Evil …

Hymns to the Holy Mother

Evil …

The logic of “evil” is odd. Evil requires, for meaning at the conceptual level, Good. Each is married to the “other”. The next level of odd, has to do with the truth, which is that not only are Good&Evil married, that marriage is an embodied reflection of aspects of the Divine Mystery Itself.

In my book “The Art of God: an actual theory of Everything”, I write there, as part of the modern conception of God, the idea that observable reality reveals God is distributed, with the same virtues we notice in distributed computing. Keep in mind that distributed computing is useful both to solve certain mathematical/scientific questions requiring a lot of processing power, and it is also a fertile field for “bots” running/dancing to the selfish songs born in black-hat hacking.

If we are a sensible person, we also see how in life individuals make decisions, which decisions effect other folks as well. These “choices” (whether between good&evil, or some other duality) effect the world. We author the choice, and as an aspect of that it is the distributed god&devilwithin us, that chooses.

A sane understanding of Goethean science would cause folk to realize that spirit is everywhere right next to matter. Another married duality. Angels&demons. Men&women.

If we look within, at our feelings, that the properly chastised L. Ron Hubbard misnamed “the reactive mind”, we find another married duality, generally labeled: sympathy&antipathy. Here – in these feelings – is a tendency to move toward what we like, and away from what we do not like. This reactive feeling life, with its dual nature, has deep roots. In a certain Way, these feelings are “intelligence”, even if later we cannot articulate “reasons” for why we did what we did.

Rudolf Steiner described his view of the macrocosmic reality as containing another duality, which he named: Lucifer&Ahriman. The logos (logical) nature of such married dualities is that they are also united, and always a whole. There is no meaning if they are conceived as separate. Steiner taught that Christ was in between these two, and that Life was about our learning how to personally maintain the right relationship among polar conditions – we are the In Between that balances.

The use of the word Christ involves us with a more pressing problem, as regards the religious history of the world. To resolve this means first off to see the rise of the three patriarchal monotheisms as a reflection in the “earth” sphere of macrocosmic qualities – the Divine Mystery is not just Christ, but Allah and Jehovah simultaneously. All duality is in reality a trinity.

There is a social/spiritual set of observations called “Theory U”. It finds that if there is a descent, then there is also an ascent, again a duality. In the case of the Hebrews – who guided the spiritual descent into matter – they became people of the law. Very strict rules, which according to Steiner made possible the creation of a quite definite strain of genetic inheritance. Some work&order was necessary for there to be an avatar body, in which a God might be able to live for a time.

Rules and obedience. The Hebraic Divinity appears in multiple ways, including phenomena like burning bushes, pillars of cloud, and seas that obey the prayers of wizards. The old Testament is filled with dreamers dreaming, and poet-kings singing. Remnants of the goddess religions being slowly subsumed, as the three anti-feminine patriarchal monotheism began the work of imprinting themselves on the world.

Descent needed to followed by ascent. The earth-impression of the Divine Mystery is complex, and while on the one hand both the Hebrew – and already being born Christian religions – there also needed to be a balancing upward movement. Earth and Heaven being woven together, with the last “people of the book” – Islam, being deeply connected to the Mother, to the social heart – the family, and to the Idea of Surrender. We forget history’s song, when we judge Islam and do not recognize that during Europe’s dark age, Islam flowered with genius everywhere.

All three are being destroyed from within, through the advocates of my way or the highway, a common human foible that insures that social forms evolve. Another repetition of the primary marriage of polar states of consciousness.

Part of the current world situation is made especially acute, due to the fact that we feel we are a separate self, over here, while there is an outside/experienced world that is not us. Another duality, that is fundamentally a trinity, which totality itself is a unity, a marriage not in name only. No wonder Christ urges us to cleave to each other, and become again as little children.

Every human being is their own Path. Be yourself; and, I hope the above meditation on “Evil …” has been useful.

for a much longer contemplation: “The Mystery of Evil in the Light of the Sermon on the Mount”

Death & Dying

Death & Dying

Easter is a couple of weeks away. Personally, I am in just the right group to possibly die from COVID-19. Age 79. Multiply encounters with death due to cardiovascular “issues”. Died twice in one day in 2007, and spent a few moments in January of 2019 wondering-with the Holy Mother about whether I should cross over. Under the barely excusable treatments out of industrial medicine, I was ready to give up. Hospitals are not good places in which to be dying. When dead, well the suffering is over, but on the Way to being dead, our present day rites of dying may need more spiritual arts.

A lot of folks are taught, and many actually believe, there is a life after death – an afterlife. Imagine, for example, a nation – say Italy – where most folks are Catholics. When you get old – and I speak from experience here – life is both precious and: “maybe I’ve had enough.”

There’s an old joke about an elderly patient whose doctor advised him that if he just quit smoking and drinking, he could live another ten years. He turned to his doctor and replies: “Why would I want to live ten more years, if I couldn’t smoke and drink?”

