given this Petrine Blessing on behalf of us all. For we are all Judas till we
become Johns but there is only one Peter, only one rock, and only one Earth on which we
are all called John. Peter‟s Baptism has no symbol, it is actual, the Eucharist. Symbolically
it can be represented by Salt (bread) and Water (wine) but equally salt can represent
blood, indeed blood tastes salty so it need not represent it since it is it. Equally Salt and
Water can symbolically represent the clear fluid and the salty blood which flowed from
the Wound to the Heart, but again blood is salty so need not represent itself.
Salt+Water+Earth (grain)+Fire = unleavened bread.
John and John work in linear time, the horizontal, Peter works out of eternal time, from
above to below, from Heaven, perpetually re-uniting it with Earth. The Johns represent
the redeemed Cain; Peter represents Abel who never needed redemption, the good
shepherd. On this rock Christ built, on Peter whom Christ Jesus Himself named. This
works down through the realms of the Heavenly Hierarchies to Earth perpetually, the
recognition of which is the greatest human freedom imaginable.
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If we now return to Maria Sophia and ask who is the Gospel figure through whom Spiritual
Science, Christian Cosmosophy, works then the answer is the brother of Simon Peter,
Andrew, The Protokletos. This is the first man called by Christ to walk from the water of
John‟s Baptism to the Baptism in Fire and the Holy Spirit which is Christ‟s Baptism.
Andrew, the Protokletos, Christ founded His Science, the Science which preceded the
redemption of Cain ; Cain from whom all earthly science and technology has progressed in a
steady stream up until our days.
What arose from the tomb of Lazarus was also
Resurrected Science; it received in Lazarus its blessing, Lazarus John,(Christian
Rosecross as Christian esotericists know him) the Beloved Blessing of Humanity. Science
henceforth, no matter the appearances to the contrary or the howls of protest by
materialismus, is the work of Andrew the Protokletos, Lazarus John and Christ Himself.
Christian Esotericism is founded by Christ on Andrei, the man of courage, the true man,
the manly man. Christian Esotericism and Hermeticism know Lazarus John as Christian
Rosecross, and know Andrew the Protokletos only in his philosophical manifestation Andro-
Sophia, for John the Apocalypse allows no man of impure heart or mind near Mary, the
mother of Jesus.
Clarification of this highest and purest Mystery of the Son of Man is the Apocalypse of
John and is the Life Working of the Protokletos. In the 19 th and 20th centuries, in the
density of materialism, came the prototypical and protokletian spiritual scientist of the
future and into the depths of the beginnings of technological warfare, the “clean” and
automatic killing machines so beloved of the followers of Herod and Pilate, he poured
Apocalyptic Truth. This man was Dr. Rudolf Steiner. He laid the philosophical base with
his work The Philosophy of Spiritual Activity,(Freedom) in the 19th C. and worked
tirelessly for the Redemption of Science in all its branches thereafter. Had his followers
had the capacities or the will to develop them to the required degree then it is entirely
possible that the Second World War and the most appalling mass human sacrifice in all
human history could have been avoided, for men are free to choose only when they are
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awake and perceiving.
The reality is that Steiner wanted no followers, he wanted
“understanders”, those willing to “stand under” Andrei-os. He was one of those brothers,
the free courageous true man who goes entirely his own way to Christ when called; he was
an Andrei. He freely gave up his academic philosophical and scientific work for the work
of representing Protokletos in the modern age. In his wake will come a long line of
Christian Esotericists and Hermeticists and Spiritual Scientists to assist their Patron
Saint, Andrew Protokletos, in his loving task of ministering to the needs of his first
brother, Peter the Rock, and through Peter to all the Apostles. Furthermore Rudolf
Steiner made public the training of esotericists and hermeticists so that any human being
could follow Protokletos. As a result of this occultists, obscurantists, lovers of political
and economic secrets, ideologues and assorted other madmen pursued him all his adult life
and several attempts were made on his life.
For the Truth is that the followers of
Andrew Protokletos are willing servants of Peter the Rock who guides the Holy Spirit from
Heaven to Earth perpetually under the guidance of the Risen Christ.
Through the Andropos Sophia of this man, Rudolf Steiner, the “ground plan” of the New
Jerusalem and its human architects Lazarus John, John the Apocalypse, and ChristJesus
Himself was revealed. What is guarded and will always be guarded is the Future. No man,
esotericist or otherwise will be permitted to steal the future from the Woman and Child
clothed in the sun, moon and stars, for it is John Apocalypse himself and all his followers
past, present and future in Heaven and on Earth who hold the Keys of the Kingdom of the
Holy Land of the Heart, and it is John Apocalypse alone who opens and seals again the
Book of Resurrected Science in the presence of Andrei Protokletos and it is Andrei
Protokletos who receives his Holy Instructions from Peter the Rock who was given the
Keys of All Kingdoms of the Earth by Christ Jesus himself and who opens perpetually the
Blessed Scripture in the Name of God the Father on earth, God the Son on earth and God
the Holy Spirit on earth.
What is commonly called Anthroposophy nowadays by those who created a Society around
RS is the result of a complete failure to understand what is contained in his master work
The Philosophy of Spiritual Activity, (otherwise known as The Philosophy of Freedom) an
academic work completed before he left the spirit of academia. He repeated many times
to the deaf ears of the 20thC. both outside and inside the Society that all his later work
and production was on this foundation.
He himself was never a member of the
Anthroposophical Society, nor did he found it. He was a member of the Theosophical
Society until it became clear that its leaders could not or would not see and acknowledge
the Western Esoteric Tradition in its own right. Prior to this he had sought, with his later
wife (but continuous co-worker) Marie von Sivers, to bring Andro Sophia into the Masonic
stream where St Andrew, Patron Saint of Scotland and Russia would be able to guide it
through the Scottish Rite with its 33 degrees.
The resistance was enormous and
complete; for Masons resisted any Sophia being intruding upon their cosy ignorance. It
was clear to Steiner and von Sivers that that route was hopeless; by then it was no longer
Freemasonry but a boys club with no serious christian esoteric intent, at least in middle
The only thing Rudolf Steiner founded was an Esoteric Schooling and that at the behest
of St Michael, the Archangel, the inspirer of courage, through 3 representatives of Maria
Sophia, his wife Marie von Sivers and his co-workers; the medical doctor Ita Wegman, and
the astronomer Elizabeth Vreede. He had by the First World War stopped all esoteric
schooling and resorted to architecture, the arts, science and technology to try to advance
the cause of Andrei Protokletos.
This attempt ended with the burning of his
architectural masterpiece, The House of the Word; on New Year‟s Eve 1922/23. From
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the ashes of this setback he again attempted a New Esoteric School at the behest of St
Michael who then guided the last year or so of his life. This Divinely inspired project
remained barely a fragment and he died with only a fraction of it complete. He was
showing the world what is also contained in this study, Andrei Protokletos at
work,(Andropos Sophia), in order to avert the catastrophes looming in the 20thC from out
man‟s separation from the world of the spirit; man‟s irreligiousness. For this reason and
this alone he decided to become president of a re-founded Anthroposophical Society since
the first AS founded by those who chose to leave the Theosophical Society with him had
failed miserably. He inaugurated this amid the ruins of his building during Christmas
1923, and into it he hoped to found the Esoteric School of St Michael which he would call
The Free High School of Spiritual Science based on the university model. It was not to
be. The anthroposophists did not want such a school; they had plenty to be going on with
from his countless lectures and few books. He died with only the smallest fraction of the
School of St Michael appearing within the Anthroposophical Society. This Society has no
ownership over the Esoteric School of St. Michael, or even now over the fragment of
lessons given to the High School by Rudolf Steiner since copyright has now run out.
Andropos Sophia demands Truth, Spiritual Science demands Truth, science in all forms
demands truth. Andrei Protokletos is a being whose heart is The Truth.
“.. I can impart no more esoteric a saying to you than:
Christ is seeing us.”
Rudolf Steiner, Dornach 1915
The AS failed to incorporate its beating heart and living breath – basic, ordinary human
compassion- essentially a failure Steiner described in his sociological lectures as a failing
of the middle classes arising out of the inhumanity of the industrial revolution from which
they arose. This failure resulted in the First WW and the Russian Revolution. In other
words, the middle classes allowed their Cain to murder Abel and denied any responsibility –
Malthusianism as justification.
Rudolf Steiner and many other true Christian
esotericists and hermeticists completely unknown to the Anthroposophical Society worked
tirelessly to waken up humanity, and into the aftermath of the First WW he placed the
small book, The Threefold Commonwealth, in the hope that the leading classes, politicians,
generals, capitalists etc would grasp the truth. Simultaneously he was working as sculptor
on his carved masterpiece the 9 metre high statue of the Sons of Man which he called The
Representative of Humanity. This work was an artistic co-operative venture, a concept
Steiner worked all his art work through, as was the painting of the interior of his first
and only building. His building was externally a modest but technologically beautiful and
accomplished building in the architectural style of his time and standing somewhere
between MacKintosh‟s Glasgow School of Art and Gaudi‟s Sagrada Familia, beautiful
functionalism married to sacred necessity. The building was completed and worked on by
builders and artists of all the warring nationalities of the First WW and was then torched
by the enemies of Peace working through a madman.
Only his woodcarving was rescued
from the flames of this conflagration. He foresaw in these flames a further and more
horrendous conflagration to come – a new crucifixion of Christ and John Humanity, as it
turned out, through His Innocent and Most Beloved People, Christ Jesus parental stream –
the enormity of which he expended the rest of his life trying to avert.
The Truth of these matters is that wilful ignorance is an abomination and we are all born
ignorant and remain woefully ignorant, but in each and every life the Holy Spirit always
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ensures there are many free choices and opportunities to be called. Ignorance is not a
sin, wilful ignorance is an abomination. What happened in the world during the 20thC is
that Abomination came to earth to live.
The mass murder of Jews, Gypsies,
Homosexuals, Incapacitated, and other innocents by “clean” technological means is the
Archetypal Pilate Deed.
It says, “There is no blood on our hands, they are a technical
hindrance needing a final solution because they drain resources and offend the eye.
Indeed their poverty of morals, hygiene, understanding etc is an offence to the eye; let us
rid ourselves of them. Let us loose eternal hell on the earth and burn them in clean fast
burning ovens. Let us be economic and make useful things from them beforehand, things
like experimental animals for science, lampshades and leather for craftwork, let us make
their teeth into the new dollar and hide it in the lust for bullion and the artworks and the
property we have stolen, for we may have need of it in the future and let us use their
ashes for some useful purpose like cement or fertiliser ”
The anti-dote to this soul sickness was given 2010 years ago and has always been available.
In the 20thC Rudolf Steiner gave it in spiritual scientific form. Alas his followers failed
to distribute it. Instead they wasted their time building a mausoleum to him, against his
public instruction during the Christmas Re-Founding meeting of 1923. All that remained
of his first building was the concrete foundation and the statue. He alone would
incorporate these foundations into a new building he planned to build totally in concrete.
Concrete is an Alchemical substance and at that time an innovative leader in the
construction industry both in its own terms and in technological terms. This would have
been a marriage of Christian Rosicrucian Alchemy with its materiality, a totally alchemical
building. The architect‟s intention was again to produce a building marrying functionalism
with, this time, spiritual scientific and technological activity, artistic activity and a new
esoteric school. The alchemical building material concrete would form the whole building
and he himself would guide the technology and technique of the production of flowing
concrete forms for he alone was esoterically capable. Into this House of Resurrected
Science he would incorporate the remnants of The House of The Word. He died before
anything but foundations were laid. Almost immediately his followers chose to ignore his
instructions and themselves built, not the building the architect intended for only he could
build it, but a mausoleum which in the 1980‟s had to close its doors to any more ashes of
dead anthroposophists being crammed into it.
The statue occupied an upper room
surrounded by the ashes of dead followers, which says it all.
The rationale for this
absurdity was that the carving had been attacked by a madman, a fate that also befell
Dali‟s St John of the Cross. That did not prevent Glasgow City Council having the painting
repaired and put back on public display, after all what harm can a madman do a 9metre
woodcarving? The interior is entirely the work of his followers, as is the exterior, so it is
at the very least disingenuous to call a mausoleum on a hill “Steiner‟s second building” when
the intention was to build on Dornach hill a New Acropolis in the middle of Europe for the
confluence of the waters of science, art and religion. No second public building, Polis, of
Steiner‟s exists on earth. The christian esotericists and hermeticists of the Athens of
the North were shattered at the betrayal and the followers of Andrew Protokletos,
inspired by St Michael and St Andrew vowed in the Heavenly St Michael School and on
earth that Truth Will Forever Prevail over the destiny of this man, this most courageous
of brothers.
The soul sickness has not gone from humanity, the political economy of Pilate and Herod
haunts the world killing innocent and guilty alike without conscience. Those who failed to
slay Goliath chose to substitute Saddam Hussein, whom they had created themselves as
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the diversion. The most pathetic figure in the whole sorry enterprise is Tony Blair the
British Prime Minister of the day and now UN Envoy to the Middle East who displays an
astonishing capacity to believe in fairy tales and myths about tyrants inhabiting far lands
and threatening his land with missiles made of hot air and technology that his
predecessor, and therefore he himself in political opposition (along with his pals in the US)
sold to the said tyrant. Such astonishing naivety or culpability is not good in a politician.
Like all his ilk who base politics on belief rather than social conscience the means justify
the ends; in other words they contribute to perpetual bloodshed whether their ideology is
of right or left or middle, whether their ism is capitalism or communism or threefoldism,
whether their belief is scientism, fundamentalism, or egoism.
In deed, I say to you all personally, the gold wrenched from the mouths of the innocent
and used to make the new dollar has brought crashing down the obscene and grotesque
mockery of world economy. For human life is spiritual gold without price and only the
Politics of Herod and the Political Economy of Pilate fail to see this in their lust for power.
It cannot be spoken how profound is the depth of the debt humanity owes to all those who
walked with the dignity, beauty and innocence of Christ Jesus into the horrendous ovens
of the eternal hell of man‟s inhumanity to man. It is hard to believe that there are those
who choose freely eternal damnation of their own humanity; but lust for power and greed
for gold know no mercy.
In the banks of the west it is business as usual, panic over; in the chambers of politics is a
hush of cancerous guilt at the failure to slay Goliath, the Self-Made Man; in the Holy Land
of the Heart the architects have spoken, the drawings have been revealed, the labourers
are at work and the New Jerusalem is descending. The Field of Blood is already
excavated, the foundations already poured. The Apprenticeship has left harbour and all
are on board.
May you dear reader live to play your part, and may the enemies of Peace wail and gnash
their golden teeth to dust which we will scatter with joy in the Holy Akeldama of the Holy
New Jerusalem.
Esoteric resistance to the machinations of evil requires only the courage of christian
esotericists and hermeticists to look alchemically or humanly at the blood on Christ‟s Face
or His Feet or His Hands or His Heart, the angels and the saints take care of the rest:
this RS told to Ita Wegman on his deathbed and when she asked if he had any message
for the anthroposophists he turned his face to the wall.
The saints on earth are all those who pray, and it is by grace of those praying saints of
every religion that christian esotericists and hermeticists live at all, for out of the
prayers and the goodness in every church, mosque, synagogue, temple and lonely altar
those doomed to spiritual science are saved.
May God bless and comfort all those mothers whose sons and daughters are dying at this
very moment at the behest of Herod and Pilate. May we be Ruthless with ourselves so
that we fear not to be Ruthless with the enemies of Peace, that Truth may increase from
what our hearts would found and our heads direct with single purpose. Amen.
Elizabeth Ancrum Mackenzie 2010
For those wishing a forensic insight into the workings of the Spirit of Haste and his role in the Iraq
war I recommend watching the video of Blair‟s testimony to the Chilcot Inquiry and then comparing this
with the testimony of Clare Short also to the Inquiry. Available on the internet.
For those who don‟t speak Scots, Hame is Home, Hoodies are Black Crows, Hoose is House, a‟ is all,
Bairns are Children, Breid is Bread, Barley Bree is Water of Life and Painted Rooms is The Aesthetics
of Economics
The front cover painting is The Risen Christ as The White Horse of Columba, The Fifth Horseman of
The Apocalypse by the author 1986
The House of the Word
The House of Resurrected Science, The Free Acropolis
The Raising of Lazarus
Duccio di Buoninsegna 1319
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America: the Central Motif

America: the Central Motif (by Patrick Dixon)*

*reprinted with permission, and at the same time with

a great deal of gratitude that this exists…


It could be said that the American Dream has lived within and accompanies the generalized westward motion of those civilizations that are collectively known as the Post Atlantean Epoch, comprising seven cultural ages (from 7227 BC 7894 AD)

The impulses for the Post-Atlantean (Aryan) Root Race were taken east; and from a region in the Himalayas the sowing of the seeds of those cultures that would begin their long westwarding sun-following journey was brought about by the Seven Rishis; who were the bearers of the seven Higher senses, as I’lands that would descend upon an arising humanity in the future.

The five Islands sunk as the five senses became immersed in the physical plane and the human being began to rise above the sea of pre-individual clairvoyance; to see the Promised land of ego-based consciousness. This condensation of and separation between the watery and aerial mantles of the Earth (this fall of the sea out of the sky) paralleled the fall of the Etheric body of the human being, into closer proximity with the densifying physical body that was rising into differentiation as the less defined etheric body was sinking. This division between the water and air elements reverberated deeper and higher, both densifying the earth as a receptacle for the more gravity-bound water and dividing further the sub- and super- terrestrial fires. Levels that were clearly defined to higher beings then began to form into the Jacob’s ladder that would be experiencable to beings bound to a sense world losing consciousness of its supersensible origins.

The great sequence of civilizations that unfolded as the Post Atlantean moved generally in a westward direction, focusing and converging towards the Incarnation in the Middle East. The voyaging of the Sun against the eastward turning motion of the Earth’s material body was a reflected image of the Solar Logos as it moved across the Earth, both entering more and more deeply into matter, whilst also becoming more and more committed to strive against it and transform it. This reached a climax in the event of the Incarnation, in a body so constituted that it would be able to lead the newly formed Ego being of humanity out of the dark severance into which it had fallen.

The western experience (for people on all landmasses) became archetypally associated with the setting of the Sun. This picture has several meanings, one being the sinking of consciousness down into the dark unconscious region of the Will, deeper than the feeling realm of the heart, into a place from where there can arise either the light magical acts of an awakened being, or the nightmarish deeds of the self-darkened self. The dawn is a daily remembrance of the time when the Sun left the Earth, just as dusk is a presentiment of that future state when with all its transubstantiating powers it shall rejoin our planet; and that which has poured light into the eyes of physical sense shall dawn out of new eyes as a Spiritual and soul Sun, new eyes that shall become one I that shall bestow life and consciousness on all that it shines upon.

For this ‘all seeing eye’ to become an all being I’ it must set into the darkest, most separate place, die to itself as the seed in the soil, give itself to the deepest purpose of all, then by a mysterious alchemy, the Will of all shall surrender to the one, and there shall arise a type of human being who will perceive the Universe as being an Individual while they and other human beings are experienced as being universes within themselves.


The landmasses of Eurasia and Africa extend from the Arctic to well south of the Equator but the greatest area of land unfolds in an east west direction. The northern Hemisphere is the one dominated by dry land; the southern is more fluid, womblike and feminine, as the metabolic region of the body; and like the interior depths of the body, it lives below the perception of normal sense faculties or thought.

The dry land of the north was a basis for the development of objective consciousness (the dryness of thought rising as a continent above the seas of feeling). The Afro-Eurasian landmass spoke of the Eastern past and of the Western future; it neither completely remembered the one nor foresaw the other. The Americas are the arriving at the future and the returning of the past out of it.

The Americas stretch from pole to pole linked by an almost continual belt of mountains. In Central America it could be said the Eastern Pacific overreaches itself to almost touch the Western Atlantic as it flows into the Caribbean. In this place the meeting of the great eastern Water and the great western Sea and the touching of the Northern Continent and the Southern landmass describe an immense planetary cross of the earth and water elements. Here, also, there rise in the chain of mountains many that are firetopped instead of snowcapped, and blowing to and fro across these and up and down their length are winds from every quarter It is a heart formed by the rhythms that pulse into it, and like the heart in the human being it receives and passes on influences from the upper to the lower pole and back; and like the heart, it is located above the planetary, bodily centre of gravity of the Equator. It could be called a dynamic centre of levity.

The North polar ice cap, like a skull enclosing, frozen over the more fluid brain, or, in another way, like thought crystallized out of feeling, carries its cold conditions south by way of the high spine of mountains that reaches down through the Americas; and in this one can see how two conceptions of height and upwardness are united, the upper pole of the Earth with its drier nerve sense extremity, and the polar conditions that are found above a certain height on all mountains. Special influences are received by the Arctic from the constellations that are above it; the condition of the water beneath the ice cap is highly receptive to cosmic influences because it is far removed from the rapidly turning Equator and its burgeoning life; these waters like a finely tuned instrument pass tones of infra- and ultra- sonic frequency that are received by the myriad fish and marine mammals that disperse down into the warmer waters; also along the spinal cord of metals and minerals that are contained within the backbone of mountains that straddle the Earth through the Americas are passed magnetic forces and resonances not detectable by present instrumentation; these are those received by the Poles from the Cosmos, that advance and retreat, according as to whether the Pole is tilted away from or toward the Sun.

At the other, Southern Pole, it is not an enclosing of fluid, rather it is a rising out of it by solid land, just as the solid bones of the limbs descend out of the soft fluidity of the metabolic abdominal region. the cold of the upper pole is in a spiritual sense the cold of thought, withdrawn and aloof, the cold of the lower pole is the cold of the will that goes its own way that separates and asserts itself against life; it is a cold that denies and rejects the existence of others. The Antarctic is colder, stormier and more desolate than the Arctic; in human and spiritual terms it could be said that one is as an inner cold of the self, the other a far more dire and active cold that spreads beyond the self and makes all others as itself.)

The primary polarity of the poles to the Equator is again divided in itself into a secondary polarity as to the unique qualities of the North and South; in the great land bridge of the Americas and along its length cross and mingle the currents of these opposites. America was to be the place where human beings would be able to bring harmony and equilibrium between the pole of Thinking and that of Will and this made possible through the development of the Heart center of Feeling. The longitudinal alignment indicates that no longer journeying toward the Promised Land of reconciling these extremes into a new conscious balance, the American will have arrived. This is the real American dream, where each either attains mastery over and harmony between the opposing tendencies of human nature, or is torn to pieces by the conflict between them.


Now we must enter upon a dark passage in American history, that has cast its spectral shadow over all levels of’ manifestation, a tunnel that had no light at the end of it, which could have brought the Fifth Epoch to a dead end. It takes a special light to see in this darkness, but see in it we must, if we are to illuminate with new understanding many of the difficulties and trials that America has had to and still will have to face.

In Central America at the time when the Solar Logos was incarnated in the Middle East there arose as a counter Mystery of the heart, the practice of human sacrifice expressed in the ritual of cutting out the heart and sometimes the stomach, and there was also widespread ritualized decapitation; these practices vanished and reappeared from then on in Central America right up to the time of the landing of the Spaniards. However they were initially inspired and for a very specific purpose at the turning point of Time (c.1-33 AD). The being that instigated these dark mysteries knew full well that anti-spiritual and materializing forces flowed most powerfully from West to East; an attempt was made to sacrifice, remove the hearts, and shed the blood of as may human beings as had been involved in the lines of descent of the Hebrew people up to the Incarnation; and this quantity of murders had to be performed within a limited amount of time if they were to have the desired effect, for the initiator of this was diabolically attuned to the Divine Mystery that was unfolding itself in the Middle East, and through this was holding, as it were, a shadowy mirror up to those events that would bring forth a reversed image of all that was purposed in the deed of Christ. If this Adept of the dark path had been able to work unhindered and deflect all the light streaming from the acts of Christ into the reversing mirror, the humanity of the future would more and more have become a shadow, a benighted reflection, an inverted image of itself, where all good intentions would be twisted, polarised outwards and manifest as actions of evil effect.

However this being was hindered and caught in his own mirror and all the intended effects were reflected back upon their initiator, for another, a forerunner of those humans of the future who will balance all the sides of their nature and solve the equation of the Poles came with the Great Dream and with that fought the American Nightmare so that the Dream could be realised in the prophesied American Awakening.

Advancement on the sinistral path means the decision to avoid self sacrifice, and the evasion of this, inevitably leads to the sacrifice of others, for the giving out of what has been developed inwardly is a process essential for the evolution and movement forward of all systems. The primal aim of these rituals was to prepare, through deliberate desecration, a climate, location and milieu in which the Ahrimanic entity could work its purposes most powerfully; this Being destined to incarnate and by this we mean, to bring together in embodiment on the surface of the Earth, members of its being that had previously been separated and formerly worked out of different spheres; this incarnation would act as a lens that would bring into focus the unified beam of its Will and its Intellect. But there was one great obstacle to this, and that was the phenomenon of human Feeling which at the time of the Incarnation of the Solar Logos was to receive an irresistible strengthening. So the realm of Feeling had to be cut out, removed from the inner Sanctum from where it was ordained to bring about the transformation of the external world from the Soul outwards. The heart is destined to ‘come out’ of the body when it has evolved from its present physical objective noun state, in which it is subjected to all the pressures and oscillations that work upon it from the terrestrial and sub-natural planes, when it has again become etheric, no longer bound by a physical form, but then become a spiritual force, a verb, as it were, able to subject the world of dead objects to its own ensouling powers that will raise the Physical condition of Form and Mineral condition of life into higher states of conscious communion.

Had the light hierarchies only been involved in our evolution, the internal organ systems of animals and particularly of human beings would never in their finished work-state have been revealed to outer perception, but it was the activity of the Luciferic that caused an enclosing away from and separating out of life forms from their cosmic origins, and also a turning of the senses outward while sealing off the organism from consciousness and vision of what Divine cosmic Beings were bringing about within. Therefore it became increasingly difficult for humanity to live in the lap of the Gods, to bathe in the creative light by looking within; the consequence of this was that the hierarchies began their withdrawal, sacrificing a part of their being to become the foundation principle of the more deeply incarnated human body. The ensuing opacity brought forth that severance inherent in a physical and materialized condition of there being one dimension that was visible and one that was invisible; cutting in to, or bringing to the light of the human senses that interior physical world (which can only be safely done by Christ consciousness), removing it from its hidden matrix, meant endangering or bringing to an end the life of that beingness. Exposing the Life pole to the untransformed Consciousness Pole would bring about a divisive death impulse, the converse exposure would bring about madness arid chaos. Wherever there is confusion, order has been taken away; wherever there is death, life has been taken away, somewhere else, stolen into another realm that has no legitimate order or life of its own. One of the signatures of the Adversaries is that they interfere with the rhythmical time aspect of World development. And so, the heart was taken out prematurely in a material state not brought forth in due time as a redeemed power by individuals from within themselves, but cut out by an entity outside themselves. This was so that the sacrificers could grasp hold of the organ which had come to a completion as far as the Higher creative Beings were concerned. Because these latter had withdrawn, leaving the fruits of their Wisdom in its structure, the Lords of the Dark Face knew that now was the time to unseal it, to tear it out, before it was too late, before it changed from being an organ of Cosmic Divine Wisdom to being one of Human Divine Love.

The after-effects, echoes and reverberations from these blood rites have been many and varied and will continue to work so long as we do not bring any heightened awareness to bear upon them: first, the removal of a rhythmical integrator; then, a closing of the gap left, the creation of a Ring of power so that, in the present world, the atavistic clairvoyance of an earlier state of feminine oneness  (which the Mexican Mysteries wished to preserve in the Solar Plexus of the Amazon to the south) and the premature onesidedness of masculine intellectuality, as found in the modern United States, would have no mediating influence that would heal them both into a new relationship. Rather the head pole would impose its rigidifying logic of the inorganic upon the life pole; and that, in answer, would react with natural catastrophes and disasters, diseases of the Earth’s metabolism.

The Middle East above the Equatorial midline, was the place for the initiating of the evolution of the Heart as being the heart of Evolution. Central America was the location where the Heart won for itself, after a fearful attack had been launched upon it, that magical capacity for reconciling the polarities that is the essence of being human. Although the battle for the heart has been won for the light, the preparation for the Incarnation of Ahriman goes on, and though the full intention behind the Ritual murders was not realised, many things were achieved through them, that can be felt in every aspect of contemporary life.


The history of North America and its peoples reveals initially a tremendous activity of the Will in the pioneers, but a will asserting itself against Mother Nature, and then a correspondingly great activity of Thought, to devise the sciences that would enable the imposition of the technological over the biological and natural.

America is also the story of different Races and how they have all been subject to the American Nightmare, how they have all lived in the Dream and shall all participate in the Awakening. It is a building with many stories and they are all interconnected; it is the story of the Metals, how as Atlantis was sinking, the Etheric essence of the seven planetary Oracles was taken East, and the seven related metals sank further into a physical condition in the West. The way cosmic forces were transmitted through the planetary oracles of Atlantis reappears as the physical properties of electricity and magnetism, which are residues of cosmic powers from earlier times that have fallen under the influence of matter and gravity.

America is a Nation of Races at the present time. Before the arrival of the European, America was a Race with many nations. The situation of a Nation overarching different Races (some of which are again under different Folksouls) marks the beginning of the end of the present Races: each can play their part in attuning to the new moral and social imaginations that are proceeding out of the Second Manifestation of Christ. The Red Indian, the Saturn Race, in living closely within the cycles of Nature, helped to insulate North America, from many of the harmful residual influences, that worked northwards out of the darker Mexican Mysteries: when the white Man came and largely displaced the Indian and their relation to the land, these influences could begin to infect North America more strongly: some of the Folksouls of the Black Race, in a gesture of sacrifice, allowed their peoples to be enslaved, and as it were to be inserted between the newly forming Nation of North America and these Mexican forces: the Black Race absorbed these in being subject to slavery; and like a new string in the great instrument, did much to heal the damaged rhythmic system of the Continent.

The Indian Folksouls loosened a part of their being from the physical Plane, sacrificing their oneness with nature, and rose – transforming into a Time Spirit, that now and into the future, will bring to all the Earth, in full wakefulness, the harmony in which they lived as in a dream in a part of the Earth. Now in the Happy Hunting grounds, they seek as the Spirit of the Echo – Logos, awakened echoes in the Ego-sphere, awakened Egos in the Ecosphere.


There are certain events and phenomena in the American story that are as it were templates that have already and will further appear in other parts of the world; there is now a kind of eastward flowback of social and consciousness forces of the American Experience. The activities of souls, who are open at this threshold of the West and East that is California, will occur as human acts of light and darkness in the future all over the Earth. The American state goes beyond its Western margin, and via the state of Hawaii closes its ring of power through its influence upon Japan. On a deeper level the war that involved Japan was brought about as part of the Adversary’s plan to permeate and inoculate the Orient with those Institutional, Social and Economic structures that would later facilitate the incarnation of a World Government. On a profounder level, this plan is merely part of a much vaster one: the world Unity expressed in one Legal system, one Currency, one Language, one Military, provides those things that Ahriman shall attempt to enforce upon humanity prematurely from the outside, having first created the world situation that seems to justify those measures. This imposing of future forms prematurely (on a smaller scale the introduction of intellectual abstract thinking into the education of very young children) is actually initiated to prevent the integration of the Ego into the Human Being within those rhythms of development that alone make it possible for the person to come to self-possession and responsibility to others. One language and Religion would have within it a reemergence of Ancient Egypt; one Legal and Military would recapitulate the Centralized power of Rome; one Currency would replay the Hebrew and Mosaic Laws of property and the Babylonian application of Number and work which on a small scale was used in connection with slaves.

Before the Incarnation all humanity was in a sense becoming enslaved to the Physical plane, and the enslaving of others was the turning outwards of the idea of work. Both the receding of consciousness of the spiritual behind Nature and the darkening and hardening of substance turned work from being led by and inspired by semi-Divine Beings, to being something that was enforced by beings becoming demonic: from inspiration to perspiration. Yet this slave-driving and wringing of sweat from large groups of people had its place, because through this suffering and toil the astral body was purified and was prevented from either falling asleep on the physical plane or becoming completely diverted by it. This pain drew the I closer to the embodied state and prepared the house to receive its dweller. After the Incarnation, the idea of work was to become more structured, more differentiated and individually chosen. Under the influence of the Second Manifestation of the Logos we can expect the meaning of work to evolve again to an understanding of the individual’s place in the Great Work. Outer work will become in the sphere of Agriculture, Architecture, Chemistry and Medicine and many other areas, both the conscious transformation of the self, and of the planet, into higher conditions of Form and Life. The work of one incarnation will also be remembered and picked up in the next; the sense of purpose and fulfilment will extend beyond the limits of one lifetime and expand beyond the bounds of one dimension; work will become being, inner and outer work will become one in a way, as never before; and so masculine and feminine, work and recreation will unite in joy and this Joy is the seed that will be contained within the Love that is the fruit of this Earth-incarnation of the Earth, this fruit to be formed on the Tree of Wisdom that grew out of the living soil of the Old Moon state of our Planet; the seed is the Joy of those human beings who will have mastered the forces of Life and Death, and out of this seed will arise the joyful creation of Jupiter.

The mission of the Earth-incarnation of the Earth is essentially to bring about a harmony between Thinking, Feeling and Willing; the basis of what would later manifest as human Will being laid down upon the Ancient Saturn incarnation of the Earth, that of Feeling upon the Old Sun embodiment and that of Thinking on the old Moon, these three stages also laying down successively the germs of the Physical, Etheric and Astral Bodies. This triangle and the other ones of Goodness, Beauty and Truth; Religion, Art and Science; and Bull, Eagle and Lion, represent principles that once balanced and attuned will turn what is now being composed, into a living symphony of Love that will be received into the Cosmos as a new Music of the spheres; out of the great Pralaya, into which the Earth’s planetary body shall be carried by a Humanity changing its Earthly Form into a Universal Force, the Planets, their solid body being leavened, being spiritually potentised as it expands into the sphere of what was its orbit, (this being the result of human beings loving in full awareness across the threshold of Death), so the spiritual worlds shall become as full of conscious human individuality as the Earth existence is imbued with spiritual Community. There will come a point when the veil shall be lifted and we shall see clearly where we have come from and where we are going; physical sensations shall become soul experiences, all subjective states shall be seen objectively for what they are, and all that was previously the immovable dead world of outer objects shall be subjected to an inner life so powerful that it will raise them to a living inwardness in which there will seem to be No-Thing, nothing but Being, no things only Beings. This will be a Pralaya of the second order: this will be the womb out of which the Jupiter incarnation of the Earth will be born.

The preparation of this distant future state is active now and asks that we wake up more and more and participate in it.

In this preparation, the purpose of pain is partly to draw our consciousness to a certain area of our body or being because that part needs healing, which means transforming; for whenever we are healed, at whatever level, our condition is not simply returned to what it was but returns on a higher curve of the spiral; we re-cover, closing ourselves to the Healing activity of others (again able to take up the full responsibility for our own health); we re-cover processes that must remain hidden until our consciousness is strong enough to enter into them and take them over. The premature uncovering of certain soul and bodily faculties before they have truly become our property, that is before we have awakened to the seeds within us and how they should be nurtured, allows these seeds to be taken and grown for other purposes.

This prematurity is one of the hallmarks of America, having found the wealth of all the world, before having found one’s own soul America jettisoned the old forms of Church and State and growing synchronously with the new forms of Technology, the steamboat, railways and telegraph, it proceeded westward at an ever increasing rate leaving first villages, then towns, and finally cities in its wake. This first great wave determining the pattern of the next, the establishing of trade routes, the arrival of the internal combustion engine, the laying of roads, the American Engine shifted into a faster gear: mineral resources from one part of the country were freighted to another involved in manufacturing some product; this was transported to a third place; the endless never sleeping circulation had begun. The question of how to do things overtook the question of why they should be done; it seemed unnecessary to ask why any more, that was of the Old world. The New world knew what it had to do and only asked of itself how it should be done. A tide of humanity was surging in from the East; half of Europe seemed on the move. As if in anticipation of this, the West had to be opened up. Forests had to be cleared. The Indians had to conform or be fought. The coming of motorized transport, mass production, aviation and the manifolding power of Electricity spun the web into completion; the nerves of the State now reached into all the muscles of the Nation; but what of the land? Did it have and was it having surgery performed on it? Were its vital organs being removed? Was its heart being cut out to make room for a transplant from another part of the World? Modern America was now embodied, as a new vehicle constructed, a new house built, but would something try to steal that vehicle and drive it off the High-way of evolution, into a cul-de-sac for humanity; some landlord take over the house, and demand a rent the tenants could not afford to pay? The voice of the Land, the Red Indian, was not heeded or even heard amidst the noise of the accelerating drive of the New America. If it had, it would have sounded a warning: to transplant the living heart forces from one part of the Earth to another may be possible and necessary, to bring about new life, but to remove the Heart of a land, then manufacture one of materials that have not evolved within a body and implant it as an artificial heart, will bring about either the rejection of that heart or the death of the body into which the organ is introduced or both.

A great image of the desecration of the land can be seen in much that has been done in the name of agriculture; the deforestation of much of the broad-leaved deciduous forests that stretched for hundreds of miles westwards from the Appalachians, similar to the cutting down of the larger part of Europe’s deciduous temperate forests; this did much to the rhythmic system of North America.

The natural zones that traverse the landmasses of the Northern Hemisphere appear in belts or rings that modify effects and influences that proceed up and down between the poles and the Equator. This is seen very clearly in the Continent of America with its pronounced North-South axis. The Arctic Ice cap and Ocean yield to the Permafrosted Tundra; this surrenders to the coniferous Taiga which in turn capitulates to great Plains, Evergreen rainforest to the west, wooded hill country to the east; then into what was the vast wooded region of the Forest Indians; this area then bows down along all its varied front, gradually defeated by the vast tracts of scrubland and semidesert to the west and the warm temperate wood and grassland to the east, this region falls away through Mexico giving in to the superior power of the Tropics, and running up and down through all these changing zones, rise the mountains, varying in their foothills as they stride from north to south, but little changed in their heights on their peaks. From these serene and lofty heights a vision of Eternal America may perhaps be beheld, a deep gaze and a high seeing, that could stretch from the time of the American Sleep when it lay beneath the sea of seeing before it rose to become a Land of Being, through the American Dream, unperturbed, through the American Nightmare, to the American Awakening when all gold that is trapped, stolen out of the life into material darkness shall be dematerialised and rise up as an inner Sun force dawning out of the transformed hearts of human beings.


Now we must descend again from such poetic elevations, to the present time and those broadleaved forests. Their partial removal has meant that cold air from the Arctic has been able to descend further south less warmed than it should be and warm air from the Caribbean has been able to go further North, less cooled than it could be; though the great plains are a band that stretch almost from the edge of the Boreal forests to the coastal plains in the South, the grasses of the Eastern plains are generally taller and more luxuriant. This factor like the Broadleaved forests of the East, moderates movements of air and temperature within the day and night and seasonal cycles. The interference with these is an afterworking of the Dark Magician of the Mexican Mysteries; where the unmodified effects of one Pole, the cold, are brought inappropriately and prematurely into relationship with the hot Pole. This has definitely enhanced the activity of what is known as Tornado Alley, (where approximately 700 tornadoes swirl annually, collectively equal to the power of one hurricane).

The tornado is an external image of the way in which forces work in the human being, when the modifying activity of the heart-lung system is unable to relate the inner with the outer and that which is below with that above, in the normal balanced way. The tornado is a kind of meteorological heart-attack, also stroke with the heat of the Metabolic system spiralling upwards on one side and the cold of the Nerve sense system spiralling down on the other; this, transferred within the human being, is similar to what precipitates a heart attack*. The conception of the heart as being merely physical, has the effect of taking it out of the soul rhythms; this makes the middle system more subject to external temperatures and pressures and the oscillations of the Earth’s electromagnetic fields which start to affect it adversely. And this is intensified by removing the life cover of the outer environment, forests and such like, which through the Etheric connect the Earth with the Cosmos. The drive towards the denudation of the life realms of the Planet’s surface, is part of the Adversary’s plan to bring about a uniformity of environment causing a withdrawal of the Risen Ethers and a corresponding exposure and surfacing of the fallen etheric matrix, which compels all organism towards mechanism, denying the threefold lemniscatory movement which socialises the innate antisocial tendencies of both the Metabolic and Nerve sense Poles.

This polarity is expressed in two of the most recent developments in technology, that of Nuclear Fusion and that of Superconduction, the one needing tremendous heat, the other requiring intense cold. Superconduction through the use of newly discovered materials with certain impurities is getting warmer: Fusion, it was recently claimed, was getting colder (this has temporarily been denied – it may yet be achieved).

What is the significance of this? It can be described as a convergence towards the temperature of human blood, the two poles of a Being coming towards incarnation. The incarnation of Ahriman focuses and compresses into one body and one locality. The idea of Fusion and Superconduction are part of the American archetype in many ways. Through the activity of Christ we are all participants in the great Fusion programme, the fusing of the indestructible individualities of humanity into a new Spirit of Form, a Cosmic Pralayic chrysalis, out of which the imago of future states will arise. All these self-important programmes of scientific endeavour, to draw more energy out the material world for material purposes, are only caricatures, parodies compressed into the mode of substance and mechanism, of those nearly silent mighty processes of evolution through which the superstances of Higher Beings are drawn upon by the inner work and moral development of human beings for the transformation of the Earth. The Sun is silent and yet without it there would be no Music, no Sound, and no noise on this Planet.

*(the seed of the spiritual heart wishing to open, meets the resistance of the Adversary, that aims to hold it back, out of the stream of evolution, so that it remains bound in the physical condition of Form & Mineral Condition of Life. It is this meeting of the stirring seed, with the present conditions, that is behind much Heart Disease)


The fourth Occultism can really be called that of the Musical (the Mechanical being more connected with Saturn, Hygienic with Jupiter and Eugenic with the Moon respectively of the West, the Central and the East). The Musical is of the Sun, and is of the whole world harmonising the other three. And it was this Occultism from the Sun Lodge (transformed from the Sun Oracle of Atlantis) which held the mysteries of the Etheric body and its transformation into the Life Spirit. It was this knowledge that lived in Vitzliputzli, Sun Hero initiate of the sixth degree. In growing up he would have learned to attune himself to the experience of the soul as music within the body, and how out of the being of humanity there would arise that which would raise the Americas into a mighty monochordal instrument, strung and fretted with mountains, forests, plains and rivers, in which and across which resounded the Elementals orchestrations of air, water and light; how the Sun plucked the different zones into motion as it moved daily from East to West and yearly North to South; in a fusion of the mystic and the ecstatic he learned to hear the Music of the Spheres echoing both in the depths of his inner self and in the elementals behind outer Nature.

This Echo Logos (who was able to be and echo the deed of Christ) would bring a tone to the Americas, that would be sought in the Vision Quest of the North American Indians; and arise again in a materialised form as the modern superhero, bringing harmony to a society out of tune.

The human being as a bridge and a conductor between the elementals and nature Devas and the creator Beings of the Hierarchies, this was Vitzliputzli. Christ was the bridge for the human soul back to the Spirit; the future mission of Vitzliputzli could never be realised without the deed of Christ coming to fulfilment, so the Light Magician of Mexico was drawn in to ensure the success of Christ’s task.

The deed of Vitzliputzli in overcoming the Dark Magician, was one preeminently of timing, that is of Music. Christ said not my will but Thine, and sacrificed Himself into the discords of the whirling sympathies and antipathies of the Whirled and stepped into the rhythm of the Passion in Harmony with the Father Force. Vitzliputzli communicated this stupendous performance, to “the dance of the elementals.”

The Dark Magician tried to tap into the discords of the Sixth interior Sphere of the Earth, which is connected with the Earth’s volcanism. Volcanoes in the Tropics, particularly in Central America (because of the prevailing wind system patterns), have a property unlike volcanoes in higher latitudes, of spreading the plume of their effluvia over the entire Earth. The aim was to excite such an intensity of hatred, such an outpouring of human selfishness, that this would have reacted upon the sub-physical Fire Earth of the sixth interior level so that this would have answered with a massive volcanic eruption that could have cast a mantle, a pall of dust and debris, around the entire globe. This would have been the dwelling place of dark elementals, cutting out the Sun and the Cosmos, and making it impossible for human beings to become anything but expressions of what had existed in the interior of the Earth, but now enclosed it.( When the first Atomic Bomb was tested in Alamogordo, New Mexico, the same being was at work, constrained then and for the rest of Earth’s evolution to work through human minds benighted by Materialism; both Nuclear winter and the words of the Revelation that speak of the Sun being darkened are all related to this.)

What happened in Mexico was one great attempt at this: the Aztecs feeding of the Sun with human blood was brought about by a fear of the Sun going out if it was not nourished. This fear was kindled by the Dark Magus – “the De-sol-ator”; in a counter mystery of the Etherisation of the Divine Blood given by the Solar Logos as eternal nourishment for humankind. The False Prophet, another name for the Magician, through causing this new Atmosphere to rise out of the interior of the Planet would also have gained for himself, a new sphere-encompassing sheath to his body.