For the “elderly” some of our most important pleasures are minor bad habits. “Oh, you could die, sez the nearest ill-informed mothering person.” Well, death is certain, and while I am dying the very least I ought to be able to do is live.

So, I think a lot about death these days, given the reality that whatever the outcome, I will encounter this “virus” – which seems to be everywhere. Encounter, and perhaps defeat. The fact is a lot of folk will not get “infected”. Some will get exposed, but their immune system is just fine thank you, in large part from enjoying life. Most folk stop following their mother’s advice as soon as possible, and live to a ripe old age.

It is not that the elderly get tired of life, so much as they get tired of being bothered. Have a glass of wine, and go outside for a smoke and a nap is often a desirable way to pass the time. Such simple domestic routines are often the reason older folk get out of bed in the morning.

Having to go to the hospital is signing up for the torture of being constantly bothered by folk whose duty seems to keep you alive whether you really want that or not.

There is wonderful saying: “The best six doctors anywhere, and no one can deny it. Are sunshine, water, rest and air, exercise and diet. These will gladly you attend, if you are only willing. Your mind they’ll ease, your will they’ll mend, and charge you not a shilling.”

If you are old and seem to have this flu, into the hospital you are supposed to go, and the nanny state will have its way, mostly so the politicians can appear to be “doing something”. And the doctors. And the epidemiologists. Modern Western Culture spends more time trying to fix the blame, than it does trying to fix the problem.

The more we abusively bother our dying elderly, with taking vitals, and drawing blood, and making them sleep in the same rooms with noisy others, out of the sun light and the fresh air, and their favorite pleasure, … many just say: “fuck it”, and let go their hold on life. Did the virus kill them, or did our ill conceived Way of Care kill them?

In either case, She catches us all at the Gate of Death, welcomes us home for a break, and treats us with amazing kindness at the same time.

Each moment of life is precious, all the more so near the inevitable end. Live each day as if it was your last, it just might be.

A World on the Verge of Total Chaos … yet, Why?

A World on the Verge of Total Chaos … yet, Why?

The conspiracy theorists see the hands of the dark state. Most everyone is at risk, however. The rich and the powerful are unlikely to avoid exposure in a “pandemic”.

We can have a lot of guesses and what ifs. For example, many might have one or another version of this wish: The effect will be that the Republicans in America will lose, through death, their strangle holds on the Senate, and the Supreme Court. We get a new president, who gets to appoint new justices, and Moscow Mitch can’t stop them.

Trump will be gone. The attorney general will be different. Government might get back to governing.

Banksters might be decimated, and the whole money system will be up for a serious change.

We might be poorer, some near starving, but more together/friendly/supportive – the rain falling on the just and the unjust.

Catherine MacCoun’s “On Becoming an Alchemist: a guide for the modern magician” has a fascinating discussion of the past becoming the future. This “gospel of the soul” is from someone who managed to combine Christian and Tibetan Alchemy, or so she alleges. Having read the book more than once, I can attest – at least – that it makes you think, provides good advice, and teaches a whole lot of wisdom.

In her experience, the present reveals “how” we got where we are, but the “why” of it requires the experience of the future. Reality is full of surprise. Sometimes dangerous. Most folks did not expect Trump to “win”, and while some (Bill Gates and others) anticipated a likely pandemic, few could say when.

In a sense the social becomes pregnant, and we can see the “symptoms” but not the nature of the “baby”.

I’m with the group of social observers who could tell a “collapse” was coming (signs of “pregnancy”). Many who noticed are artists, being more sensitive to human feelings, than to abstract political or economic “factors”.

If we consider the more “spiritual dimensions”, we might get caught up in such ideas as karma and reincarnation, end times eschatology, and my favorite – the evolution of consciousness.

Many live lives of quiet desperation, as HDT puts it. Life is suffering is the first of the Four Noble truths of the Buddha. What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger; what goes around comes around; and, the Divine Mystery never puts on your plate something you can’t handle.

Scientific materialism sees the human being as an animal, born of random accidents, in a cosmos that does not care for them at all. Among the ideas that this Way of thinking-in-parts has put forward is that the nature of human consciousness has been the same, since whenever … the minds of such as the Sumerians, of the ancient Egyptians, or the Greeks and Romans, were all the same.

Turns out not to be true. Rudolf Steiner pointed in the general direction, and gave names to the related cycles of the evolution of consciousness, such as: the sentient soul, the intellectual soul, and the consciousness soul, which changes follow a rhythm related to the stars. Owen Barfield masters the details of the changes in many languages over time, to then reveal evidence of this evolution of consciousness change – including remarkable and surprising details. See Barfield’s gospel of the imagination, “Poetic Diction”, for an encounter with wonder.