Vitzliputzli, through the presence of Christ on Earth, was able to Orchestrate the elementals of earth, air, fire and water, and the Devas of the mountains, the forests, the rivers and the plains, and the Guardians of wood and metal to resound together and subdue the sixth interior Sphere.

The anti-Christian feelings that surrounded the Solar Logos during the Passion were to be the fuel which from the Sixth Sphere, would have enabled Ahriman to have been sucked out of and blasted through the Mineral Sphere, coming to power, in turning the world inside out. The many murders performed by the desolating One” had enabled him to project and incite such a blasphemy of hatred, half away across the world in the Middle East. This power and the knowledge of its use had been gained through a long established pact with Ahriman.

The supreme moment had arrived, between the Crucifixion and the Resurrection, before the entrance of Christ into the planetary Etheric. It was then that the Earth’s dark Shroud was intended to come forth from the interior: but as in all suspenseful drama, at the last minute of that eleventh hour, such a chorus resounded from the Poles along the mountains, setting in motion chords resonating through the great rings of forests, plains and metals, along the mountain spine, (as notes of changing pitch moved the Devas linking North and South, East and West, inspiring the sylphs of the rivers and streams, and of the rising and falling airs), that the mighty American Cross of the Elements reverberating through the Being of Vitzliputzli as Echo-Logos for an eternal moment set into vibrant sympathy the Rings of Mineral, Plant and Animal, elemental being and Deva around the entire Earth, the Rings that remembered the encircling of Cosmic Creator Beings, as they were whirling the World into being, the whirled into seeing, (because of the fall, the landmasses had separated the rings had broken, the peoples consciousness had fallen apart into locality). This moment was both a memory, of the time before the One Song had fallen into the many Languages, and also a prophecy, of a time when the Rings shall again be reforged, by a world-encircling human Imagination; when the broken rings shall be united and human feeling shall girdle the Earth, as it did then in Vitzliputzli; when human awareness shall encompass the sphere, and the Suffe-ring become a spiral.

The power of the creator beings flowed through him into their estranged offspring, the Elementals, and these answered with a music that in its composing brought about the decomposition of the Dark Magician’s plan, so that what would have been the terrible noise, which could have finally deafened the world, and brought the Deaf-end of the planet, in which the Music of the Spheres might never have been heard again, instead became the glorious hymn of the Resurrection.

It was the love of Vitzliputzli for the elementals and Nature spirits (this love made possible through the Being of Christ) that brought to these Beings the idea of sacrifice and heroism, which enabled them to participate with a human being, as they would with all who would rise to a true Ecology in the future.


America struggles with its shadow and dark reflection: this landmass was rediscovered, settled and established synchronously with the descent from the higher worlds of the great dispensation of Music that is based upon the interval of the Third; this an image of the Devachanic descending to the Earth. The transformation through Bach into Beethoven offers a kind of Memory of the deed of Vitzliputzli; and a foretelling of the higher human being of the future, who will bring Harmony between the rhythms of world communities and the Melodies of Eternal Individuality.


The Importance of Franz Bardon for the future of Anthroposophy***

The Importance of Franz Bardon for the Future of “Anthroposophy”***

***[ I experience that word as referring to a scientific Method of Cognition, while – for me at any rate … Spiritual Science is the Content. And like any science, we are free to disagree with Steiner, and let him be a human being, who had, and created again: karma.]

Wikipedia: “He was born in Troppau (Opava), Austrian Silesia. Bardon continued his work in the fields of Hermetics until 1958 when he was arrested and imprisoned in Brno, Czechoslovakia. Bardon died from pancreatitis on 10 July 1958 while in the custody of police.[1]

The lore is that he was also imprisoned by the Nazi’s in WWII. As an occultist, he would draw the attention of government agencies that would like to “use” him. If he didn’t give them what they wanted … Being a magic artist of the spirit, he hid in plain sight, having a career as a stage magician. His three books were first published, in German, in the 1950’s.

Divine providence led me to Bardon, about a year and a half into the change of personalities. In my early thirties, and living in the magic school of SF and company, I remained somewhat of a materialist, which was where Joey’s agnosticism was a primary tone in our shared soul-body. I read a book on the Magic of Findhorn, and became convinced that magic was real, which truth would account for certain unusual events that had already happened in my biography.

When I finished reading that book, I went for a spirit walk, seeking an object – that had become lost (stolen). My pretend wizards staff, decorated by my hand, – a five foot wooden treasure found in Yosemite Park. I did not expect to find it, but the idea of it was in my soul as I took a walk in the Berkeley neighbor were I lived. The spirit-walk involves coming to choices of direction, and making it up out of the intuition of the moment.

Within two blocks I was walking by a tiny bookstore that I frequently passed, but never visited. The window was full of used “poetry books” and books on the study of “literature”. The door was open, and leaning against an outside wall was a tall narrow bookcase, with a couple dozen books, and a sign: “Occult”.

I looked for a book on magic. There were none. I spoke loudly to the person behind a far counter in the back, and asked him if he had any books on magic. He said no, and then as I turned he said: Wait a minute. I just got this today, holding up a yellowish cloth covered used book.

I walked back to him, and when he handed the book to me I looked through it, and given that mostly I thought of ceremonial magic as how magic was done, this was obviously the book: “The Practice of Magical Evocation”. This contents page was pointed, and brief – one full page, sort of captured below,

“Introduction; Part One Magic; Magical Aids; the Magic Circle, Triangle, Cencer, Mirror, Lamp; Wand; The Magic Sword, Dagger and Trident. The Magic Crown, Cap and Magus-Band, Garment, Belt Further Magical Aids. The Pentacle, Lamen or Seal; The Book of Magic Formulae; In the Domain of the Spirit Beings …

… 12. Intercourse with the Beings, Genii and Intelligences of all Sphere’s by Mental Traveling; 13. Magical Talismanology, Epilogue, Part Three: Illustrations

The beginning page number for “illustrations”, in the copy I have now, is: 333. There are almost five hundred of these “sigils”, taking up about 160 pages, which are used to do ceremonial work. Several are very elaborate. Most … not simple, but basically just a line or two, with curved and straight parts.

The book seller asked for $7.50, and that was exactly the amount of all the “money” I had in the world, at that given moment. Easy choice.

The subtitle to this book is: “Instructions for Invoking Spirit Beings from the Spheres surrounding us” There are about 112 pages of exact descriptions of the names of the beings, to which the sigil is a help in forming a connection. These are organized according to the Zodiac, as well as the Planetary spheres. So we might find different entities for Venus, or the Moon, or the Sun, whose “house” was in so many degrees of Aries.

In the above work he explains that one must “become familiar” with up to Step VIII, in this first book – “Initiation into Hermetics”, if we want to succeed with this guide to ceremonial evocation. The subtitle to that book is “A Course of Instruction of Magic Theory and Practice”.

“IIH”, as his Facebook followers call it, is 300 pages. The exposition of the Theory takes 40 pages. There are ten steps to practice. Each step is divided into three parts: Magical Mental Training; Magical Psychic Training; and, Magical Physical Training.

His third masterpiece is also the most mysterious in a way: “The Key to the True Quabbalah”. The subtitle: “The Quabbalist as a Sovereign in the Microcosm and the Macrocosm”. 270 pages, 30 pages of Theory, and then 210 pages of Practice.

For those interested in Eurythmy, the practice includes a study of each “letter”. These all appear to have an individual arrangement of sound, color, feeling, and idea, although some letters share certain aspects as do others … their particular combination is unique.

It is helpful to observe the basic structure of all three books. First Theory, and then the Practices by which we prove the Theory to ourselves. After about five years of reading and rereading these books, I met Steiner through his books. Then – almost ten years later – Tomberg. In IIH, at the time I starting read Steiner, I was learning to whole body breath in and out elemental fire, via Step III practices.

Like most of us, I spend a bit of time looking back over my biography. One of the riddles I‘ve been working has been how to give some order to the experiences that the Mystery has put me through. As to Bardon, and Steiner, and Tomberg, … I see them as a threefold revelation in the Good and the True. Not separate, or rival Ways, but one whole Way. Yet, King’s stream, not Shepherd’s.

Steiner teaches a path of initiation – via Cognition, as a scientific discipline (a new thinking). Tomberg teaches a path of initiation, as mystical and magical self studies of our Feeling perceptions. Bardon’s way of initiation trains the Will.

It is not necessary to master all of what has been offered. Still, a good library should include all three of Bardon’s books. Plus a fourth – for fun – book, not Bardon. St. Germain’s wonderful “Practical Astrology”, the ancient Egyptian version, which makes one system out of tarot, numerology, and astrology. Amazon has it.

Next: Bardon Made Easy.

There exists all manner of stories about magic and such. I use the word “lore” to identify a source more in the nature of delights for the imagination, that do not have to be believed, yet are a kind of teaching themselves For example, tales about magicians often have them chasing sacred books on “powers”.

In the lore of magic books there is the idea of secrets. Layers of secrets. To read such books is to be on the lookout for a puzzle or two or endless. An intentional puzzle. Makes the reader have to be awake while reading.

The main secret unveiled by Bardon, is the teaching of the meaning of the name of God: the Tetragammaton, or Yod, He, Vau, He.

In most modern schools, the history of science will cover those prior ages where the terms: fire, air, water, and earth were taught as the basis for material reality. These schools will assert that that way of looking at reality is not true. From Bardon we discover that fire is the symbol for will; air the symbol for intellect; water the symbol for feeling; and earth the symbol for consciousness.

It is called: the Key of the Elements. Ancient lore from India, to which Bardon concurs, is that the elements are born in the Akasha – the realm of causes – from which they descend in this order: first will-fire (Saturn); then intellect-air (Sun); feeling-water (Moon), and consciousness-earth (Earth).

The most important Step in IIH is – obviously – the First. The training only asks that you sit quietly, at least five minutes a day, on a regular basis. Faced just with earth-consciousness, we might contemplate the idea that this state we call “experience” is a consequence of a woven melody of will, intellect, and feeling.

Another crucial training-task is to learn to do full-body pore breathing of the light. So there we are sitting, and we can attend to the breathing, but add this magical nuance: light takes up ideas, and we can do a practice that imagines that the light that is breathing in and out of your whole body can contain a wish. Practice reveals that the simplest wishes are the best. I breathe in life and light, and breathe out disease. The former I imagine as coming from the cosmic periphery, and the latter is what my body eliminates on a regular basis.

The main experience to acquire is of the “vital force”. Try not to breath, and you will feel this living power. “In It (the Word) was Life, and the Life was the Light of the World”. St. John. “The river of living breath is flowing through the sun. He was there before the earth began” Moody Blues

The effect of this training is to become more awake in our ethereal body. Given that the ethereal realm of life and light is also the world of thought, for the anthroposophist seeking the mysteries of cognition this work is an aide.

In the magical mental training of Step I is the idea of learning to follow a train of thoughts for ten minutes. It is harder than we “think”. The untrained mind wants to jump around from concept to concept, with many of the connections missing. The mysteries of the use of the “intellect” are there to be discovered.

Step I Magical Mental Training: 1) thought-control, discipline of thoughts, subordination of thoughts.

Step I Magical Psychic Training: 1) Introspection or self-knowledge 2) Making of the (black and white) mirrors of the soul.

Step I Magical Physical Training: 1) the material or carnal body 2) the Mystery of Breathing 3) Conscious Reception of food 4) the magic of water.

Most all of us have morning Rites. These habits are ritual-like, and can be accomplished with a whole other self-chosen conceptual character. Bardon’s remarks on the “ideas” in the words above, give great depth to the understanding of the magical nature of ordinary life. When we leave our place of rest, and go into the world of rush rush rush, the inner skills – slowly developed with our morning ritual – can be applied the rest of the day.

A critical morning process is that on awakening we brush the skin everywhere – a two or three inch wide paint brush (hair based, not plastic) takes care of that. This opens the pores, and may result in a need to release water. After the brushing, we wash, by a hand-cloth, the whole body with cold water – no soap. This is not an immersion, just a washing away of various nighttime pore excretions. Then we dry the whole surface of the skin with a rough towel.

Keep in mind that the skin is the largest sense organ by far. As we are the microcosm, we might imagine the “skin” to be the materialization of the world of the stars. While the physical body has a peculiar shape, the ethereal body is rounded. From George Adams’ wonderful: “Physical and Ethereal Spaces”, we are led to the idea that ethereal space is infinite, while material space is finite.

This waking up the flesh increases the sensitivity of the consciousness, such that after a while of daily pore breathing of the light, even if just for a few minutes, allows the attention to have a more holistic experience of the material body. We don’t just imagine the breathing in of the life and the light, we start to feel it directly, everywhere. Bardon points out that we must leave the breath to itself. We just feel it, aka: the vital force, or in Steiner, the body of formative forces.

The watery nature of the material body allows for spiritual currents and waves to be generated into the ethereal, through thought. The pore breathing, left to itself, unites the various sensations we are experiencing in the moment. The back ache merges with the rising and falling of the chest, every aspect being interconnected.

Do this everyday, when possible, and the consciousness begins to discover order in the apparent chaos of how it feels to exist. Stuck in traffic? Pore breath. Draws us into the Present, and thus less agitated at being stuck.

Ceremonial Magic is everywhere. If we read Bardon carefully, we discover that ceremony can be as simple as crossing one’s self, or chanting, or making circles of the thumbs and forefingers.

The Gate-Steps (each a labyrinth and maze) in Bardon’s books are a necessity beginning, as most of us have hungers that are seldom leashed. Wish magic, remember. When I put up my videos on Youtube: “On Becoming a Real Wizard”, many correspondents thought of magic as powers. They wanted spells. This in spite of the first video talking about a “wizard” is one who has a wise head, and a wise heart. A person who is a student of reality.

In that first one (or the second) I introduced my audience to Steiner’s “A Theory of Knowledge Implicit in Goethe’s World Conception.” I still get complements.

In a not so obvious way, Bardon points to a certain idea. Often we will find many sentences where the magician in training is called a magician. Once in a great while, Bardon uses the terms: “the meditating scholar”. We read the books, at our own pace – we become familiar with the basic ideas.

During our Rite, we can apply what we are learning as possible, when we are just “sitting”. In my own practice of late (two years ago, over the period of the Holy week at Easter, I reread IIH, and took copious notes … During this scholarship, I made a single copy of all the Magical Mental Training Steps.

We, as meditating scholars, can then move forward in this realm of spirit (mental = spirit; psychic = soul; and physical is the corporeal body. The scholar, who practices the Mental Training Steps, can advance in those disciplines faster then the others, as long as they continue the work of the black and white mirror, which involves self-determined moral achievements. Magic itself is neither black or white, but rather the question involves the “use” and application of the practices. If I wish to harm someone with magic, this will impede mental or spiritual development in the sense of the quality of our actions. As Baron puts it: Magic is like a knife, and the way we use it has consequences.

Vertical integration Magical Mental Training

Step I: 1. Thought control, discipline of thoughts, subordination of thoughts

Step II: 1. Autosuggestion or the secret of the unconscious 2. Concentration exercises: a) visual/optical. b) auditory. c) sensory. d) olfactory. e) taste.

Step III: 1. Concentration of thoughts with two or three senses. 2. Concentration on objects, landscapes, places. 3. Concentration on animals and human beings.

Step IV: Transplantation of consciousness: a) into objects, b) into animals, c) into human beings.

Step V: Space-Magic READ FIRST, and read often ~!~!~!~ the center of the book (and system) is here ~!~!~!~

Step VI: 1. Meditation on the own spirit. 2. Becoming conscious of the senses of the spirit

Step VII: Analysis of the spirit with respect to the practice.

Step VIII: 1. Preparation to mental wandering. 2. Practice of the mental wandering. a) in the room, b) short distances, c) visits to friends, relatives etc.

Step IX: Practice of clairvoyance with the help of magic mirrors: a) seeing through space and time, b) distant effect through the magic mirrors, 3) different tasks of projection through magic mirror.

Step X: Elevation of spirit to higher levels.

[Hint!: the best magic mirror is our own consciousness, just as the best magic circle is the thumb and first finger.]

Recall that in The Practice of Ceremonial Evocation, Bardon says that to have success, we need to have to “become familiar” up to the level of Step VIII: Preparation to mental wandering.

The meditating scholar can experiment. Theory, then Practice. The book on ceremonial evocation can be used to give some self-chosen order to our regular Rite. We can download a copy in PDF form, which means that we can search the book. Suppose we wanted to know something about electricity. We do a search for that word, which will lead us to specific spiritual beings, say those whose area of expertise is electricity, among other virtues.

For example, we can begin the study of this phenomena, following a prayer to the higher beings, where we ask for a specific being to aid our search for knowledge, through intuition. We don’t think about the evoked genius … we think about our riddle.

Steiner made us a bit dependent upon his thought, given that he was human, and capable of error. Here, with Bardon, we find ways to personally go to the source.

In the Theory section of IIH, Bardon points out that his books are but a trickle of the available wisdom, and the student should aspire to knowledge on multiple levels. For Steiner folk, we have Goethean Science, a treasure most have not studied, because our leaders don’t know their value.

Goofy? Magic actions I have undertaken, when under the influence …

I had taken some window-pane LSD (high quality), and was awake the whole night, out of my body. Mostly there was a lot of noise, many voices, seeming to give advice, but … at one point I recalled an elaborate image from Bardon’s book on evocation. The name of this powerful genius is: Aschmunadai.

We came toward each other, in a scary rush. I felt as if I would disappear. Fear drove me to run the other way, as it were. The event spoke: You are not at all ready to meet me.

One day I took some type of powerful drug, whose name I cannot recall. I was laying on a mattress in my basement hovel, and at one point my body began to shudder. I let this process go on for a while, when all of a sudden large air ducts from the nearby furnace crashed to the dirt floor.

California was experiencing a severe three year drought, especially in the Bay Area near SF. I went with a friend, to a party about 60 miles north, on a commune. The friend and I enjoyed sometime away from others, using a blanket.

Far in the distance, I saw three small clouds. I prayed to them to bring water. A little bit later we had a slight soft bit of rain. I took from my pack a small glass jar,

and went to a nearby stream, freshly rained upon, and filled the jar with its water.

The next day, back home, I walked to the Berkeley U.C. campus, going to the well known Eucalyptus Grove … in the center which is a small open area, with some fallen trees to sit on. A small stream, that is still allowed to run through the campus, passes by the Grove on its journey.

I took the water that I had collected, spoke another prayer, and poured it into that stream.

Three days later, after dark, while I lay on my back … drifting mentally, when the loudest thunderclap I’d ever heard broke a hole in the sky, and rain poured down in floods. Lightening hit transformers in various places, and people lost power.

At the moment of the power loss (learned of this much later), a woman of intimate acquaintance was in an elevator in a hospital, on her way to deliver a baby girl, to be named: Sage. The elevator she was in, stopped right after the thunderclap, which was heard all over the Bay Area. Fortunately, the hospital generators kicked in and the birth was successful.

One day I was working off some overdue rent, by painting out an apartment, where a smoker had lived for over twenty years. The liquid nature of the paint was pulling out brown nicotine spots everywhere.

At one point I took a break, lit a joint, and stared out the small window in the bathroom at a quite cloudy sky. I did an experiment. I formed a picture in my mind of a triangle, and into that triangle I projected a sigil image from Bardon’s text on evocation.

Immediately I saw forms in the chaos. They were frightening – skulls and bones. I had a hard time dismissing them.

As a consequence of these experiences I realized magical evocation was not something to play with. Fortunately, I was at that time getting deeper into Steiner, and the Goethean scientists. So I wisely abandoned wizardry for spiritual science.

All the same, the skill at pore breathing has grown. I recently had a V-tac event (heart racing), and the doctors talked me into allowing them to put in a defibrillator pacemaker, in the left side of my chest. My body rejected it, … the wound would not heal. Visiting nurses could see wires through the wound, so it was decided to take the object out.

This last procedure left a larger wound, which healed quickly … to the point that the supporting home nurses were quite surprised. I didn’t tell them that many times a day I was pore-breathing life and light into the area of the wound.

For folk, who do hands on healing work, Bardon’s IIH teaches how to transfer the light, via ourselves, to a client. In order to protect them from unbalances within us, we first take in the light, without releasing it – seven times. Only then do we “channel” the life and light forces from the cosmos to the client, keeping in mind the “idea” we wish these ethereal forces to incarnate.

The meditating scholar will soon discover that the highest power is knowledge.

The Secret Solace to all Sexual Identity Riddles

The Secret Solace to all Sexual Identity Riddles.

The trickiest – self-growth art to accomplish – is to be a “human” being. Raise the kids to be “human” beings, and the rest will take care of itself.

Talking to males, whether men or boys, as if there was something more manly, or boyish, they could be … misdirects them as to what to observe in the world and in the own self. Same with girls and women. Being a “human” being is easier than being a feminist. The former is your own true nature, and the latter is something artificial. You put it on, and wear it like a hooded cloak.

That said, all of us create masks, and favor tales of our own life that are unknown except to ourselves. Life wounds us, and we enter adulthood scarred. A toxic male is just someone helped to lose their humanity, and it has nothing to do with their gender. Same with a stone cold bitch. Survival instincts are a gift.

There are a lot of human beings becoming out there. They are surviving the end of Western Civilization, one long day at a time. There are folks needing help, and there are folks needing to be helpers.

We can see a world of woe, the Four Horseman in action. These are not mythical creatures, we just have forgotten Them. We look to blame the individual, or the system of governance, or the corporation, when the Hard to Face Fact is that the Divine Mystery is real. Rogue weather, wars, famines, plagues, deaths, conquests, are responses to our actions. Just as has been reported, through all the ages, via the envoys of the Goddess.

Yet, change is accelerating, while what used to be called progress is failing. Helping a person, becoming a “human” being, is purpose of the World School. An individualized collage of hard knocks and shared pain. Sometimes needing help, other times being able to help – one human hand clasped to another.

We should not just see a world of woe, but a world of joy as well. For example, many English speakers have the phrase: the Universe, as meaning the giving and taking unpredictable stream of daily life. Fate and Fortune seen not as accidents, and just random bad luck … but as necessary and needed teachers, who give us strength to make – from day to day, perhaps even moment to moment – difficult choices.

The world is a garden seeded with developing human beings. The basic irony is that we actually are the right person, in the right place, at the right time. In hard times, hard choices are inescapable.

Eight billion plus are on their personal circus ride. Because, in this moment, in the birth cycle of a planet of potential human beings, there are special soul developments available. Growth we can take through to Eternity. Except, She warns: If we don’t take better care of the Park, She will have to Atlantis “Western” civilization

The hand-writing on the wall is plain. We all know it. She just gave us a time-out to reflect, and now we get to change the game, based upon what we are learning. This is happening at a level the major media sloths don’t notice. Personal lives are in the hands of rather amazing potential … the only problem is, or can be, if we think that everyone else should feel and think like us.

Whatever their religion, or other state of spirit-enforced with punishments imaginary … Hell is not real. Death is not the end. Which for some people is not the Way they need to see existence. Fear of hell, and of death, can be a necessary idea-context for many.

We are, at core, a will that can bend, but never break, a mind forged into the sword of He who does not bring peace, and a heart filled with wonder. She, who has the whole world in His Hands, has individualized us. Each unique.

Being a consciousness, becoming a human being, at a time when the yoke of scientific materialism is being rejected, … means rediscovering a world in which magic is actually possible. Just consider the fact of your own ability to “experience”, and “think” for yourself. We bought into the folly of dominion over the natural world, and this led to seeing our world as separate from Her’s. It is not, and the wonderful idea of Faerie and the Fae (which includes us) is true.

A great gift, to be free to choose, or not, to go back to the Garden, and to know the Tree of Life. To see the hypocrisy of dominion-over, and seek to replace it with the reality of communion-with. They wait patiently for us to love Them back.

Want to know how to cure cancer? Listen to trees, especially the Old Growth Forests, where Her alchemists make Ways to cure the effects of all the poisons we have left around, not seeing Matter as alive.

By far the great majority of the people in the world live lives of quiet desperation, studying their personal version of Buddha’s First Nobel Truth: Life is Suffering. Some few crazy-folk have the Bill Gates psychosis: They let themselves believe that their wealth is self made, and is a sign of such genius that they know just how to fix everything – that is wrong … everywhere else, but in their own house.

The folk wisdom is: They: Fate, Him as the artist of karma, and Fortune, Her as Divine Providence … They give us just enough rope by which to hang ourselves, billionaires included. Whether we use that rope, or not, that’s our choice.

It can be a grave Fate for each of us, to experience this crisis the Hopi call: The Day of Purification. Yet, Fortune abides. To have a place to sleep out of the weather, and regular food is a blessing, many take for granted. Notice that the pictures of the “rest of the world” on the News are lies, in the sense that these stories are telling the truth, beauty, and goodness of our earthly life.

There are billions of folks not at war. There are billions who survived the plague. There are billions who meet Death through flood and storm and survive – and others, … when She truly receives us, many will not return – reincarnate – for a long time.

Welcome to the Cosmic Circus. Play your part, dance your dance, and attend – with gratitude – to the Divine Mystery, the real Ringmasters.

introducing the three renunciations

Tales from the past … the three renunciations. [while distinctions are made, the reality of the reader will be more chaotic. The three renunciations are a secondary level of life’s teachings … the latter being the Seven Stages of the Passion of Christ, discussed in glorious detail in: “Cowboy Bebop and the physics of thought as Moral Art”. ]

Again … everyone is the right person in the right place at the right time. One way to describe our biography is via those Stages as metaphors … Washing the Feet, the Scourging; the Crowning with Thorns; the Carrying of the Cross; the Crucifixion; the Entombment; and the Resurrection. The trials do not occur in that order. There isn’t some other place where we are supposed to be … a hint: when our thoughts are rejected harshly, by family or friends, this is the Crowning with Thorns.

Some years ago I wrote a long article called: In Joyous Celebration of the Soul  Art and Music of Discipleship.

Near the beginning I write: “The Alchemical stream is a stream of studied spiritual knowledge and of initiation. It is more of the Kings and of Gnosis than of the Shepherds and of Faith. The Discipleship stream is more related to that moral work in life that comes from following the Teachings of Christ, and thus is more of the Shepherds than of the Kings. The disciples, who were meant to be fishers and shepherds of human beings, were not (in general) of the old mystery streams as were the Kings. The Shepherds belong to what was being newly created – to the future Mysteries that are to arise from the social commons. These future Mysteries are not to flow out of the old, now impotent and dysfunctional hierarchically organized Mystery Centers, but from finely and homeopathically distributed Branches and Discussion Groups – that is the New Mysteries are to be born out of and in ordinary social life where groups of individuals draw together (wherever two or more are gathered…).”

The essay is long, and contains an examination of a life of moral action, that takes place within the own soul. I was inspired to write it by reading an article by Dennis Klocek on soul alchemy, where he writes of four trials, an earth (freedom) trial, a water trial (phenomenology), an air trial (silent practice), and a fire trial (dialog). He drew this gesture in the form of a mandala, and it occurred to me to wonder where we go after the fire trial – do we go on to new level of freedom?

To my thinking, in response to his work, appeared the idea of the four intervals that appear between the five states. These thoughts were rooted in my own practice for decades, wherein I discovered several modes of thinking, to go with several moods of feeling.

From: the Rising of the Sun in the Mind

We are capable of various “modes” of thinking, once we start to
seriously explore our minds. Some names for such modes: comparative thinking,
associative thinking, warm thinking, cold thinking, heart thinking, imaginative
picture thinking, thinking-about, thinking-with, thinking-within and thinking-as.

All such thinking modes are influenced by moods, or feelings. Such as anger, sadness, joy, fear, antipathy, sympathy, pain, pleasure, and such cultivated (intentional) moods as wonder and awe.

Modes and moods combine in the mind in a great variety of Ways. Notice your own “habits” of mind. Consider changing some of them. In this sense the mind is an “instrument” we instinctively know how to play. Learn to go beyond instinct and play the instrument of your mind consciously.

In our minds there are capacities of the own will: the attention and the intention. The attention is where we direct the mind – what are the “objects” of thought to which we “attend”. The intention is the reason, moral or otherwise, that we form thoughts. Play with these capacities. Experiment with them. Learn from their existence.

While all minds can potentially do all things, your individual mind will have habits from a lifetime of dealing with “life”. Trust your habits, but at the same time, consider whether or not you need/want to continue doing them.

Thinking about, thinking with, thinking within, and thinking as, are the four intervals, from the point of view of the Shepherd’s Stream. In between the four intervals are three renunciations. Thinking about is our normal / fallback state.

So we have thinking about (related to freedom); … followed by thinking-with (related to phenomenology; … followed by thinking-within (related to silent practice); followed by thinking as (related to dialog).

Because of our human nature, thinking about is accompanied by instinctive feelings of antipathy and sympathy. These are not useless feeling-senses, yet they are also a beam in our own eye. To learn – in freedom – to Judge Not is the work, … inner labors of a quite intimate nature. Learning to ride / master the mind of these fallback activities – antipathy and sympathy … we strive to renounce them when they appear.

This inner act lays the foundation for thinking with (phenomenology). We call it learning to walk in another’s shoes. This first renunciation enables us to draw closer to this “other”, which formerly we thought about, and now practice thinking with. It is an act of love.

The next of the three renunciations is to give up the habitual thought content of the mind. We seek an “empty” consciousness (silent practice), which enables participation and inspiration on another level. We practice becoming poor in spirit, which opens the soul to a fresh thought content. We develop the capacity to think within – to see clearly their point of view. This is a deeper act of love.

The third renunciation is of the importance of the own self. This leads to the experience of thinking as. Again, the two basic tools of the will in thinking, are the attention and the intention. We choose to attend to a specific experience, and with a specific self-chosen intention. We are awake here. Yet, the selfless gesture is hard as an ideal, yet easy in practice. Mothers and fathers and teachers have little trouble here, if they are awake enough to choose and invent the good and the true

The three renunciations collapse the distance between our “self” and another. Our ability to identify is complete, yet to be sustained has to be constantly renewed. We do it in each now, where we need to understand, and to be understood.

This is not an abstract love of folks I never will meet. It is instead the bread and the wine of the daily Eucharist of true friendship. We fail more than we succeed. In fact, the very idea of success has no meaning. To survive in spite of our trials, … mistakes … confusion … all the glory of being human on the Cusp of the Third Millennium and the dying and becoming of “Western” civilization.

The actual essay is thirty-three pages long, and can be found on my blog here:

IN Joyous Celebration of the Soul, Art and Music of Discipleship

In Joyous Celebration of the Soul  Art and Music of Discipleship

– a moderately serious introductory sketch unveiling

a mostly American way of understanding the New Thinking –

first some necessary context

Recently in the News for Members of the Anthroposophical Society in America (late 2005), was published a wonderful lecture given by Dennis Klocek (author of Climate: Soul of the Earth), elaborating the alchemical foundations living in Rudolf Steiner’s spiritual scientific work.  The essay below means to be something from just one voice out of another of the streams that seeks to find its home within the Anthroposophical Society and Movement – the stream of discipleship, of those who are karmically related to the original Twelve and the direct participation in certain aspects of the Mystery of Golgotha. [See the essay above (The Meaning…) for why I write this way]

In this essay that follows next, it might help the reader to understand that it is mostly written for, and out of, the American Soul.  About this Soul, Rudolf Steiner spoke in different places and in the following ways, which I will paraphrase:  The American comes to Anthroposophy naturally.  English speakers are instinctively in the Consciousness Soul in their Life of Rights.  There is a hidden and unique form of Anthroposophy that is to develop in America in the future, and one should look to Emerson and his circle of friends as instinctive forerunners of this gift.

The reader, of whatever Soul background and gesture,  who would seek inner stimulation from actively engaging this essay, should understand that for the American Soul much of what is described below is already instinctively present.  This instinctive relationship to the art and music of discipleship appears first in the American Soul in the dominant tendency to be directed outwardly toward the world, fully engaged in social reality, and sometimes (often more frequently than appears on the Evening News) seeking to heal the social world’s wounds.  Part of the hidden mystery of this Soul is that it is possible to take what is so present instinctively, and awaken it by gradual degrees into full consciousness.  This task may turn out to be far easier for the American Soul, than has so far been imagined within Anthroposophical circles.

To fully inaugurate this gradual awakening, however, does require turning from the outer world and its worries and wonders for a bit, and to look within – to practice introspection.  When looking within becomes a normal part of soul life, American anthroposophists (natural and otherwise) should not be surprised to find that they already live instinctively in their wills in ways with considerable kinship with the path of discipleship – the path of moral action in the world through renunciation and love.  With the addition of this introspective looking within, we add to the thinking we already do about the field of outer-world social moral action, a complementary and much needed thinking about the soul-field of inner moral action (the kingdom of heaven is inside you – Luke).  Outer world thinking and action are enhanced by everything we learn from the practice of looking, thinking and acting within.

By the way, it is not the point of this essay to encourage any divisive distinction, such as might be assumed because of the emphasis on matters American.  Nor is it being suggested here, for example, that Americans are any better at Anthroposophy in any way.  On the contrary, we are just different.  Each Soul gesture in the Threefold World has unique gifts to offer, and this essay means to serve the potential freeing of those yet untapped American gifts from a kind of child-like imitation of things European.  This tendency, to model our soul practices on a kind of European anthroposophical idealism of the soul, was a natural impulse connected to our admiration of the work of our European brothers and sisters.  It is time to grow past this however, to discover our far more earthly and pragmatic way to the Spirit.   And, to do this not only for the benefit of the American Soul Itself, but also for the benefit of the Anthroposophical Movement world-wide as well as world-culture.

There are then two themes, which while related are also quite separate.   The relationship of the Alchemical stream and the Discipleship stream is one theme, and the relationship of the American Soul to the wider world is another.  The point of intersection, between the Discipleship stream and the instinctive capacities of the American Soul, shows only that the Rosicrucian and Manichean streams of the Old World, and their connection to Initiation, does not quite have the same meaning for the American Soul as does the natural Christ Impulse inspired in Americans, and revealed by their relationship to the outer world of social need (in part a consequence of the fact, that due to its rampant individualism, the Consciousness Soul is developing faster here – See Ben-Aharon’s America’s Global Responsibility: individualism, initiation and threefolding).

The Alchemical stream is a stream of studied spiritual knowledge and of initiation.  It is more of the Kings and of Gnosis than of the Shepherds and of Faith.  The Discipleship stream is more related to that moral work in life that comes from following the Teachings of Christ, and thus is more of the Shepherds than of the Kings.  The disciples, who were meant to be fishers and shepherds of human beings, were not (in general) of the old mystery streams as were the Kings.  The Shepherds belong to what was being newly created – to the future Mysteries that are to arise from the social commons.  These future Mysteries are not to flow out of the old, now impotent and dysfunctional hierarchically organized Mystery Centers, but from finely and homeopathically distributed Branches and Discussion Groups – that is the New Mysteries are to be born out of and in ordinary social life where groups of individuals draw together (wherever two or more are gathered…).

At the same time, while the America Soul is more naturally of the Shepherd stream, – of the discipleship stream, because of its orientation to outer world moral action, it can by turning inward and seeking a pragmatic introspective life, begin to draw from the wisdom-well of renewed European spiritual life.  Rudolf Steiner, in his works on objective philosophical introspection (A Theory of Knowledge Implicit In Goethe’s World ConceptionTruth and Knowledge; and The Philosophy of Spiritual Activity) gives us a quite useful generalized map to this introspectively investigated inner territory – a territory that for the American Soul has many different and unique characteristics.  With Emerson, we get a similar map, not as exact and scientifically rigorous, but one which nonetheless is more in harmony with the actual rich and complex landscape of the American Soul.

We can then read Steiner to initiate us into our introspective soul voyages, in the most objective and scientific fashion; and, read Emerson for that travelogue, which is more attuned to the unique scenic beauty to be actually found there, given that the American Soul, like the other soul-gestures of the Threefold world, is differently oriented in its fundamental nature.

I have tried here to distinguish two problems that ought not to be confused.   This article is not saying that the American Soul and the Discipleship stream are identical, only that there is a definite kinship.  What is also being said is that for those in this discipleship stream (of which there are no doubt many – Americans and otherwise – within and without the Society and Movement, and for whom this article also aims to provide greater self-understanding), they will tend to be less attracted to exercises aimed at spiritual development, and more called to moral action in life, which incidental to its true deeds, produces the after effect called: character development.

For every one step in spiritual development, there must be three steps in character development“.  Rudolf Steiner: Knowledge of Higher Worlds and How to Attain It.

[Keep in mind, when thinking about character development, this question: To what aspect of character development do we relate a good sense of humor, laughter, foolishness and dance?  Please also note that at one time the word silly meant to be possessed by the sacred.]

This is not to suggest that specific spiritual developmental exercises are unimportant, but rather just to point out that if the moral (character) development lags behind, it more and more becomes a danger that spiritual experience will come toward us in a one-sided way.  Further, we need to understand that true heart thinking is almost entirely a consequence of the extent to which the will to do the Good (that is to be moral) is the foundation for all feeling and thinking activities.

To make some of this a little more concrete, we might notice that it would not be uncommon for those drawn to the Discipleship stream to find that their biography involves a need to encounter the 12 Steps of AA, or to have to undertake some similar deep moral-Trial work.   Challenges to character development are common in biographies with a strong kinship with the discipleship stream.  Which thought then leads us to the essential point.  Moral or character development does not result from spiritual exercises, but only from inner and outer actions in the biography, and their related moral dilemmas.  The practice of exercises builds capacities in the Soul, while moral actions, both inward and outward, apply these capacities in life (which then purifies the Soul).  Christ puts it this way: Blind Pharisee, wash out the inside of the cup and saucer first, if you want the outside to end up clean [for the whole theme, see Matthew 23: 25-28]

Let us review a bit:  From a certain point of view, the Alchemical stream is very European, and thus has a tendency to put forward the incarnation of an Ideal as a goal, leading to the emphasis on spiritual exercises, knowledge and initiation.  Americans, on the other hand, tend to face the social as a problem to be solved through moral action.  This is very pragmatic, for it is not the purity of an ideal that matters as much as being able to do something to help others.  In this sense, the stream of Discipleship is more natural to Americans because, in harmony with our engagement with and in the world, as social helpers, discipleship is rooted in moral action – in doing the Good (“…and crown thy Good, with Brotherhood...”).

[Isn’t this Brotherhood also partly related to our ability to help each other experience the katharsis of laughter, especially under dire circumstances.  Conversation does have a higher function than light, but then what about a well encouraged giggle?  The Shadow cannot abide humor, and runs away when we make fun of it.]

In a sense, the idealism of the European anthroposophist has blinded the American anthroposophist, first by suggesting there is only one way to be anthroposophical (a European soul idealism), and second by failing to appreciate that the American Soul is considerably different.  The result is that instead of coming to true self knowledge, we (in America) have been pursuing what is at best a temporary illusion (a goal we really can’t achieve), instead of our developing, more consciously, the earthly (including humorous and joyous), socially oriented and pragmatic instinct that is our given nature.

I hope the above has not been too confusing.  Mostly I just wanted to point out certain contextual themes, and leave to the reader’s own thinking precisely what to make of these ideas.  In what comes next, where we get more deeply into the pragmatic and the concrete, I hope then that these contextual matters will, as we proceed, begin to make a more practical, and a less abstract, sense.


[a brief biographical note:  My interest in introspection began around 35 years ago, in 1971, as a result of a kind of spontaneous awakening in my 31st year.  I didn’t call it introspection at that time, but I had become quite awake inwardly, and was only able to orient myself to these experiences using the Gospels.  Seven years later, in 1978, I met the work of Rudolf Steiner, and gravitated to his writings on philosophy, particularly A Theory of Knowledge…,  and The Philosophy of Spiritual Activity.  I also became very interested in Goethean Science, projective geometry and all the Steiner material on the social problem, which was my own main outer-world interest.  It was over 25 years later, in 1997, that I wrote my first effort at describing what I had learned about the moral nature of the Soul under these two influences: the Gospels and Steiner’s writings on objective philosophical introspection.   That essay was called pragmatic moral psychology and can be found on my website .  At that time, however, I did not yet know enough about the Shadow, and only now, almost 10 years later, can I write the immediately below with some confidence in my appreciation of the intricacies of these problems in the light of an intimate experience of the threefold double-complex.]

substance, or better yet,

selling water by the river*

*[The river of the soul lies inward in everyone.  To teach, as it were, about the soul, is to sell water by the river, to give to someone something that is already right in front of their own true face.  In spite of all that exists, for example in our home libraries of Steiner texts etc., there are really only two essential books for the study of the soul: the Book of Life, and the Book of our Own Soul.  Learn to read those, and you’ll know the core of what you need to know.  A text, even this text, can at best be a word-map describing a territory you’ll only really know by direct experience, however many other books you ever read.  The reality of matters spiritual is, however, not found in reading, but only in action.  We can acquire a lot of concepts by reading, but we need experience (the consequences of action) more.]

We should keep in mind as we begin, that what is described below is essentially very human and very ordinary.  It is one possible descriptive word-map, as it were, of the soul engaged in the dynamics of inner awakening via the path of discipleship.  As a map, it will be somewhat abstract and defined.  The actual territory is something else altogether – human, messy, inconstant, prone to emotional ups and downs – that is all the wonders of ordinary consciousness. All a word-map tries to do is to point out various significant features.  Look out for these mountains, notice those valleys.  Here is a pure spring, there is a hard and dangerous rock wall.  It is my hope that the reader will find below some guidelines which will help them to chart their own path through the pristine forests and dark swamplands of the soul.  Keep in mind it takes courage to explore there, but at the same time there is no other adventure quite like it.

Recall then what Dennis Klocek gave in his lecture to the 2005 AGM, and then published shortly thereafter in the News for Members  (or if you didn’t hear or read it,  try to find a copy as soon as you can):  On the blackboard a mandala: a circle, expressing a series of alchemical relationships: earth (freedom); water (phenomenology); air (silent practice) and fire (dialog).  The circle form suggests a return to earth (freedom) at some new or higher kind of level.  But before considering that, first some deep background.

If, from a certain point of view, we think of the above four elements in Dennis Klocek’s lecture as notes in a rising scale, we could also find that in between each note is an interval.   While the note is in itself more of a step in spiritual development supported by spiritual exercises, the use in life (the interval) of the acquired spiritual skill/capacity is more of a moral act – an aspect of the process of character development.  The soul is fallen – it is an out of tune instrument, yet we hunger to return, to rise up and to experience reintegration, and to give voice to the joy of coming Home, which the Story of the Return of the Prodigal Son tells us leads to celebration and feasting.

Because the spiritual development exercises are so well known, and so completely covered elsewhere in Steiner’s basic books, as well as Dennis Klocek’s books, I will not be discussing them here.  This essay assumes a general knowledge of that work, and some practice in their use. Here we are looking at the development of the Soul solely with regard to its struggles with the so very messy, personal and human moral questions of the biography.

In case there is some confusion here, in Steiner’s Knowledge of Higher Worlds, the moral is approached mostly through a series of admonitions, encouraging the student to orient him or her self in life in certain ideal ways.   Only in The Philosophy of Spiritual Activity, with the discussions of moral imagination, moral intuition and moral technique, did Steiner confront the moral problem directly and exactly.

The details that follow I have derived from my own (naturally messy and human, stupid and silly, and when I really get serious – pretentious) introspective investigations of the moral dimensions of the soul, but it should be kept in mind that while it is prudent to describe these phases and Trials as if separated in time in the soul, they are much more likely to be layered over each other – and often simultaneous in a variety of ways.  It also needs to be clear that what is to follow wishes only to add another dimension – another view from a different direction – to what Dennis Klocek gave, and not to contradict it in any way whatsoever.

It is particularly crucial to note here that we are mostly discussing those moral acts that take place in the Soul, not those in the outer biography.  There is a relationship to be sure, but it will help to understand that we are moral in both worlds: the outer world of our biographies, and the inner world of Soul practice and art.

I emphasize the word Trial to add another quality to our understanding.  Moral development takes place in the biography through Trials.  These challenges to the life of soul and spirit are meant to be difficult.  We become deeply engaged in our karma of wounds with others in these Trials.  Moreover, these are called Trials precisely because there is great pain, suffering and effort (as well as not enough fun) connected to them, and because the Shadow plays such an important and often decisive role.  Furthermore, various aspects of the Seven Stages of the Passion of Christ (as described in the John Gospel) are enacted in the Soul via these biographical Trials: the Washing of the Feet, the Scourging, the Crowning with Thorns, the Carrying of the Cross, the Crucifixion, the Entombment, and the Resurrection.  There is nothing abstract about these difficult processes of  soul transformation, and this should be kept in mind as we go forward, namely that: every time I use the word Trial I am speaking of quite human, difficult  and sometimes years long life-crises.

There is, in this regard, something of a kind of spiritual law involved.  Just as the world of the senses has its laws of gravity and color, so the soul world has its laws.  The ones to keep in mind here are the karma of wounds in the outer biography, as well as the outer and inner moral Trials to be faced there, which bear an exact and direct interrelationship.  To face a challenge in life, to face a Trial, means to engage in just that personal teaching which belongs specifically to what our individuality most needs for the development of our character.