Another inspired by Steiner, Ernst Lehrs, in his gospel of physics: “Man or Matter”, also unfolds evidence of this evolution in the history and development of the science of physics itself. Same with Gottfried Richter’s “Art and Human Consciousness”.

This evolution of consciousness is a kind of inner substrata of the role of human activity on civilization. The outer world has to reflect&support the changing realities of the inner world. The “why’s” of certain kinds of social change have a great deal to do with these transformations.

Of crucial importance is to recognize, that the cultural nature of modern times is deeply connected to our spiritual need for those experiences (in the school of hard knocks and shared pain). In our “moment”, the human being is living biographies in which there come to exist what might be called: sequences of moral crisis”. We are meant to be able to be morally free, and unbound by tradition or opinion.

One of the ways to appreciate this is to notice that each moral/dilemma/trial is unique in its details. Not every abortion or murder arises in the same contexts, both internally and externally.

Humanity had been a path of technological achievement and apparent control of the living environment. “Dominion-over” Nature was even Old Testament biblical. Was. We now enter a phase of “communion-with”. Each other, the plants in the garden, the phases of the weather, the moon and the stars.

To make that possible, scientific materialism (all is matter, there is no spirit) has to be deconstructed. In a similar manner, the horrible idea of social Darwinism also needs to be replaced. The needed cultural changes require time, and opportunity.

As Western Civilization continues to die into a new becoming, so does the individual psyche. Moral development means having opportunities to choose, as individuals. Choices have consequences. Choices also need to arise from the unexpected. Can’t plan for those kinds of existential moments, because in many cases who we are now would choose to avoid these trials of trans-formative experiences.

Or, maybe not. If reincarnation and karma are true, and if what such seers as Steiner tell us is also factual, there exists a Midnight Hour, where the decision is made, by ourselves yet in the company of the Artist (Lord) of Karma, when and why to go downward again into matter.

All of us volunteered to be here. For our present day consciousness, we know “how” we got to where we are in this life … the biography tells a tale. The “why”, however, … is another matter, lurking as it is in the chaos that seems to lie just ahead.

The Son has returned in the spiritual world of thoughts and thinking. The Mother is on the verge of being noticed and adored once more. The Father holds the pieces together so that they don’t fly apart, while under stresses profound, yet amusing.

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The Magic of Breathing, as a Possible Aide for an Individual with the “Flu”.

The Magic of Breathing, as a Possible Aide for an Individual with the “Flu”.

The Hermetic Science of the ancient Egyptians was also called “magic”. Up until the Incarnation of Love – 2000 years ago – magic was the greatest source of “power” in the world. Then He came, and a far far greater power was available. This did not change the effects of this magic-science, so much as change the nature of the human being, who was from then on traveling the road/path to becoming a self-activated representative of the Divine Mystery themselves.

Valentin Tomberg, in his Meditation on the Eleventh Arcanum of the Tarot, aka Force or Strength (the symbol of that aspect of reality shows a woman apparently holding open the jaws of a lion), pointed out that this force is two-fold, a more heavenly aspect: Zoe, and a more earthly aspect: Bios.

Zoe could also be seen as transcendent elemental fire (electricity of a sorts), which is known of in the Emerald Tablet, as that which “penetrates”, and is more generally connected to the Presence – in Every aspect of the Creation – of the Holy Mother. Bios – terrestrial electricity – is structural, kind of a set of laws that are part of the human being’s true nature.

This has very little to do with the electricity that powers modern civilization. Transcendent elemental Fire is the will of higher beings. Terrestrial elemental fire is the unfree will of the elemental kingdoms. This Bios then is dominated by order (the Father), while the transcendental elemental fire is the free will connected to the primeval Chaos, which is born in the uncreated and yet-to-be-formed imaginations – inspirations – and intuitions of the Mother.

Some magic systems call this the Akasha, and we ourselves contain/are this aspect of reality instinctively in our ability to “choose” – to be free to originate course changes in our lives. From this primeval Chaos then descends the elemental aspects of: Fire/Will; Air/Intellect; Water/Feeling; and, Earth/Consciousness.

What we call “electricity” is the near absolute order of matter, its cohesive nature, due to the presence of the Father at rest, after His labors in the Creation. We now take this primeval elemental order, and via actual magic operations (a tale for another day) separate from the material, this fiery-will-at-rest, and use/abuse it in ignorance of its true nature.

To do this we have to “kill” the material order, present by/via/from the existence of the elemental kingdoms, whose four primary names are salamanders, sylphs, undines, and gnomes. We apply death forces to matter, kill its living nature, and make out of the now lifeless pieces our technological world.

At the same time, the Mother/Maternal aspect is part of Everything, when enables the unfree Elementals to maintain a “consciousness” connection to the whole. They are in-communion-with the Whole. There is no material stuff that is not filled with the conscious presence of Immortals.