Consider a marriage for example, or the children to be raised there.  These relationships are not trivial distractions to any spiritual development, but rather are precisely those riddles and mysteries of life belonging particularly to our own ego’s character developmental needs.  One can read all kinds of spiritual books, practice all manner of spiritual exercises, and still not advance because the biographical tasks are ignored.  To begin to awaken within, and to appreciate that we are surrounded in our biography with just those moral tasks and Trials we individually need, is to recognize just how precisely and miraculously has Christ, as the Artist of our karma of wounds, woven us into the world of personal relationships.  So when Christ advises that unless we become again as little children, we cannot enter the kingdom of heaven, He is, among other matters, telling us precisely who our deepest spiritual teachers in life often are.

This world of personal relationships, and their corresponding moral Trials, whether of family or work, or even wider world challenges, is also very elastic in a sense.  We are quite free in it, and it has a quality that can respond rather exactly to only those tasks which we choose to take up.   Part of true Faith is to accept what comes to us as challenges, yet at the same time to recognize that our freedom also allows us to choose at every juncture, which way to turn, what burden to carry and when to laugh at ourselves.

For example, the interval from earth (freedom) to water (phenomenology) involves the skill: thinking about.  This skill we receive as a natural aspect of living in this age, in that we are inwardly free to decide what to think; and, in accord with the Age of the Consciousness Soul, we are also becoming more and more able to form individual free moral ideas as well.

The Consciousness Soul really just means that if we inwardly wish to know the Good, in any particular moment of moral demand, crisis or need, we can in fact know what the Good is.  Yet, in order to have this knowledge, we first have to ask, seek and knock.  We have to inwardly form the question, and struggle there to let ourselves answer from the higher nature of our ego.  The Good is what we make it to be, and as this essay proceeds, we will get deeper and deeper into this Mystery.  This is why my book the Way of the Fool calls this capacity to know the Good: Moral Grace.

[As an aside, for those more familiar with Steiner’s terminology, you should keep in mind that by necessity he was required to cognitively form his research and understanding into the language of the Intellectual Soul, as that was the condition of his audiences.  In this book we are writing out of the language of the Consciousness Soul itself (something toward which American’s are instinctively gifted).  So, for example, when in the opening lecture of the book The Challenge of the Times Steiner speaks of the need for people to work out of an experience of the threshold, he is using Intellectual Soul terminology.  In the essay above, where I have elaborated carefully on the Second Ethereal Eucharist experience, this has been a quite concrete and exact picture of human intercourse across the threshold in the language of the Consciousness Soul.  I also mean to suggest here that it is quite possible to take many of Steiner’s works and translate them from Intellectual Soul language into Consciousness Soul language.   The attentive reader of this text, who takes to heart the suggested practices, will in fact eventually find themselves able to do this translation process themselves.  Once able to do this, the reader will be able to confirm not only their own experience, but all that is written here in Steiner themselves, for nothing here is contrary to what Steiner offered.]

Now in this thinking-about there is the object of our interest, in relationship to which we are the subject.  As subject, we think about this object.  This thinking is also essentially (and initially)  discursive to our inner experience.  We appear to inwardly talk to ourselves.   Our spirit seems to inwardly speak that which our soul then hears.

It is with the skill thinking-about that we first enter on the problem of the Water Trial of phenomenology.  Thinking-about naturally contains something of the shadow forces of the soul, in that our feeling life is, in the beginning, dominated by antipathies and sympathies.  These natural likes and dislikes of our individualized soul color all that we think about.  Through them what we think about acquires an individualized (non-objective) meaning for the spirit – the i-AM, in the soul.

[The use of this form of the term “i-AM”, is meant to lessen the emphasis on the being nature of the ego – its noun-like aspect, and to place more emphasis on the action nature – on the verb-like aspect of the ego.  The being nature of the ego tends to be more related to the teachings of the Buddha, while  the action nature of the ego tends to be more related to the teachings of Christ.]

In the light of Steiner’s The Philosophy of Spiritual Activity, the experience (the percept) is, in the beginning, distorted in its meaning (the thought, the concept) by the shadow elements lingering in the yet unredeemed antipathies and sympathies.  By the way, the reader should be clear that only their own personal introspective observations can adequately discern what is going on within ones own soul.  We have little business believing we can make such determinations about, or for, another.

Noticing these excessive and unredeemed aspects of antipathy and sympathy will give us our first vague perceptions of the work of the threefold double-complex, the Shadow in the Soul.  Thought is a flower rooted in the soul-soil of feeling, and filled from within by the blossoming life of the will-in-thinking. Where an excess of unconsciousness infects this soil and this life, the Shadow is given free play.

In order to progress properly through the life passages that comprise the Water Trial, we have to learn to renounce the unredeemed antipathy and sympathy.  This is the central moral act that makes possible the transformation via the Water Trial from thinking about to thinking with.  We enter the Water Trial knowing how to think about, and we can leave the Water Trial knowing how to think with.  The essential moral nature of this Trial is outlined in the Gospels in the Sermon on the Mount, in the teaching concerning the mote and the beam.  In the biography, when we learn to struggle with the covering over (or painting in thought via the unconscious Shadow driven creation of mental pictures) of the persons that we meet with our individual unredeemed antipathies and sympathies, we are learning about the beam in our own eye.  We see not the person, but our own soul as that lives in our projected sympathies and antipathies.  To learn to see past the beam, to meet the true phenomena of the other, to learn to think with them rather than about them, this is the moral craft to be discovered during the Water Trial.

The biography gives us just those experiences that challenge this learning.  The spouse, the child, the co-worker, the boss, the neighbor, the relative, or the stranger-other, all will evoke the beam, the unredeemed mental pictures.   We must learn how not to paint our experience with this already unconsciously given thought-content, and instead learn to let the experience itself speak into the soul, and to become consciously active as a creator of the free thought in relationship to the experience.

Again, one way to banish the Shadow influence here (when we discover our thinking to be possessed by the beam) is to laugh at ourselves – to see the essential silliness of our dark inner depictions of others, as well as those depictions which are too sympathetic (that is where we raise another up to the level of a kind of minor deity, such as how too many view Rudolf Steiner – and others – out of a soul mood of ungrounded and unrealistic admiration).

Sobriety, for all its virtues, must be balanced with play, otherwise the soul becomes an arid desert.

So, for example, when we look at another person and recognize that they are, in themselves, not just that which we observe in the moment, but rather that they are their whole history – their whole biography (in fact a sequence of biographies), and when we learn to consciously set aside the reactive feelings of antipathy and sympathy, only then can we start to think with who they truly are, and not just about them.  Our folk wisdom calls this learning to walk in another’s shoes.

This thinking-with can of course be applied to anything living, anything that has a life element to its nature, not just human beings, plants or animals.  This includes the history (the story) of a social form, such as a family, or even an Anthroposophical Branch.  When we recreate in the imagination, free of antipathy and sympathy, the story-picture of something, we are then learning to think with the object of our thought.

Goethe taught himself to think with the plant, and to this organic way of thinking Rudolf Steiner later gave the name: Goetheanism, which is a thinking that leaves behind the discursive aspect of thinking about, and replaces that with a thinking-with – a qualitative characterizing picture thinking (Tomberg’s formulation).  We do this by learning to make inner images (mental pictures) consciously.  We still retain the ability to think discursively about these inner images – thinking-about does not disappear, but remains a skill which can be applied when we choose and where we feel it is appropriate (which is why I wrote earlier of the layered nature of these soul phenomena).

Two additional aspects of soul phenomena need to be understood here – the attention and the intention and their relationship.  The moral act of renunciation is more related to those actions of the will-in-thinking that determines on which particular object we focus our attention.  When we are lost to the beam in our own eye, part of our attention is unconsciously focused on our own soul’s reactive feelings of antipathy and sympathy.  To the act of renunciation of these semi-conscious interfering aspects of our attention, we need to join the intention to love the object of this phenomenological (story-picture) thinking.  After subduing the impulse to live imprisoned and in the thrall of the beam in our own eye (reactive feelings of antipathy and sympathy), we use our first stage (necessarily awkward and tentative) understanding of how to love the other in such a way so as to redeem them in thought.  We consciously create a new picture to replace the old unconscious and reactive one.

As part of the Water Trial, we don’t just set aside the reactive feelings, but we learn how to create in the soul cultivated feelings. We create freely chosen cultivated moods of soul – that is intended feelings of reverence, wonder and so forth, which then have a salutary effect on the thought content that is to be produced according to where we let our attention come to rest.  This is an example of where the exercises bear fruit.  If we have practiced these exercises, this will be a great help when we then need to apply the newly learned ability to form cultivated moods of soul, as a prelude and foundation for thinking with someone in a new way.

With a cultivated feeling we transform the soul-soil from which the thought is born and then flowers (which is also why the ideal is sometimes expressed as: thinking with the heart).

In a certain sense, what is renounced, love replaces.  What is given up, becomes transformed.  What is dark, is turned to gold.  What is evil – our dark habits rooted in the unconscious fear and mistrust of the other – the Thou, are beginning to be transformed into love.  And, best of all, what is too sober, particularly in our Self, can – as is necessary – be made silly.

The renunciation of unredeemed antipathy and sympathy does not, however, mean their elimination.  The will acquires the capacity to master this somewhat base song of the soul.  We cease attending to it unconsciously, and turn that attention (and the related intention) elsewhere.  We master the unconscious soul gesture that leads antipathies and sympathies into the forefront of the soul, and like a good choir director, silence it so that we can concentrate on other instruments of soul potential, other voices.  Transformed and conscious feelings of antipathy and sympathy become a valid means of discernment.  But we need to be awake to the arising and becoming of these feelings, if we wish not to give the shadow element free play.

The will-in-thinking (an awake and more and more morally pure intention and attention) fills the thought with life (which is why I add to the ideal of thinking with the heart, the ideal also to: will the good).

In this way we also refine the gold that is latent in antipathy and sympathy – their capacities for discernment and truth are enhanced, because we apply them with more consciousness – a more awake attention and intention.  In the teaching on the beam and the mote, Christ, in Matthew 7:5, ends it this way: You fake, first get the log out of your own eye and then you can see about getting the splinter out of your brother’s eye.

Again, one of the best ways to eliminate the log is to learn to laugh at it.  The log arises from the Shadow side of soul life, and in the light and warmth of our learning to laugh at ourselves, the Shadow’s hold dissolves.

In Steiner’s The Philosophy of Spiritual Activity, we are taught the importance of the moral basis for our actions, whether outwardly in the sense world, or inwardly in the soul.  Only that action, which is preceded by a self-determined moral reason (intention), is truly free.  Even so, no one should be surprised to discover that they are already trying to do these activities in some fashion or another.  Emerson said this: In self trust all virtues are comprehended.  The purpose of this essay – this word-map – is to help us raise out of the realm of instinct, step by step into full consciousness, our already existing natural goodness.

[Another brief biographical note: As I shared previously, I underwent a kind of spontaneous awakening at age 31, and one of the by-products of this inner infusion of light, was that I became hyper-aware of judging people.  I could see myself putting them into various boxes and categories, and being now awake to this beam in my own eye, I could also see that this was not right – it violated conscience, so that I struggled to learn how to not do it.  That said, learning how not to do it, does not mean that we always apply this newly learned moral craft.  On the contrary, I often fell back into old ways many times over the years, although there did slowly dawn a kind of sensitivity, that let me see that I had been again in thrall of the beam.  Stepping outside the prison of the beam does not become automatic – a habit, but must always be applied, in the moment, consciously, with intention and attention (the will-in-thinking).]

After we have learned to renounce (consciously and for specific and individually freely chosen moral reasons) our soul gestures of yet unredeemed antipathy and sympathy, in order to learn how to think with that object of thinking which we are learning to love, do we then move out of the Water Trial, via more necessity, to the life passages of the Air Trial. This movement from water (phenomenology) to air (silent practice), which before (at the entrance to the Water Trial) began with thinking-about, now begins with the newly learned craft of thinking-with.  We start with that which we have now discovered as a spiritual development in the course of the Water Trial, and then apply that new level of moral craft (capacity of the will) of renunciation and love to the Air Trial.  The will-in thinking, which has learned to master the unredeemed aspects of feelings of antipathy and sympathy, and to replace these with thoughts born out of cultivated moods of soul, is now strengthened.  It is this strength that then lends itself to the life lessons of the Air Trial.

Dennis Klocek described the Air Trial as a learning to think backwards – of unraveling, or unrolling, the thought content produced by thinking with. The Discipleship stream sees it from a slightly different direction, one which, however, is not in opposition, but which instead is once more intended to be complementary.

Via the Water Trial we have learned how to think with, and that has produced a thought content in the soul.  It is this content that must now be renounced in the Air Trial.  When Steiner wrote of this he called it: sacrifice of thoughts.  We learn how, again in meeting people, to not have a thought content at all.  We become inwardly silent.  Strong forces of will are needed in order to subdue the already achieved thought content, which we have wrapped around another person (or any other object of thinking), even if this content now lives free of unredeemed antipathies and sympathies.  We can also renounce, during the life passages of major aspects of the Air Trial, those thoughts produced only by thinking about.

Further, in the feeling life there live attachments to the thought content.  We have, after all, produced it.  It is our creation, and we like it (most of the time – where the Shadow has unconsciously produced the thought content, we can learn to relate to this soul phenomena out of a healthy antipathetic discernment – we can come to not liking it that we have such a thought).  Sometimes, however, we can’t even separate our own sense of self from this thought content.  Nonetheless, to traverse the Air Trial we need to renounce our collection of mental pictures (thoughts).  Remember, the self development that accompanies the sequence of alchemical Trials is not just related to spiritual exercises, but also to moral or character development; the chief features of which are acts of sacrifice – acts of renunciation, and acts of love (the beginnings of: Not I, but Christ in me).

Steiner also calls this attachment to our thought content, in certain circumstances: being in bondage to the concept “One must be able to confront an idea and experience it; otherwise one will fall into its bondage” (The Philosophy of Freedom, last sentence of the original Preface).  It can be a savage inner struggle – this Air Trial – to learn to forcefully set aside our favorite pictures of the world, a seemingly negative artistic act, sometimes taking months to accomplish.  At the same time, their essential nature does not disappear, for the very same qualitative aspects of our true nature – our true i-AM – can once again call them forth. Thought does not disappear, it only becomes latent and goes into a kind of pralaya (the state of being uncreated, unformed).  The will-in-thinking is strengthened by this act of renunciation, and when we choose to think again concerning this same object of our thought, the penetrating new powers of the will-in-thinking (attention and intention) can call forth from this pralaya an ever deeper understanding of the underlying meaning and truth of that about which we have chosen to think.

[another biographical note: I first explored this process during my many long years of the Water Trial, which really began when I discovered that I had become captured by a psychological paradigm, or world picture.  I had come to view everyone, after a time, through the lens of this psychologically based world picture.  I discovered that the best way to become inwardly free of this capture, was to undo any relationship to this paradigm, an activity that took several months.  A year or so later, I let myself be captured by a similar world picture, this one connected to Tibetan Buddhism.  Again, many months were needed to become inwardly free – to break the chains of the teaching – to be able to only experience these thoughts when and if I consciously called them forth.  Subsequently, upon encountering Anthroposophy, I gave myself wholly to it – became intoxicated with it in a way, and spent three years drinking in all that I could manage, eventually once more finding myself inwardly lacking the spiritual freedom before the concept that I knew by then was essential.

Only after many months of work at sacrifice of thoughts, was I able to stand in relationship to the massive and marvelous thought content of Spiritual Science, inwardly free.  Through this activity of sacrifice of thoughts, I eventually stood in relationship to concepts, acquired from Steiner, in such manner that they only appeared in my consciousness when called forth.  From this free perspective (which I was then able to survey as a whole), I then could see that Anthroposophy was not a thought content at all, but rather just the method of awake, and fully conscious (intended and attended) free thinking I had been instinctively seeking for many years.]

As the shadow elements (unredeemed antipathies and sympathies – Water Trial, and emotional attachments to our self-created thought content – Air Trial) are being let go, we now begin to have another experience connected to the Gospels.  This is again related to the Sermon on the Mount, specifically the beatitude: “blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven“.

The rolling back, the sacrifice of, the renouncing of the previously created thought content, makes the soul inwardly poor in spirit.  As we empty out the soul, we begin to learn a new spiritual activity, which might be called thinking-within.   The Air Trial passages of life are taking us from thinking-with toward thinking-within.  This opens us to the delicate first stages of the conscious experience of the kingdom of heaven as It begins to appear with greater clarity out of the general background noise of the soul, and on the wings of our natural instinct for the embryonic New Thinking.   The Air Trial is developing that which is meant to take us upward and onward to the Fire Trial, or dialog.  When we are poor in spirit, empty of the previously given thought content (and master of silent practice), then we can, to a degree, experience directly the inside of the object of our thought.  In personal relationships, this is the capacity for the beginnings of true empathy.

In a sense, the base elements of unredeemed antipathy and sympathy are a foundation in the soul. They are of the earth.  In the Water Trial, we rise to a more subtle and plastic condition in the soul.  To think with, to know the phenomenology of the object of thought, is to bring the thinking into movement with its object.  The earth aspect is more solid and crystallized, while the water aspect more fluid and more mobile.  The discursively produced thought is dead (the instinctive living element necessary for any thought remains in the unconscious), while the consciously created picture-thought is more living.  With the air element, the soul becomes more expansive.  Thought that is renounced in the Air Trial dissipates, disperses and dissolves into the general spiritual background of the soul – the previously noted pralaya (uncreated, unformed) condition.  The will-in-thinking does not any longer call it forth, nor does it let the thought call itself forth.  When we are in bondage to an idea, it calls itself forth, and the Air Trial teaches us to break the chains by which we have let our unconscious feeling attachment tie us to the concept/idea.  We break these chains of feeling by dissolving them, and Dennis Klocek’s metaphor of rolling back the thought is quite apt.  We untie it from its attachment to the soul, and without doubt the practice of the spiritual exercise of the Ruskshau* is a great help here.

*[the Ruskshau is an exercise Steiner taught where he encouraged people at the end of their day, before falling asleep, to remember the day backwards.  Details can be discovered in his works.]

Only then, when we are truly empty, can thought, in the sense that it is the true inside of our object of thinking, come toward us.  The true idea of the object moves toward us, as we learn to open ourselves to it, such that it then thinks in us.  As Christ says in Luke 17: 20-21 “Asked by the Pharisees when the the kingdom of God was coming he answered: “The kingdom of God doesn’t come with the watching like a hawk, and they don’t say, Here it is, or There it is, because, you know what? the kingdom of God is inside you.”

Steiner writes at age 25, in The Theory of Knowledge Implicit in Goethe’s World Conception, published in 1886, that: What takes place in human consciousness is the interpretation of Nature to itself.  Thought is the last member in the series of processes whereby Nature is formed.

While Emerson writes at age 33 in the essay Nature, published in 1836, 50 years before Steiner wrote the above: Nature is the incarnation of a thought, and turns to a thought again, as ice becomes water and gas. The world is mind precipitated, and the volatile essence is forever escaping again into the state of free thought.

Thus, having mastered (to a degree) silent practice (learned how to be poor in spirit), we are at the beginning of the Fire Trial, and similar in kind to our previous renunciations, the soul now begins to discover how thinking can be in deepest kinship with its object, by abandoning the Self – by no longer seeing ourselves as the center of the universe.  Instead we begin to love the object of thinking more than we love ourselves.  This deepening intention to love, in that our own i-AM learns to stand out of the way, allows the i-AM of the other more room in the soul – we begin to see them not just from their inside – true empathy or thinking within, but as them, united with them.  Again, anything living that can be thought empathically, can also be even more deeply known when we learn to unite with it in thought.  But this requires more than our own action.  The art of true empathy, or thinking within, now, as we let go our own centrality of being, becomes the chalice in which It can think in us – and the life passage of Fire Trial begins to unfold.

This is the fruit of the Air Trial now carried further – the spiritual developmental capacity to have dialog with the realm of the invisibles, for true empathy free of self importance and rooted in inner silence, now lets the inner being of the other – the Thou – speak.  Having understood how we become in bondage to the concept, and emotionally attached to it, we no longer repeat those actions, with the result that thought tends not to come to rest in the soul, to coagulate there.  Instead, thought now passes through the soul – flows like a living stream.

[In 1999, seven years ago, I wrote this:  My method basically now consists (when life circumstances allow it) of sitting at my desk and writing descriptive passages of social and political realities.  Inwardly the experience is analogous to looking at a clear stream.  The surface of the stream results from my inner activity in sacrifice of thoughts, fact gathering, picture forming and artistic expression (more or less done simultaneously).  At the same time as my thinking sees this clear surface, I can perceive that there arises, on the other side of that surface, activity which does not belong to my own will, but which appears there spontaneously of its own accord.  The clear surface is then a product of two activities acting in concert.  With my writing I record what appears there.]

With this art (thinking-within), which was earlier merely a skill (thinking-about) and then a craft (thinking-with), we now are in the midst of the Fire Trial.  But before discussing this Trial more deeply from the point of view of Discipleship, we need to look ahead a bit and understand what lies on the other side of the Fire Trial.  We need to have a picture of what happens in between – in the moral interval between fire (dialog) and the new earth (new freedom), as the circle gesture spirals around in a kind of completion, before moving on to a new level of experience.

[a bit more biography: the material next to be presented, regarding what can happen after the life passage of the Fire Trial, is a little bit speculative on my part.  While I have had quite definite experiences of the kind named by Steiner: Imagination, Inspiration and Intuition (mostly by Grace from Above), I am neither naturally clairvoyant nor an initiate. I am not even sure most of us need anymore to strongly seek such a goal, at least certainly not in a single lifetime.  When I get deeper into the Fire Trial material itself (below), especially given the layered nature of the soul capacities and experiences of all the Trials, and as well the true mystery nature of ordinary consciousness, why I encourage a consideration of the more modest goal of a kind of sacramental thinking (as against initiation) especially for Americans, will be made more plain.]

This culmination of the Fire Trial is described in Steiner’s John Gospel lectures, in lecture twelve, as: The Nature of the Virgin Sophia and of the Holy Spirit (when reading this lecture, keep in mind that it was addressed to the Intellectual Soul, not the Consciousness Soul).  The previous spiritual developmental tasks, interwoven with the moral and character developmental intervals, or Trials, produces a katharsis, or purification of the astral body, such that the Rite of Initiation may now be enacted, and the seed organs of clairvoyance may now be impressed on the etheric body.  I emphasize the term may, because while a great deal of the development leading to this stage is rooted in our own actions – our own will-in-thinking, as the Fire Trial progresses we become more and more interdependent with the will activity of the invisibles.

We do not, as I understand it, so much initiate ourselves, but instead are initiated in a cooperative dance necessarily involving Another.

On the other side of the Fire Trial, if initiation is to be the result, we have acquired new faculties of perception.  The spiritual world is now there to be experienced directly, and the soul has fully developed that spiritual freedom, which The Philosophy of Freedom (or Spiritual Activity) contemplates, for we have renounced unredeemed antipathy and sympathy, we have renounced our emotional attachments to a given thought content and we have renounced even the significance of our own i-AM in relationship to others; all the while learning to love ever more deeply the objects of our perception (beholding) and thinking.

[From this point onward, I will be often using the term beholding instead of perception (in certain cases) and for this nuance I am grateful to Clifford Monks, who provided this in a recent conversation between the two of us.]

Now before us stand new objects of inward beholding.  The world of Imaginations is faced with this new freedom, but it stands inwardly over there, as it were, such that once more we have something which we think about, only this time it is not a sense object but a spiritual object.  Moreover, the perceptual element of an Imagination has required our co-participation; and, the thought content produced by our cognitive capacity, during the experience of the supersensible, arises simultaneously with the experience.  Contrary to a sense object, which has as an aspect of its nature what Steiner called the necessary given, a spiritual Imagination as an object of clairvoyant beholding does not exist independently of our own will-on-fire in thinking.  We have authored and sourced (for this language, grateful thanks to Harvey Bornfield) it in cooperation with spiritual beings.

Our new thinking about has participated in the creation of the Imagination.  We experience the Imagination in infinite internal space (ethereal and peripheral space) as an object, whose existence comes about because our own activity is coupled with the by Grace activity of higher beings.  The intention and attention are involved in a Parsifal question* to which the Imagination is an answer (producing a kind of wordless knowledge).  Subsequent in time to this wordless knowing experience (which includes a conceptual element), cognition then produces the word forms, either written or spoken, in which the living Imagination dies into a crystallized word-picture, such as what is given to us in many of Steiner’s lectures and writings.  When we actively (not passively) read these word-pictures, recreating them in our own picture-thinking, the soul harmonizes with the Imaginative aspect of the world of spirit, creating out of this harmony a rudimentary chalice in which later spiritual experiences can arise.

[*A Parsifal question is a question that if we didn’t ask it when we could have, we may have to wait a long time to later receive an answer.]

So we begin then to repeat at a higher level the previous Trials, but this time facing experiences we have never before had.  We travel once more around the mandala of the circling spiral of soul metamorphosis, learning in new ways to think-about (Imaginations), then on to new thinking-with (Inspirations) and finally to new thinking-within (Intuitions).  [There would seem to be here a great mystery, about which I have not (yet) any experience, but at the same time a great curiosity: do angels etc. tell jokes or laugh and dance?]

This full new thinking, however, is itself at a higher stage.  It is thinking transformed into willed creative and participatory beholding.  The normal thought content, which we know as an aspect of our original state of consciousness (earth and freedom, in discursive thinking about), only arises in the soul after the clairvoyant thinking perceiving/beholding.  This thought content falls out, as it were, during the period of time the spiritual experience is fading away.  The spiritual experience does not continue in earthly memory, but at the same time, the thought content produced (that is, how the experience was initially cognized as it fades away) does remain in earthly memory.

Let us now return to a deeper appreciation of the life passages we are calling: the Fire Trial.

All the work we do, through the various Trials and passages of our biography, more and more purifies the soul, making it ready for clairvoyant spiritual perception.  At the same time, there is constant spiritual music in the soul – the song of the wind and of the breath – even as far back as when we are only being newly born out of the first Trial of earth and freedom.

Ordinary consciousness is already full of spirit.  Our problem is how do we pick the gold out of the dark shadowy and leaden dross of the soul, normal to its given fallen state of earth and freedom.  Two factors are clues.  These are discovered during the early stages of introspection in the idea of needs and the idea of choices.  The wind – the breath – the living river of thought – blows through the soul constantly, but always in accord with need and most often in accord with other-need, that is the needs not of the Self, but of the Thou.  To live into this Grace given always present intuition-like breath, we need to choose. When we do choose service to other-need, then true, good and beautiful intuitions flow on the wind of Grace into the soul, even in its ordinary and fallen state of consciousness.

How else are we to understand the natural and harmonious state of grace always potential in such relationships as: mother and child, comrades at arms and lovers.

Other-need also helps keep our ambitions in check.  One of the temptations that the Shadow offers to us is to let us believe we can, for example, out of reading a Steiner text speak with authority about matters concerning which we have had no other experience than the text.  Absent the real experience – the percept – true thought (the concept) cannot arise.  Only in conjunction with actual clairvoyant experience can we, in full conscience, speak of such matters with the same confidence as did our Teacher, Rudolf Steiner.  Yet, in the face of other-need, and our choice to devote ourselves to this need, spiritual contact (experience) does appear in the soul.  The spiritual percept (experience) arises within the soul as a response to the Parsifal question which our intention and attention have created out of our relationship to other-need; and, the modest nature of our choice to serve this need makes our soul a suitable chalice to receive that thought content which then serves this need.

For example, we have no need (besides a vain curiosity) to know who was the 20th Century Bodhisattva incarnation of the future Maitreya Buddha.  Yet, on the other hand, there is a deep need to know how to love those intimate others in our biography, so that we can learn to heal our shared karma of wounds.

With this in mind (and also keep in mind the layered nature of soul development, as against the one-sided idea that it is a mere linear progression) let us look at the Fire Trial, which Dennis Klocek has described also as: dialog; and which he related to meeting with the dead, who come to us through our encounters with others.  From the standpoint of the Discipleship stream, this is once more perceived a bit differently, yet again in a complementary fashion.

Having passed through the previous Trials, our will-in-thinking now possesses certain capacities, certain inner arts, the essence of which are moral in nature. The self development spiritual exercises are secondary to, but supportive of, the character (moral) developments.  We have learned in the Water Trial to renounce unredeemed antipathies and sympathies and to replace those with a redeemed thought-content produced in a chalice of freely chosen cultivated feelings – that is we have learned to think with the object of thought. In the Air Trial we have renounced as well even this self-produced thought-content, in order to live in the silence, that is poor in spirit – thus beginning the experience we have been calling: thinking-within.

In Fire Trial, which begins with its capacity of thinking-within won in the Air Trial, we now enter into dialog on the wings of a renunciation of self importance.  That which is not-Self is to become more important than that which is Self.   Love of the other fills the attention and intention, and the work toward Not I, but Christ in me matures.  In this case, the dialog element for the Discipleship stream is more accurately characterized as Steiner’s “it thinks in me“, albeit this form of expression is lacking a certain artistry (Intellectual Soul, not Consciousness Soul).  A more beautiful phrase would be: the delicate and subtle presence of Fullness and fullness of Presence (Holy Breath).

[another biographical note: I learned, over many years of hard experience, that the essential matter was the Parsifal question – the deeply felt question, coupled with the absence of personal ambition in this question.  The knowledge I seek must be consciously intended to serve others, not to serve my vain curiosity.  In fact, my success in my researches into the social (see other essays in this book), seems to have been entirely related to my renunciation of the possibility of initiation in order to more deeply be led to an understanding of the social, an act which occupied my prayer life for a number of years in the mid-’80’s.  As a consequence, I began to experience this wind, this delicate and subtle presence of Fullness and fullness of Presence in response to my Parsifal questions concerning an understanding of the social, which I had sought in order to serve other-need.  My biography led me to working, from my mid-thirties onward, as a member of the working poor.  I cleaned toilets, washed dishes in restaurants, worked in mental hospitals, and the last three years of my work life (age 59-62), I worked in a factory.  This led me to not only a personal, but a shared experience of the suffering in the world due to the Age of Materialism, which has led the i-AM not to appreciate itself or the causes of its suffering, and which gave me such pain of soul that the only way I could think to alleviate this was to seek, via the New Thinking, the ability to tell a new story of the world and of human meaning.  This was my Parsifal question in its broadest form, and the wind would come at anytime It choose as I lived out these experiences, so that I had to learn to be sensitive to this wind, and to serve It, even by pulling off the road when driving and taking notes, or getting up from bed at night and writing when called.  The success of this inner work also made me on more than one occasion, an obnoxious moral nut case, filled with excessive moments of grand hubris – my own Shadow intoxicated and inflamed.  Fortunately, the Trials would knock me down whenever I got too drunk with the seriousness of any luciferic fantasies of having a mission.]

The moral art of thought not only comes to the truth of the object of thinking, but also knows its goodness and its beauty.  In intimate relationships, where we learn to love the will of the other – the Thou, and to see the beauty, not of their physical appearance, but of their deeds – in this selfless perception we then start to live in their true Fullness and Presence.

Thinking-within, as it traverses the Fire Trial, begins to experience the spiritual world as a thought world, via a pure thinking, which is a cooperative art – Grace will be present.  This purity is three-fold.  It is pure in the sense that it is only thought – that is it is sense free.  The attention is so focused only on thought, that the outer sense world recedes far into the background of consciousness.  That is one aspect.  The second kind of purity is moral in nature.  The soul is pure in its intention and attention.  The intention and attention are chaste, as it were.  Modest, or moderate.  Without ambition of any kind.  Not even seeking initiation or enlightenment.  Insight increases in the soul, but each time as a surprise – as a wonder.

The third kind of purity is as regards the thought – the concept itself.  It is only pure concept or idea and in this it is thought as Being, as Presence and Fullness.  Our earthy grasping of the thought, which in the beginning tends to render it into mere mental pictures or generalized concepts, has been gone beyond.  We have sensed thought unconsciously in this beginning, and caused it to fall into our earthly and darkened consciousness from out of its original living environment.  When we learn how to return thought to its true realm and nature, then our sense-free thinking, and the purity of our intention and attention now lets the pure nature of the Being of the Thought think in us (dialog).

At the same time, this conversation has what seems at first blush an odd quality to it, in the sense of our freedom.  As discussed in the essay above, on The Meaning of Earth Existence in the Age of the Consciousness Soul, just as Christ gives his Being to our need for knowledge of the Good as an act of Grace in such a way that the thought of the Good is entirely ours to shape, so also that which thinks in us does not answer our knock with any authority whatsoever.  This Holy Spirit (the wind in the soul spends (exhausts) Its will into us in a way.  Its participation with our i-AM in the nature of the thought’s form is such that, while the Holy Spirit elevates our perception of truth, we remain the final author and source.  The Holy Spirit’s participation is also a gift and becomes the wind to the wings of our soul.  Borne on this wind we see from whatever height, depth or breadth that must be there for other-need.  We serve the Thou and the Holy Spirit serves us both.

The soul is now grateful for whatever wills to dialog with it, and has no need for anything other than the occasional, but profoundly nourishing, experiences of Grace, all of which it had already begun to know, even coming in the beginning in the wonderful mystery of ordinary consciousness, and in accord with other-need and choice.

Yet, in this same beginning, the karma of wounds, and the unredeemed aspects of the astral or desire body move us forward in life, and we are guided by the Shadow into and toward our necessary biographical experiences.  In the processes of the Fire Trial, we learn to let go these drives, to move with and within the stream of Providence in Life.  The soul now tends to want only to be content and at rest, no longer driven.  We love the necessity that Providence brings us, and devote ourselves to that task, recognizing that the Great Whole of Life is in Other and far more competent Hands (Christ’s Love).

There can be, by the way, either (or both) an outer necessity and an inner necessity.  Self observation, with an evocation of conscience applied to the question of whether we are being truthful to ourselves, will reveal whether an inner necessity is to have the same weight as an outer one.  This essay, in fact, was very much produced out of an inner necessity in connection with the delicate and subtle presence of Fullness and fullness of Presence, brought into the stream of Time, because of a Parsifal question that occurred to me regarding the pending conference on Ben Franklin (August 18-19, 2006), where I lived in Fair Oaks, California.  Yet, even in this work, I encountered Fire Trial elements, for latent and unredeemed ambitions limited and distorted my first versions of this essay.  Only after I had recognized these ambitions and laughed at myself for them, did matters begin to acquire a satisfactory to conscience moral clarity.

We need to keep in mind that we remain of the earth, even when the wind – the kingdom of heaven – is blowing through the soul.  In our earthly dialogs, one with the other, we need to learn to just listen and not to always impose our own opinions upon the others freedom of thought (for parents of children and others in a teaching necessity, this will be different, sometimes).  We can let the soul rest in wonder at what the Thou will say and do.  So also with the invisible other-presence in the soul.  In this way the outer biography and the inner biography more and more consciously harmonize their naturally interwoven music.

Life itself – the biography – will demand of ordinary layered consciousness, and in harmony with the necessities of our karma of wounds, those experiences to be faced in which other-need and choice appear.  If we think with the heart and will the good, Grace will come in the form of those other-needed intuitions – the deepening consciousness of what other-presence wants to say into our inwardness, in concordance with our slowly growing and developing capacities, as is necessary for service to the Thou.

This is the essence of the Fire Trial – a burning away purification of self for other.  Just as in the Air Trial we set aside attachment to a given thought content, so in the Fire Trial we give away our attachments to our own meaning – we dissolve the self descriptive concepts with which we previously adorned our i-AM, as if wearing a costume.  Instead, we just are.  In all our actions and choices, we are (if we think on it) always: “In the Beginning…“.

We no longer are this or that, but just are (i-AM).  Each favorite self-name: father, mother, anthroposophist, alchemist, lawyer, ditch digger – all these names of self are let go, using the craft and art acquired in the Air Trial.  We do this in order to get ready for the first part of Not I, but Christ in me – the Not I part.  We burn away the I concepts, which by their very nature are limiting and mark us as not-free and are a beam in our own eye-inside, directed at ourselves.

We don’t have to think of ourselves as a father or mother, for example, since the necessity of the biography places those tasks before us already.  The inner biography too, with its ambitions, hopes, dreams and wishes, pulls us forward as well.

There is as yet no traditional clairvoyant spiritual perception – the astral body is still being purified during the Fire Trial.  What was the lower ego, or that which begins its path accompanied by the Shadow or threefold double-complex, has more and more merged and identified itself with the higher ego – the self-participated aspect of conscience.

When we live purely in Parsifal questions (that is, poor in spirit), in the artistic mastery of our antipathies and sympathies, having set aside self-importance and attending to the object of thinking with the intention to love, then thinking is meet with other-presence, as needed.  This is the quite definite inner experience of the delicate and subtle presence of Fullness and fullness of Presence, which is described in the John Gospel as follows: What’s born of the flesh is flesh, and what’s born of the breath is breath.  Don’t be amazed because I told you you have to be born again.  The wind blows where it will and you hear the sound of it, but you don’t know where it comes from or where it goes; it’s the same with everyone born of the breath John 3: 6-8

This Fire Trial is all the more painful, because we have become exposed via the previous layers (stages) of spiritual and character development, to a much deeper introspective understanding of our own desire body – our own astral body.  We can now not only think within the other – the Thou, but also we can now think much deeper within our own soul – we are naked before our own introspective clarity of perception.   That which remains unredeemed, and still yet outside the full and completed Fire Trial of purification, lies inwardly exposed to us.  The descending conscience (like the descent of the dove in the Gospels) meets the rising lower ego, both seeking union and marriage; and this light from above, a kind of deep moral Grace, illuminates and warms all that is yet shadow in the soul.  Emerson has put the bare bones of it like this in his lecture, The American Scholar: “For the instinct is sure, that prompts him to tell his brother what he thinks.  He then learns that in going down into the secrets of his own mind he has descended into the secrets of all minds…


Just as we learned to think about, with and within the other – the Thou, so we learn to think about, with and within ones own soul.  Each skill, craft and art of thinking emerges from its corresponding Trial.   The Earth Trial is a given, it is where most of us start.  The Water Trial requires our first struggles with renunciation and the beginning, and delicate, expressions of love.  The Air Trial takes us even further, to the abandonment of our favorite thoughts.  Then we also renounce our excessive sense of Self, in the process of facing the Fire Trial.  There we are also most exposed to our own other-Self, – the Shadow – which is now fully illuminated – no secrets whatsoever.

Let us consider, briefly, some hints on the encounter with the Shadow, from the point of view of the Discipleship stream.

When Valentin Tomberg was writing as an anthroposophist, he described in his book Inner Development, three aspects to the Shadow: a luciferic double, an ahrimanic double and a human double.  Later, in his profoundly Christian Meditations on the Tarot: a Journey into Christian Hermeticism he wrote of the tempter, the prosecutor and of egregores – that is of self-created psychic parasites in the soul (Steiner called these latter creatures, in Man as Symphony of the Creative Word: cancers or tumors of the soul).

When we think discursively – talk inwardly to ourselves, the unconscious works into the soul.  That is, both the higher and the lower unconscious are present.  No true thought, for example, can arise in the soul except for its having come to us via the living stream of thought (see Kuhlewind here).  But, because in ordinary and fallen soul consciousness, we are bound (intentionally by the Gods so as to give us true freedom on the earth) into an inner darkness of spirit, we only can know thought as it falls out and down into the soul from its original living element.  In discursive thought the living element has died.

Conscience, another higher element of the unconscious, also speaks into the soul via discursive thought, as that whispering still small voice.

At the same time, the Shadow is active here as well.   When we struggle with our own temptation or tempt others (the luciferic double), or when we hurt ourselves, or others (prosecute ourselves) with mean thoughts (the ahrimanic double), these too come from the unconscious into discursive thinking.  When we fall, over and over again into temptation such as addiction or alcoholism, part of the soul becomes excessively free of the ego, for the ego is weak in many ways.  This part can be called an egregore or a tumor of soul.

However, since all manner of bad habits (an ill temper, an abusive tongue) are also connected to tiny tumors of soul, I have began to feel that this language lacks what art and a sense of beauty needs to give to our conceptions, so above I wrote only of wounds, of our karma of wounds.  In the case of egregores or serious tumors or cancers of the soul, we can call these self-generated wounds.

What the life passages of the Trials give to us is ever greater consciousness.  We draw out of the unconscious, through a more and more awake intention and attention,  not only its lower elements, the Shadow and darkly cold side of temptations, prosecutions and wounds, but also the Light and heart warmed side, the stream of living thought and participated conscience.

So, in facing the Water Trial of the mote and the beam we begin the work of discipleship, the work of seeking reintegration and reunion with the Divine Mystery Itself.  So also with the Air Trial and the Fire Trial.  Bit by bit we perceive and then let go what is dark in the unconscious, thereby separating and drawing into the light the gold of our growing will-in-thinking.

The fruit of each Trial remains with us, and at each passage becomes deeper.  The soul becomes a rich texture of layers of inner song and music in the form of ever unfolding capacities of will, in the corresponding creative cultivation of sublime elements in the feeling life, all interwoven with the arising and passing away of the breath-stream of living thought.

The purified will (an appropriately moral intention and attention) creates heart warmth in the soul-soil of feeling, out of which the light and life filled flower of thought is born.  And, because we are first born into this process out of the Earth Trial of freedom, our whole passage in these Life Trials goes forward in freedom.  It all evolves out of our choices.  Recall Emerson: In self trust all virtues are comprehended.

Nothing renounced has disappeared, but rather the soul becomes an instrument, which the i-AM in freedom learns to play.  The notes and intervals become primal dynamic expressions of soul forces and capacities, many generated out of spiritual exercises.   Just as we must practice the use of a material musical instrument, so we must practice the capacities of the soul.  At the same time, many forces and capacities (if not more) have a quality that comes only from the moral tone of the soul.  We purify the instrument of the soul as much as we learn how to use it.  Both are needed, both are necessary.  The spiritual exercises, that is the how as in technique, has more kinship with the teachings of the true Alchemists – the stream of the Kings, while the moral purity of the soul has more kinship with the teachings of Christ – the stream of the Shepherds.

Steiner’s The Philosophy of Spiritual Activity is the modern transformation of the Christ-in-me moral essence of the John Gospel, while Knowledge of Higher Worlds is the modern transformation of the Rosicrucian Ideals of spiritual developmental exercises.   While the latter has more kinship with the soul nature of Central Europe –  the seeking to incarnate the Ideal, the former has more kinship with the soul nature of the American – the need to act morally in the world.  Both are present everywhere in the world, it is just the mix and their proportions that vary from one soul gesture to another, in the wonder and mystery of the Threefold World.

Let us now seek to make a whole.

We become more and more inwardly free as we renounce and transform sympathies and antipathies, then as well the very thought content itself, until finally we sacrifice our own importance.  Each act of renunciation is accompanied by a corresponding and deeper capacity to love.  Each act of love, beginning with the most simple appreciation of the other – the Thou, creates inner purity: inner light and warmth.  We are in the process of learning to make of the soul a temple, and to fill it with created and cultivated feelings of reverence and wonder at not only the world of nature, but also the world of social community – the stream of karmic wounds and free destiny meetings with our companions in life.

Ultimately, this inner and outer moral work leads us to becoming fully inwardly naked to ourselves in the Fire Trial (where there is no longer the possibility of escaping the Shadow), and as well fully and consciously naked to the other-Presence (the kingdom of heaven is within you).  But even in the face of the other-Presence we are nevertheless completely free. The nature of the breath (the other-Presence) is to bring not only a new depth of comprehension, but ever more freedom, for we never stop being the principle willful agent of the thought-content that arises in the soul.  Overtime we become even freer and more creative – a true artist in thought.

The creation of a human thought content is the sole province of the 10th Hierarchy.  Only in us, and through our love, does the Cosmos know Itself in the beauty of human thought.  We were told this as long ago as Genesis 2:19-20, with the symbolic picture that unto Adam is given the power of naming every living creature.  We name the world, give it its human meaning, with every thought we source and author.

Here we can now come to understand more deeply the truth, beauty and goodness hidden in Christ’s comments in response to the question of what is the most important commandment: He said to them, “You are to love your lord God with all your heart and all your spirit and all your mind.  That is the important and first commandment. [love other-Presence] The second one is similar: You are to love those close to you as you love yourself. [love the Thou, the companions in life]  All the law and the prophets hang from these two commands” .  Matthew 22: 37-40.

What we really learn is to participate sacramentally in the arrival of the thought-content in the soul, which becomes then ever new each time we truly think.  We are, in this, inwardly born again and again and again.  This living thinking is a perpetual rebirth of thought, which comes into being and dies away – a constant dying and becoming.  We learn to unite with this living stream of thought, the living stream of breath within.  We give ourselves over to it, in a participatory Rite – an artistic soul dance of sacred-heart thinking, and then discover the true secret of the Fire Trial, which has been hidden out in the open in the Gospels, just in this: Now I bathe you in the water to change hearts, but the one coming after me is stronger than me: I’m not big enough to carry his shoes.  He will bathe you in holy breath and fire.  John the Baptist: Matthew 3:11

leading us, through His Grace (holy breath within)

and His Love (as Artistic arranger of the Karma

of the Fire of Trials in our biographies), to:

Not I, but Christ in me.

Four Giants of American Culture

Present Day American Culture

– four archetypal personalities –

Some years ago, I was in a conversation at a small anthroposophical conference, and I used the term: American culture.  The European anthroposophist sitting next to me snorted, and clearly looking down his long nose at us poor unenlightened Americans, offered this terse commentary: What culture!?!?!  Shall we see?  Keep in mind that this which is being described is youthful and raw, as against the mature (but dying) European Culture, which had clearly reached remarkable heights of achievement in the 17th, 18th and 19th Centuries.


I’d like to start with someone who is certain to raise a lot of antipathy in those who haven’t bothered to think about these things: Clint Eastwood.  Here is a man, not only associated primarily with movies, but with violent movies.  Clearly movies are not great literature or opera or symphonies of the masters.  Worse, Steiner has indicated certain problems that can arise when one sits and views cinema.  It is a singular experience, often passive and lacking in all the greatness and natural co-participation of the high arts of Western Civilization.  All the same lets see what can be observed if we do not automatically close our minds right from the beginning.

Born in 1930, Eastwood begins his career in television, and is most often remembered by the older American generation as a character in a television series called Rawhide, centered around the practice of driving cattle to market in the West in America and set in the late 19th Century.  Subsequently he is tapped by the Italian filmmaker Sergio Leone for three operatic Westerns that essentially made Eastwood into a Hollywood star.   As a star Eastwood then makes a number of Westerns, as well as a series of police detective films (the dirty Harry films), which if we use our imaginative faculties are really just Westerns set in modern times.   These observations lead us to asking the question: Just what is the significance of the Western for the American Soul, for it once dominated film and television, has its own special place in American literature, and still (as can be seen by recent films such as the remake of 3:10 to Yuma) captures the imagination of the American Soul.

We know that in the background of European and other world cultures there are Myths, often profound in nature and quite revealing of the character of the people whose myths are being studied.  For the New World and for the American Soul, the Western is our Myth – our archetypal story that reveals a great deal about our character.  Now this Myth is rich, deep and wide.  It encompasses, for example, a quite dramatic change overtime in how Native Americans are depicted.  Early Westerns took the more European view that Native Americans had no culture and were primarily savages.  Steiner even uses that term (savages) in a lecture.  Eventually, beginning with such films as Little Big Man, Jeremiah Johnson and then Dances with Wolves the whole bigoted view of America’s aboriginal peoples begins to be stood on its head.

In this rich field of activity – the story telling of the primal Myth of the American Soul, Clint Eastwood emerges not only as its master, but in such films as Pale Rider and Unforgiven he uncovers in the former film quite spiritual dimensions, and in the latter the incipient reflections of the Consciousness Soul.

Consider now the basic aspects of this Myth: Evil takes hold of a community, and fear paralyzes the members of this community.  Then comes the individual, the one (whether a member of the community or a stranger-other) who has the courage to face down evil, even when the community itself (out of its fear) stands in his (or her) way.  In the early years these themes were painted in stark contrasts of black and white, even to the color of the hats the bad guys and the good guys wore.  As the Myth is worked with over the years, the stories become more and more sophisticated, and at a certain point the same Myth gets transferred into literature in the genre of detective fiction.  The hard boiled detective, often himself an anti-hero (as are many Western film characters), has to wander in the dark underbelly of society in order to right a wrong.

The Western writer Zane Gray begins to include spiritual elements in his works, but is mostly yet unknown outside small circles of fans.  It is really Eastwood who starts to explore these aspects in the more popular art of film, first in the movie: High Plains Drifter (1973).  In an interview years following the film, he offers in his laconic way of speaking, that he thought that his character could either be played as an avenging spirit come to this town, or as a dead man brought back to life in order to right the wrongs committed in the community.  Later, in the film Pale Rider (1985) [Revelation 6:8: “And I looked, and behold a pale horse: and his name that sat on him was Death…“)] which Eastwood directed and starred in, he plays a dead man brought back to life (there is a scene were another character sees this man, who has come to town wearing a priestly collar, with his shirt off, and his back is covered with a half dozen scars of gunshot wounds).

In fact, the opening sequence of Pale Rider has a young girl, who is burying her dog that the evil doers killed in a raid on the community, praying to god for an avenging angel to come.  Needless to say, the Eastwood character kills the bad guys, saves the town and so forth.

As Eastwood matures, both as an actor and a director, he finally creates his Western masterpiece: Unforgiven (1992).  The film wins four Oscars, with Eastwood receiving two: as best director and for best film.  The main character is a former killer and drunk, now widowed, who in the beginning (in order to make some money) leaves his small children alone (they are perhaps ages 10 and 6) and goes off to kill (as in paid to commit revenge) a couple of cowboys who had badly cut up the face of a whore.  Nobody in this film is a mister good guy.  Everyone is wounded and troubled.  None of the moral questions (which are fundamental to the films themes) are unambiguous.

Eastwood has here instinctively found the core of the questions being faced by the Consciousness Soul (moral dilemmas in an age of ambiguity, which force the I to rely fully on its own inner resources).  Yet, he continues to mature and more precisely understand and observe human beings, and the next two significant films are modern and face the Consciousness Soul questions squarely (it is unnecessary in any Epoch of the Evolution of Consciousness for those participating in it to use the terms Steiner created.  They only have to see the core of the human questions, and then portray them in their art).

The first of these is Mystic River (2003), based on a novel by Dennis Lehane, and directed by Eastwood.  The film wins two Oscars for its principle actors (Sean Penn and Tim Robbins), and Eastwood is again nominated for Best Director and Best Film.

The story begins with a flash back to a time when two young boys watch a third (they are friends in Boston) be abducted by a unknown man who subsequently abuses the third.  Then we come to many years later, and the three become involved in a horrible crime (one’s daughter is killed – he is a local petty criminal, another is the lead detective in this homicide, and the third (the abuse survivor) becomes – erroneously – a principle suspect.  Every character (including the wives and friends of the principles) confronts moral questions, each unique to their personal biography.  Few make what might be good choices in the abstract (idealistic), but between the novelist’s vision and Eastwood’s film rendition, the confusion and moral ambiguity seeps out of every corner of the film and almost every scene.  Nothing ends with clarity – no nice wrapped up package.  It is all too real, and the audience well knows that this is a slice of life they themselves have faced at one time or another at least in part.

Then Eastwood directs and stars in: Million Dollar Baby (2004).  The film wins four Oscars, Best Film, Best Director and two best acting awards for two of the principles (Hillary Swank and Morgan Freeman, besides Eastwood, who was nominated but did not win best lead actor). 

Eastwood’s character, a boxing coach, becomes faced with a horrible moral choice, one that most of us would hope never to have to face.  He is also a practicing Catholic, who goes to Mass almost everyday, although he constantly fights with his priest about whether any of this religious stuff means anything anymore.  Based on a short story by F.X. Toole, the film leaves behind the multiple moral dilemmas of Mystic River and focuses precisely on one character and one principle question.   The character eventually denies his Catholic background, makes his own choice (clearly making a Consciousness Soul decision) and afterward goes on into (for the movie goer) a kind of unknown limbo which we can only imagine never leaves this character for the rest of his last few years of life (he is quite mature).

Not content with these triumphs, Eastwood next takes on the issue of war, in a time of the Iraq war, and directs two more wonderfully related films: Flags of our Fathers, and Letters from Iwo Jima.  In the first we see the Battle for Iwo Jima from the side of the Americans, and in the second the same battle from the side of the Japanese.  Letters sees Eastwood nominated (but not winning) for Directing and for Best Picture once more, while Flags is less successful in that department.  Since Flags actually tells a story about the American military in the Second World War, that is not heroic in its nature, the movie is not so easily popular.  In both, Eastwood once more highlights moral questions and their resolution, and most interestingly in Letters we see the struggle between the group soul and individualism portrayed, as a couple main characters try to step outside Japanese military tradition, and make in the moment individual moral choices.

Eastwood is, of course, not the only director in film to deal with Consciousness Soul questions, but he is easily one of the most gifted and focused (again never needing to do anything more as an artist but see the human world in which he lives).


Next lets look at the work of Neal Stephenson.  Stephenson is a novelist, and a genius.  Born in 1959, Stephenson is mostly seen as writing science fiction, about which he says: The science fiction approach doesn’t mean it’s always about the future; it’s an awareness that this is different. [emphasis added, ed.]

Coming from a hard science background (family and early college), he makes a name for himself with imaginative novels of a unique character (Snow Crashthe Diamond Age and Cryptonomicon) and is nominated for and wins several awards in this field.  The latter, Cryptonomicon, actually explores a whole new field of literature (he is basically inventing this), which while unique, is still not yet recognized for what it contains and what it portends.

Cryptonomicon is part novel, part exploration of code cyphers and computers, part real history and part imagined history.  It is over 900 pages long and actually succeeds in being quite educational.  In this novel we get a glimpse of the later works, which do something with history that so far has only been imagined.

Owen Barfield, a significant anthroposophist and researcher into the mysteries of language (and what they can say about the Evolution of Consciousness) once remarked about the works of R.G. Collingwood (author of The Idea of History), suggesting that Collingwood was onto something special when he (Collingwood) said that all history is a history of thought.  It is, according to Collingwood, not so much that a certain event happened at all (such as Caesar’s crossing the Rubicon), but more crucially what Caesar thought when doing this that the historian must discover.  Steiner’s spiritual science gives us much of this kind of history, and Steiner himself suggests that in the future individuals will be able to do this – that is give us a history of what was thought – of the insides, not just a usual history of events – of outsides.

It is my view that Stephenson is able to do this instinctively, although no one really yet recognizes the significance of his genius in this regard.  Now I could try to demonstrate this with long quotes from his books, but sadly they really must be experienced (just as Eastwood’s films must eventually be experienced).  All I can do here is present the idea of this kind of new instinctive cognition as regards the representation of history, and suggest that Stephenson is able to do this.  It will be up to the reader to engage his works, in particular those I go to next, in order to satisfy themselves as to how successful Stephenson has been.

Stephenson, after Cryptonomicon, took on the subjects of certain aspects of the history of the world, in particular mostly Europe, during the time (about 1670 to 1730) when Newton and Leibniz were arguing quite fundamental questions, whose resolution was essential to the future of physics and scientific materialism.  While this scientific debate was ongoing, there were also struggles among bankers and traders and buyers and sellers of financial instruments (stocks etc.), concerning the real nature of money, of trade, of currencies and the relationship between government and private individuals as to finance and banking.  A great deal that lives in modern civilization was being given birth in those years, and Stephenson has written six novels, collected in three volumes, for a total of 2700 plus pages, in which he recreates an imaginative picture of what was thought by the principles (real and fictional) regarding these and related questions.

Called the Baroque Cycle, the three volumes are also rich in story-telling, adventure, passion, secrets, plots and counter-plots.  Where a particular question might puzzle the reader, Stephenson invents fictional dialogs of explanation.  For example, a young princess (a real historical figure), travels by horse drawn coach for several weeks across much of central Europe in the company of Leibniz and another, who in response to the naive questions of the young princess are required to explain the nature of the arguments among the savants (the leading natural philosophers of the day).

In one such dialog, we find a fictional character and Leibniz explaining the significance of the counter ideas over the nature of matter (Leibniz wants to have his monads have consciousness, and Newton wants to have his atoms be mere things without consciousness).  In a later dialog they recognize in this moment that the course science takes as a result of these dialogs among the leading savants, will have enormous consequences for the future.  This later dialog is remarkable, and deserves some detailed hints as to its contents (it can be found beginning on about page 672 of the last novel: The System of the World).

The Hanover princess Caroline (a historical figure) brings to her drawing room in England two other historical figures (Newton and Leibniz) and a fictional character, Daniel Waterhouse.  She sets them the task of trying to settle a certain argument of which she has become aware (during the processes of education in her youth), concerning the relationship of matter and of spirit, or in another way: what is the nature of substance and what is the nature of free will.  Both of these were significant questions of the time among the leading thinkers, and Caroline is portrayed as being concerned with what kind of cultural future is to be born out of a resolution of these questions that leans too far in one direction at the expense of the other.

The ensuing dialog is delightful – that is it is a pleasure to read, and makes the modern arguments between such ideas as evolution and intelligent design (for example) seem lost and confused, because they have failed to keep in mind the more fundamental questions as Stephenson has so ably recreated them for his readers.  Steiner, of course, has not lost sight of this question, for his The Philosophy of Freedom (or Spiritual Activity) fully embraces the question of free will in the spirit of natural science.

The same methods of illumination are applied by Stephenson to finance, trade and the creation of money.  At various places fictional characters interact with real historical figures, and the underlying principles of these matters (which effect us now greatly) are examined in quite plain and clear language (something we have a hard time getting today).

In addition, the reality of the times and places are portrayed starkly.  The lives of the poor are not whitewashed to any degree.  We get to attend hangings outside London, wars in the fields of Europe. slave ships prowling the Mediterranean, parties at the Chateau of Versailles, arguments in the English Parliament, what it means to be a soldier for Kings of all kinds, what Cairo was like at that time, what the Alchemists (including Newton) were pursuing, how women had to dress during the winter in order to keep warm at the French Court, and on and on and on.

The world of Europe (and elsewhere) is so fully realized, in all its rich detail, that we can’t help but feel we are there.  The novels are never boring (as history often can be), and over and over again we find language used in such a way that we go: oh, that’s where that word came from that we use today.

There will no doubt be those modern historians or cultural anthropologists who want to argue with Stephenson, but they will really be jealous, for he makes us live in the time, intimately know the times, and most importantly understand the thinking (just as Collingwood suggested was necessary for history) that was giving birth to the world we live in today.

Most significant is that because of what Stephenson had been writing, and who his readers most ofter were and are, we can come awake to an instinctive Consciousness Soul teaching and teacher.  Stephenson cares about his subjects and his readers.  He has mastered all manner of questions and historical details, and then rendered for his readers (often the very geeks we recognize as responsible for the best in modern technology and advanced green biology) a true living history of the world in which we stand today. 

Consider the titles to the three volumes, which should not be seen as arbitrary in any sense: Quicksilver (not only does he here recognize the strange world of early chemistry, but also the mercurial nature of the changes going on at this time in history; The Confusion (everything has become indefinite, unformed, ready for new form); and, The System of the World (the questions are resolved, and science and finance and much else has now to move forward based on the questions asked, and then answered, during this period of European history (whether correctly or not).

Those familiar with the lifeless sense of the history that stands behind our present world conditions, will be graced with a great gift in these books, which are always entertaining, always informative and always intellectually engaging in the highest sense of those terms.   A lapse in conventional education regarding recent history, which had probably confused many young minds today, is in these books overcome.  To read them is to become more awake to the world that surrounds us.


Let us now take up another novelist, this time a woman, Ursula K. Le Guin, born in 1929, a half year before Clint Eastwood.  She has written so much and for so long, that it is almost impossible to categorize her work.  Much, as with Stephenson, seems to be in the realm of science fiction and fantasy, but as with Stephenson this is really a field of literature (relatively new) where one can invent stories in which to clothe ideas.  For example, rather than writing a philosophical treatise on the nature of gender sexuality, Le Guin writes an award winning novel (The Left Hand of Darkness – 1969) in which she creates an imaginary world through which she can not only raise the issues, questions and ambiguities, but demonstrate, through the imagination, how these matters might play out in life.

Here is some Steiner and Tomberg on social life and images and pictures: From Rudolf Steiner’s Education As A Force For Societal Change:  In the future, social life will depend upon cooperative support between people, something that happens when we exchange our ideas, perceptions, and feelings.  This means that we must base our general education not just upon ideas taken from science or industry but upon concepts that can serve as a foundation for imaginative thoughts.  As improbable as this may seem now, in the future we shall be unable to interact in a properly social way if we do not teach people imaginative concepts.   In the future, we shall have to learn to understand the world in images.

From Valentin Tomberg’s Anthroposophical Studies of the Old TestamentAt the present time, the mission is different (the mission being the method correct for the average student of mystery wisdom in a particular epoch).  It consists in a thought knowledge endowed with vision achieved through the development of the forces of the conscience in order then to live powerfully in the creative word.

Remember, here we are coming to know American’s who arrive at Anthroposophy naturally, and who are instinctively in the Consciousness Soul in their life of rights.

In Le Guin we have another instinctive Consciousness Soul artist, who examines the depths of human existence and potential using the imagination.  Now some may suggest that the classic novel, or even the modern more ordinary novel does this well, but in those cases we have a kind of spirit recollection (past looking gesture) coupled with a bit of spirit mindfulness (present oriented gesture).  It is human nature seen most often as fixed, settled and unchanging that novels outside the fields of science fiction and fantasy often consider.  In Le Guin (and others) it is spirit vision that is significant, as well as the ability to illuminate the present by changing the context imaginatively.

Similar in a way to Owen Barfield, Le Guin loves language.  She not only employs it with profound grace to render her thought into pictures (stories), but many of her stories focus on the significance of language itself (such as The Telling – 2000).  Moreover, she is quite interested in the spiritual dimensions of existence. 

For example, while her Earthsea stories and novels seem to be about wizards and magic, in fact they are morality tales.  Her question often is in these works: what do you do with power and why do you do it.  The power can be the great power of a king or a wizard, or the simple power of gossip and lies in a small community.  In The Farthest Shore, the old mage tells the young man, who doesn’t know he is about to become a king (and thus have a lot of power), more or less as follows: The important thing to recognize is the balance:  When you lift a rock, while the ground underneath is lighter, your hand is heavier.  If you change the weather here, the weather elsewhere is also changed.  Every act has consequences far beyond what seems to be immediately true.  Would that modern day political leaders had such an education!

In the world of Earthsea, the fundamental power comes from knowing the true name of something.  Names are important, and this is a theme of significance throughout Le Guin’s works. 

In what I consider her greatest achievement (she might disagree but like The Left Hand of Darkness it won several awards), the Dispossessed: an Ambiguous Utopia (1974), she creates two contrasting worlds that are neighbors to each other.  One world is the large moon of the other, a planet.  This moon is not airless and bears life.  At some time in the past, a group of people, in disagreement with the direction of the main planet’s cultures. were asked to leave and go live on this stark and hardly habitable moon.  There they consciously created a society of anarchists (what would be a natural consequence of Steiner’s ethical individualism).  To do this, their leader (a woman) invented a whole new language.  Taking the power latent in naming, she sculpts a new language that can not only carry their political ideals, but also the quite naturally more awake soul (psychological) realities of ethically free human beings.

Now Le Guin only instinctively does this herself, but as she just imagines that it can be done, she then works out bits and pieces of what this new language might be able to do.  Mostly she works with her characters, making the vision she has of a society – of people trying to raise children to be ethical individualists – live in the reader through her depiction of their thoughts and actions.

She is also, like Steiner and Barfield, a quite subtle thinker.  Consider the title, for example: the Dispossessed.  The world she imagines has a very definite set of ideas concerning the relationship of human beings to things – to personal property.  In fact, a common epithet in this community of free individualists is to call another a: propertarian – that is someone who sets more store in things, than in relationships.  Further, as children are raised, they are encouraged to be more other-directed by being challenged as egoizers or committing the act of egoizing – that is being self-centered.

In essence, as conceived by her, this community finds some degree of its freedoms by becoming dis-possessed – free of possessions.   In the first chapter, the main character – a man from the Moon, says this to someone who is from the home planet: “You see, I know you don’t take things, as we do.  In your world, in Urras, one must buy things.  I come to your world, I have no money, I cannot buy, therefore I should bring.  But how much can I bring?  Clothing, yes, I might bring two suits.  But food?  How can I bring food enough?  I cannot bring, I cannot buy.  If I am to be kept alive, you must give it to me.  I am an Anarresti, I make the Urrasti behave like Anarresti: to give, not to sell…”.

As a genius at story telling. Le Guin also tells her tale by alternating chapters from one world to the next.  In the first chapter, her main character is leaving to go to the planet-world from which his fellow anarchists once fled (200 years before).  There, as the novel unfolds, we get to see what he sees of what is essentially our modern culture, but from the point of view of someone raised in an entirely different fashion.  In the alternating chapters on the moon, we get the back story, to who he is and why he went on his journey.

Using the contrast between the two worlds, and the awake consciousness and moral sensibilities (not always certain at all, but quite ambiguous just as the Consciousness Soul age requires) of her main character, Le Guin not only comments on our contemporary society and its many flaws, but also on a possible ideal society and its many flaws (remember it is an ambiguous utopia).  Also, at the core of the whole thing she puts the problem of language and of meaning.  A great question arises here, for we are confronted with the idea of what could we do if we changed our language itself.  How could we take hold of our communities and our cultural life if we took a firm grip on the fundamentals of the meaning of words, and instead of letting their development take place sub-consciously, we intentionally craft all of it anew.

In this envisioning, Le Guin has shown us just what we might be able to do if (as I suggest), Western Civilizations is dying, and we are on the transition from a literate culture to once more an oral culture.  This may seem for some a degeneration, but if we take hold of this transformation and introduce into it new stories, stories carrying the true spirit of our age (as born out of Anthroposophy), we might just discover how to be far more creative than we yet imagine in our application of the new picture-thinking.

Le Guin has done this for us to a degree, albeit instinctively, for she has set the past and the future along side each other (the old no longer socially vital planet-world and the new more socially vital moon-world) enabling us, by this contrast, to see both with greater clarity and not too much vain idealism.  Yes it is utopian in its hunger, but ultimately human and ambiguous in its true nature.

If I was to teach a course on Steiner’s threefold social ideas, I’d include, as necessary reading, Le Guin’s social masterpiece: the Dispossessed: an Ambiguous Utopia.  Why?  Because while Steiner’s threefolding ideas are quite significant, they are too ideal for the American Soul, with its quite practical down to earth need to solve problems.  Le Guin isn’t advocating an ideal utopia, but she is imagining the concrete and human reality of such a social experiment (as ethical individualism), in a remarkably wise fashion.


Last, I want to introduce David E. Kelley, a writer of television scripts, who I call: America’s Shakespeare.  Of the four, he is the most fully awake to the Consciousness Soul.  He is the principle writer (and later producer) of several television series: L. A. LawPicket FencesChicago HopeAlly McBealThe PracticeBoston Public; and now Boston Legal.  In Picket Fences (about 1995), for example, he actually has a character say (the sheriff) at the end of a hard and morally ambiguous day for everyone: “you know, there are no rules anymore, we are all on our own.  It would be hard to imagine a non-anthroposophist more clearly characterize the human question at the center of the Age of the Consciousness Soul.

Kelley is a former lawyer turned Hollywood TV writer, and first comes to public attention in the late 1980’s (1986-1994) as a major writer on L.A. Law.  When that show had a special 100th episode (it was extremely popular and won many awards) instead of a drama, this episode consisted of cast and crew interviews.  Richard Dysart, a lead actor, was asked about being in a drama where there weren’t just a couple stars anymore, but rather a large ensemble cast.  His reply was surprising. He said, in essence, that the actors were not the stars of the series, but the scripts.  It was the ideas in the scripts that made the show what it was.  There was also a brief interview with Kelley as a principle writer, and he talked as follows about his practice:  I like to go into a room, alone, with a lot of legal pads and pencils, so I can be there undisturbed with my characters.

This bears some thinking about so as to not miss the special nuances.  Those who read this who write fiction will know this better, but when one is living dynamically in the imagination, the plot and the characters (when this art is at its best) take on a life of their own.  We write and record what passes before the eye of the imagination, but are frequently surprised.  Yes, we do some work in the beginning setting up the situation and the structural context, but once we set them free the characters begin to take on a life of their own.  The more we set them free, the more human they become and the more real.

It is also important to realize that most television writers might pen four to eight scripts a year and feel quite productive.  It is not uncommon for Kelley to do twenty to thirty, sometimes writing (or supervising) personally all the scripts for a series.  When Ally McBeal and The Practice were running simultaneously on two different major networks for a time, it was thought that in one or two of those years he wrote over forty scripts personally.

Three other characteristics of Kelley’s work need to be noted.  One is how much actors like to play his characters.  Not only do they win all kinds of awards (for example, the lead female – Kathy Baker – in Picket Fences won a best actress  Emmy for three of its four year run; a major supporting actor – Ray Walston – won twice in the same series, which ran from 1992-1996.  In more recent times, James Spader has won three Emmys – 2004, 2005 and 2007, playing the same character – lawyer Alan Shore – in two series, The Practice and then when that had finished out its 7 year run, in Boston Legal), and you can actually see their love of this work as they get to speak the words Kelley has given them to speak.

The second characteristic, and probably the most important, has to do with an indication of Steiner’s where he said that: English speakers are instinctively in the Consciousness Soul in their Life of Rights.  Kelley, as a former lawyer and an artistic genius, as he developed his craft more and more placed his characters in courtrooms.  Picket Fences, for example, frequently spent the first half to two thirds of its plot setting up a court case, where the moral and legal issues being dramatized could be discussed both legally and philosophically.

Lest we think Kelley is advocating a point of view (which he is not afraid to do), in the 100th episode of L.A. Law referred to above, it was described of him how he was able, through his characters to see every side of an issue.  No point of view was overlooked, or weakly presented.  Often the judges who had to rule (which is why Ray Walston as Judge Bone in Picket Fences won two supporting actor Emmys) could come off as modern day – yet quite human – Solomons (or as needed, Falstaff-like fools).

Consider a plot line from Picket Fences, with which the third or fourth year of the series began.  The town in Picket Fences, Rome Wisconsin, is a basically white rural community not too far from a large urban city.  A black federal judge in this large city decides to bus 400 inner city youth to Rome for the purposes of desegregation.  Kathy Baker, playing the town doctor, who has recently been elected mayor, decides to resist.  This crisis, and its implications for all the characters in Rome (as well as for the judge) is given four episodes to work itself out, with the final episode mostly consisting of the judge and the mayor, sitting in her jail cell (the judge jailed her for resisting his order), arguing (with great intelligence and passion) all the underlying moral and legal issues.

The third major characteristic of his work is his fascination with comedy as well as drama.  In Picket Fences he would often weave humor into the opening set-up leaving the serious matter for the courtroom at the end.  For example, in one story he had the town sheriff and doctor (who were married in the series) discover that outside town was a farm where cows were being used as surrogate wombs for human babies.  A little scifi (and certainly funny), but with Kelley one can justly assume he read somewhere about this being considered as possible (all his writing is very contemporary, and very sound in its understanding of the technical background to any story – of course his success lets him no doubt hire all kinds of research people).  In any event the embryos in cows is played broadly and a bit for laughs, until we get to the human question of what to do.  That decision lands on judge Bone’s shoulders, for the issues of do we let them get to term and so forth are not simple questions.

When Ally McBeal and The Practice were on the air at the same time, he split the comedy off into the former and the drama off into the latter.  Both involved law firms, and Ally would often deal with somewhat silly legal issues, but mostly with sex, love and just plain strangeness (a supporting character in Ally had tourette’s syndrome – the one where one can’t stop from swearing in public, and/or other uncontrollable nervous tics and gestures).  The main character in Ally (the Ally McBeal) often saw strange visions and had a love life that had more ups and downs than a yo-yo.  While The Practice took on every serious issue of law it could, but mostly concentrated on what it means to defend criminals (rapists, drug pushers and all the worst our society produces).  Getting people off for murder (especially one they committed) requires of a lawyer a very odd moral character.  None of these questions were down played, and many of them had serious consequences.

For example, different lawyers at different times in the series, were attacked physically by clients (sadists, crazies, you name it) and often in the hospital and near death.   The relationship between lawyers and prosecutors was explored over and over again, as well as with judges.  People had affairs, got married, got divorced.  One lawyer’s teenage son got caught dealing drugs.  Another main character, whose lawyer wife was being stalked by a crazy sadist, hires a former client (a murderer) to intimidate the crazy, but instead the crazy gets the client to murder him, so that the lawyer himself now gets charged with murder for hire.

At the same time, no social issue that can be made a legal drama is ignored.  Law suits are filed to stop pollution, to reform political processes, to force corporations to do the right thing.  In one remarkable episode, a woman is arrested for resisting the police when they try to remove her from her place of protest at a political event, and make her go to one of these free speech zones that have become so common in America as a way of keeping protesters’ activities away from the television coverage of politicians. 

This woman, not a liberal by the way (her issue is more tangible and less ideal), is also somewhat foul mouthed and unlikeable.   She is something like a waitress who lives in a trailer (or some such job and life).  She actually punches out the officer who tries to force her to move from the place where she is holding her sign.   All this as a set up for her to be able to say from the witness stand, with great passion and clarity: “I thought the whole country was a free speech zone!!!

In the final couple of seasons of The Practice, Kelley finally invents his most unusual character, the lawyer Alan Shore, played by James Spader (and winner so far of 3 Emmys for best leading actor in a dramatic series, as noted above).  This character is so significant a creation, that when The Practice ended as a series, the character became a member of the law firm in the successor series: Boston Legal (currently still on the air).

Shore is whimsical and seldom serious of demeanor (even in court).  He finds the ethical rules of the legal profession often at conflict with his own moral sensibilities (a classic Consciousness Soul question).  He is also flawed and troubled and a bit oversexed.  His office repartee with the female lawyers is frequently bawdy, but more clever than coarse.

Spader plays him with an out thrust lower jaw, and a posture that represents his aggressive willingness to say and do anything to make a point or win for a client.  If you get him as your lawyer, you are getting a thunderbolt inside a jar, who cracks jokes to show up legal hypocrisy.  If he needs to open it in court, out it comes, and judges, other lawyers, witnesses and juries beware.  At the same time, he is very very smart (or written that way, we should say).  He won’t get angry, but intense and pointed.  Since legal ethics doesn’t hold him down, he skirts the edges of those rules all the time, and when he can get away with it (usually out of sight) he ignores them.

[see, for example, the fictional speech Shore gives before the United States Supreme Court, that can be found on YouTube, at: ]

He is, oddly enough, an ethical individualist in training, who still lacks all the self knowledge that is possible, but is not unwilling to learn.  Kelley has also given him, in the actor (a ham getting to play a ham) William Shatner – what is essentially Shore’s Fallstaff – lawyer Denny Crane.  So we have the prince – Alan Shore, who can’t quite always figure out what the right thing to do is, and who can’t quite tame his own impulses in many instances, but who if you have him on your side, will die for you.  Then as a partner in crime and sometimes in weirdness unimagined, Denny Crane, outrageous in sexual behavior, loves a good drink, a good cigar, and a good gun (plays a parody of a conservative to Shore’s parody of a liberal).

The two fall in love.  Not sexual love, but the deep brotherly love of men for men which is seldom explored so openly in dramas, and certainly not so obviously as Kelley has these two do (they have sleepovers).  Shatner, by the way, wins an Emmy as well.

Having only one series on at this time, Kelley has both comedy and drama mixed together, and the usual collection of strange characters.  At least one legal issue in every episode is socially aware.  Nothing going on in the current political climate of America is ignored, and Shore (and other lawyers or characters) is often given remarkable speeches to make (during summation to the juries) in which the basic moral issues of war, politics and their social consequences are examined.  As well, the other side’s view is equally represented and cogently expressed.  The only problem lies with the fact that a lot of what constitutes politics today is based on lies and tricks, so it is hard to write something that makes these lies and tricks sound not quite like what they really are.

Part of what Kelley teaches us is that if politicians were forced to give their speeches in a court of law, where rules of proof and logical coherence were required and examined, most of what is said today would fail those obvious rational tests.  He is also, by the way, beginning to be fed up, for the amount of time devoted to commercials has expanded since he first began to write for television, and he has publicly stated that if this goes much further, he will not be able to write in such a restricted time environment.  I suspect he loves his characters too much to continual cut them down in order to abide by the rules of commerce.


So now we have examined four American personalities – four artists working in the youthful unpolished dawn of American Culture: Clint Eastwood, Neal Stephenson, Ursula K. Le Guin and David E. Kelley.  They all use the imagination with instinctive consciousness, and moral intention, and demonstrate for us precisely what Steiner had in mind when he said that Americans develop anthroposophy in a natural way.  Hopefully the reader will now begin to see that these are but the tip of an iceberg, and that if anthroposophical institutions in America do not begin to turn toward and study what is going on in American Culture, we will not discover the deeper truths of our own souls as Americans.

The Mystery of the Time of Climate Change

Meanwhile, over in Steiner’s Blind Spot: “Mother Letters” #1

The Joys of Living through the Dying and Becoming of “Western” Civilization, One Moment at a Time … a Symphony of …

On occasion, in internet backs and forths, I would play at trumping a Michael reference, with yes, Steiner reveals Michael, yet the difference between Steiner and me is that I work for Michael’s bosses.

Silly, yes. Cheeky, you bet. True? Who cares? Although there is, in anthroposophical practices (quoting lectures and so forth), a “confusion” which is to look at the plenty in reality, and believe the Mystery put all Their eggs in one basket. Mother knows best, … or so it is said. Hello … pagan anthroposophist (Platonist), calling sky people … look down too, not just up.

A couple of basic points: 1) don’t believe anything I write, its for inspiration. 2) Keep in mind the rule as above so blow – we are the microcosm, so what we learn about the Macrocosm (and vice versa) applies to the own true nature. RS had an interesting way of putting it. You will learn more about your inner world, from observing the outer world; and, learn more about the outer world, from studies of your inner world.

My body brother Joey, when he passed on to me his physical, astral, and ethereal bodies, also gave me three serious riddles. In my essay about him, , I suggest that when there is a walk-in, perhaps the walk-out is more crucial than we imagine.

He was an innocent empath. When he started school, the bullying in the school yard made no sense to him. It was like hitting yourself. The Riddle: What is the nature of evil? [ answer: “The Mystery of Evil in the Light of the Sermon on the Mount” ]

He was an avid reader by 11 (there was no internet, or television, just wonderful libraries, and the comics you could read while waiting for a haircut). Our mother gave him a subscription to the one hundred volume Landmark series of juvenile history books, on America. From this he wove a wonderfully romantic imagination of the meaning of America.

Then, when he was 15 (TV had finally come), and starting to think for himself, there was a presidential election. When he read the words of the candidates, or watched them speak, he became worn of heart. These politicians did not feel right. In the tones of their voices he felt the false promises, and in the words spoken, no wisdom

The second Riddle: What has happened to America? [ answer: many books and essays ( ) – this next link was written for the Society, submitted to the Newsletter, and not only not published, it was never even acknowledge to have been received: “Waking the Sleeping Giant: the mission of Anthroposophy in America”

When he left the Air Force Academy, to marry our first wife, and to finish his BA at the University of Denver, he took a pre-seminary course, which allowed him to take some courses at the Iliff School of Theology, whose campus was adjacent to U. of D.

An arid intellectual course in the New Testament, diving deep into such “science”, taught that the writers of the Gospels were not what he had been told in Sunday School. His relationship with Christianity was deep, and mystical. Trusting their claims to be scientific, he become then, consciously, an agnostic.

That Riddle: What happen to the Christian Mysteries? [ answer: lack of practice: “pragmatic moral psychology” and: “Saving the Catholic Religion from the failing institutional Church – through deepening our understanding of the Third Fatima Prophecy”

It is a comfortable reality, that the organization – the A. Society – is not necessary to the health of the world. Anthroposophia has no need for this failing and static social form. Think about this … we are free – as an organization – from having to save the world (We certainly did not have our stuff together, when ?C*o*v*i*d? hit, even though RS had predicted a coming medical tyranny). Still, we members and friends – individually – are the true guardians of a remarkable treasure, not just in the works of RS, but in all that has been and being done through his inspiration.

We – anthroposophist’s – interact via a social form already dying, … a no longer necessary top down structure. If you are familiar with the term “antifragile: things that gain from disorder”, that’s a help.

Many have heard of the idea, that our fifth post Atlantean epoch has a relationship with the Third. At that ancient time, the mysteries were ordered from the top down. In our age hierarchical structures are failing, and the mysteries are coming in from the bottom up. The individual has become their own source.

Steiner urged that there appear a Michaelic Festival in the Autumn. We acknowledge that, with Festivals at Waldorf Schools, and Branch meetings. Meanwhile, Michael also helped the coming into being – in / via America – of the Bioneers work (“revolution from the heart of nature”), which has an annual Autumn gathering, often broadcast via satellite all over the world.

Bioneers – pioneers in the age of biology. The predicted millions RS thought would come to Anthroposophia have already arrived here, in the Environmental Movement – which essentially honors the Planet as a living Being. The A. Society’s leadership karma, notwithstanding.

A center of the Bioneers activities is aboriginal and indigenous cultures. When was the last time an A. Society gathering experienced the drumming and the dancing, that symbolizes our connection to the Earth Mother. We do not have to do it, but to experience the act, the art of it, the feeling and power of it – a timeless ceremony of community.

I heard a story that when the workers at the original Goetheanum saw folk gliding in groups trailing colorful cloths, “dancing” lightly over the landscapes in Dornach, … these plain people called “us”, the “the masters”, no doubt a common, even archaic term, which in England might have been expressed by: “our betters”.

Among the gathering of workers, were gypsies. Fortune tellers. Tinkers. Rough hands with physical prowess in stone and wood. The last remnants of a mostly European earth religion. The lectures to the workers, based on their curiosities, are remarkable, and down to earth. Bees anyone?

In my book, American Anthroposophy, near the beginning was an effort to gather into one place as many as possible of Steiner’s remarks about America … below are a few of them … all given to workers in the same lecture …

Europeans prove, Americans affirm” R.S. lecture to workmen 3 March 1923.

When the sun is in Aquarius: “only then will the true American Civilization come.” (same lecture).

We in Europe develop Anthroposophy out of the Spirit. Over there they develop something that is a kind of wooden doll of Anthroposophy. Everything becomes materialistic.” (same lecture)

But for one who is not a fanatic, there is something similar in American culture to what is anthroposophical spiritual science in Europe. Only everything there is wooden, it is not yet alive. We can make it alive in Europe out of the spirit, those over there take it out of instinct…” (same lecture)

The time will one day come when this American woodenman, which actually everyone is still – when he begins to speak. Then he will have something to say very similar to European Anthroposophy. One can say that we in Europe develop Anthroposophy in a spiritual way; the American develops it in a natural way.”

The American is a young materialist…So too will the American’s blatant materialism sprout a spiritual element.” (when the Sun rises in the sign of Aquarius). (same lecture)

As near as I can tell, these words were meant to point to the foreign peoples that have come to live in this land, particularly in the U. S. of A. The indigenous peoples living here were not on his spiritual radar … and one could hardly call their Ways of Living with the Spirits of Earth and Sky – wooden.

As to the immigrants … we raped the Land, and killed Its stewards by the millions.

As to “wooden”, … I have given some thought to this, for he could have used a different metaphor, something more mineral, … crystallized perhaps. Wood (an element in Chinese culture) actually is the core of the symbol of the Tree, a most ancient metaphor … the Tree of Life, to redeem the follies of the Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil, … when we strive for communion-with, rather than for dominion over.

We seem to be headed back to the Garden for one last try, … the culture of Good and Evil having worn out its usefulness. Rome did not expire in a day, and the modern empire builders think the Goddess Natura does not exist. Oops!

The Drama of the Consciousness Soul needs a world of great conflict, in order for each Holy Biography to receive the individualized gift of the challenge to manifest, out of the own heart’s mind, the good and the true.

Spirit life from a magical uprising, while the top-down fails and falls. In the spiritual deeps of the Earth, each human biography a tree, with deep roots, and a yearning to swim in the oceans of the air. Every breath a prayer. Each word we think or speak, a leaf, … which cannot Be without the dark soil of connectedness, where roots talk to other roots through a riot of mycelium – a physical manifestation of the world of thoughts.

She thought in me too, not just He. Think on your knees, said Tomberg. RS: It thinks in me. There are, from a certain point of view, Eight Gates to Faerie and the Lands of the Fae, … by the way, include your own unseen human spirit among the Fae. Where do you go when you sleep?

In looking for the number relations between / among otherwise discrete qualities, not quantities: A few of my several page collection: Qualitative Number Mysteries* (many from RS):

The Generation of Fours …

There are Eight Gates to Faerie, which come in four pairs; East, waking and sleeping; South, living and dying; West, sanity and madness; North, remembering and forgetting. The gap / connection between one state, and its harmonic pair, is the threshold.

Four Elements, some details: fire / will; air / intellect; water / feeling; earth / consciousness. wands/fire/clubs/Emanation; swords/air/spades/Creation; cups/water/hearts/Formation; pentacles/earth/diamonds/Existence.

“Tetragrammaton”, the sacred unspoken name of God: Jod-He-Vau-He, … such that all cases involve a process of the unification and metamorphosis of the first three principles, such as will, intellect, and feeling – these are woven into a unity: consciousness.

And last, but in no way least: Four essential epistemological questions: 1) Do you know everything? 2) Is what you don’t know far greater than what you believe you know? 3) If you took something from the arena of what you don’t know, and added it to what you believe you know, could that change what you believe you know? 4) Are you willing to learn?


Who are you, dear reader? What are you? Why did Steiner say the human being was the religion of the Gods? Because, when Christ left the Sun, for the passage through the gates of birth and death, the hierarchies had to look earthward for their leader. The individual human being is an aspect of Distributed Divinity. We have choices. Our heart’s mind is the sword of He who will not bring peace.

They (She who holds the whole world in His Hands) leave to us that which is within the reach of our own wills. This is meant to instruct as well. Our life events often have one or more (not in any necessary order) of the Seven Stages of the Passion of Christ: Washing the Feet; the Scourging; the Crowning with Thorns; the Carrying the Cross; the Crucifixion; the Entombment; and the Resurrection.

There is a long discussion of these seven trials all share, in my article: “Cowboy Bebop – and the Physics of Thought as Moral Art”

All the apparent social chaos in the world is a noisy secondary effect for us to face these trials in matter, according to specific and individual needs.

Time unfolds like a flower of Nows. Tomorrow never comes. “There is no Fate, but what we make.” Each node of consciousness has true agency. RS recognized the patterns, and warned of dangers ahead. None of those warnings are certain to happen. The Hopi call this age: The Day of Purification, and John the Baptist warns: the One coming after me will Baptize you in Fire and Holy Breath.

Outside my study’s window (nine feet wide, and four feet tall) a Forest teaches me. I often do not get the lesson.

RS taught something on the order of holding a pencil in your hand and imagine its history, the becoming it traveled, the human hands that shaped it, and the mind that conceived it.

Consciousness is everywhere, there being only One Mind. The unnatural science of materialism barely allows the human being sentient agency. Scientific materialism is the main cause of the recent plague.

One day I was sitting in my chair, thinking about the forest, and noticing all the wooden objects in my room, and experienced the energy of the processes that go from seed to tree to wood to art. My house has a wooden skeleton. Objects, once mineral, run through wires and ducts, moving warmth and water where needed.

Every object born in thought, yet never disconnected from the whole. Except us. Worth repeating: the human being’s freedom is the Beast from the Abyss of the uncreated and yet to be formed.

For some folk, spiritual experiences appear in madness. The seemingly broken minds we see walking down the street, talking to the air … their experiences across the threshold real. A depressed person is losing a battle with their internal nag (ahrimanic double). The addict faces Loki.

To father, is to generate. To mother, is to nurture that which is generated. The human being becoming … choices, some in dark places, having to make these choices alone … this gives rise to internal conflict. Sanity is to make a choice, and then go on to the next screen { }

Our co-existence with Cosmic Beings could not be more intimate. The idea, in high energy physics of the “field”, is a beginning. Recall that magnets, in the right alignment, either repel or attract via an invisible field.

We have terms, such as Father, Son, and Holy Ghost, that some believe to be true. The Mystery sometimes expresses Itself in different aspects, or faces, yet never loses the quality of Unity. Tomberg describes two trinities, in the form of two triangles, one pointed up, the other pointed down … a hexagram, also known as: the Seal of Solomon.

The upper point is the Father, while the lower point is the Mother. The horizontal line of the Father’s triangle is Son and Holy Spirit. The horizontal line of the Mother’s triangle is Daughter and Holy Soul. The horizontal line of Son and Holy

Spirit is below the horizontal line of Daughter and Holy Soul.

When we feel breath, we Know the Son, and the whole world is united by this field of Life and the Light. Aka: Levity – the truth behind the phenomena of dark matter and dark energy. The polar field to Levity is Gravity, and when we surrender into sleep or death, we are caught by Her. Again, … all billions of the human beings live within these “fields” of Cosmic Being(s) (the actual Unified Theory). There is a third field, which high energy physics calls electromagnetism. This Father at Rest, yet not asleep, Who gives to matter order, or what we think of as the laws of nature.

“It matters to me, for Matter to be, and that I to Matter do matter.” There are no things. The laptop I write at is a locus of amazing acts of intellect and imagination. Its material manifestation is the presence of elemental beings

“Are we having fun yet?” “The Lord of the Dance”