Take material water, for example. It is made whole, and we apply death forces (electrical or chemical) to water, which then dies into a corpse made up of hydrogen and oxygen, the number relationship merely a kind of divine musical notation. At the same time, when we divide the water into parts out of which it was not created, we fail to take account of the light and heat that is also liberated from the material water. This means that elemental water (created in the atmosphere, by the way) is made up of its own four-fold nature, the more material aspects being the “gasses”, and the spiritual aspects being the light and warmth.

What does this jibber-jabber have to do with the flu? In as few words as possible then …

First, realize that consciousness is everywhere, although the corpses of our assaults on the material world are lifeless and inert, they still are/exist. Nature, as we know, takes stuff apart and re-purposes it all the time. The debris/mess of our experiments is up to us to clean up. To do that we need to form an intimate relationship with the elemental kingdom, and illness is a means by which we can be further initiated in the mysteries of our own nature. Life (between birth and death) is a kind of a school of hard knocks and shared pain, which being shared makes it possible for us to develop sympathy into empathy.

Breathing is an aspect of the middle of the threefold form organism of a material body. Along with the heart, the lungs mediate between the fire principle in the metabolic limb system, and the air principle in the nerve-sense organization. We feel there – the water principle. Thinking, Feeling, and Willing, in anthro-speak. The fourth principle – Earth/Consciousness – is the unity of the other three.

Flu is an inflammatory process, given the arising of fever. It is an instinctive uptick in the unconscious to us forces of the own will, or warmth (fire) body. The flu makes us need water, rest, and the odd social effect of needing to be alone when sick, and needing company when sick. Anthro-doctors tend to point out that a fever is a process which generally induces further incarnation, and over the courses of our lives we may notice this change via “illness” (forced water, and rest).

The mind~!~spirit (akasha) in this state of fever is dreamy to the point of out of body dreamy, and at the same time a participant. In bed we still make choices.

Here are some of the fundamental rules of life known to the science of magic: The Mystery of Breathing; the Conscious reception of food; and, the magic of water. All matter, which has consciousness via its elemental-being nature, can be (and is) influenced by our own “thought” life, where those elemental folk, and our existence, occupy the same space&time.

We only experience separation from the rest of the world as a kind of enchantment. This modern illusion was necessary, and has its own story. In any event it might be helpful, during illness, to contemplate the services offered by the elemental kingdoms. To ride the fever (even mild, or just being tired and otherwise under “stress” – increase taking naps) as a kind of surrender, can include the idea that we live in, are surrounded by, and our body is made up of elemental beings.

Our thoughts can be connected to these fundamental processes of breathing, food consumption, and the fact that we are – physically – watery. Meanwhile our consciousness – our akasha – is needing to participate.

Thus the magic of learning how, through conscious pore-breathing, to influence the course of the illness by the activity of cognition itself.

Before you are ill, rise in the morning and first thing brush the whole body with something soft, like a two inch wide camel hair paint brush. During the night, the pores have closed (mostly) and the processes – such as purification of substances that normally go on in the three layers of the skin – are shifted from the skin to the kidneys. The brushing may encourage urination.

Follow the brushing by washing with a damp clothe all over the skin. The night has left bits of matter on the skin, and it helps the skin to be freed from this debris. Yes, cold, but after washing take a not too soft towel and rub it everywhere. The cold wash has also drawn the blood to the skin organ, tickled awake the nerves, and this bodily awakening is all aided by this process of brushing, washing, drying.

Now lie down or sit in a comfortable posture. When sick we are already lying down, but if we have practiced before the illness/fever we have learned to do the conscious pore breathing of the light. Anthro-speak refers to this as the ethereal or life body, this “light”. {In It (the Word) was Life, and the Life was the Light of the world.}

While breathing, regularly – not forced at all, surrendering to the instinctive connection between the breath and the Life we feel there, use the own light-making power, the imagination, to imagine the light streaming in and out of the pores. We rest, we breathe, the skin is very awake, and we let our consciousness rest in those feelings, enhanced by our imagination/concentration-without-effort.

Play. While the mind rests&surrenders it can go to other places as play.

Our whole body participates, not just the intellectual mind. Over time, and it is only necessary to practice for a few minutes daily, our consciousness becomes more aware of its totality. Sure, the left toe itches, the bum and tummy ache, the eyes hurt – that’s elemental earth-consciousness.

If an apparent part, via “pain” (increased consciousness) draws the mind’s attention, attend to that part. Feel it. Let the light be breathed in and out of it, in harmony with the natural – surrendered to – rhythm.

Now add to this feeling-presence a specific thought/wish. Imagine the light/life being breathed in from the everywhere to our node of consciousness, having an intended quality, which we – as akasha – determine.

Any thought will do. In a like way we can add thought-forms to food before we ingest it, and to water whenever we apply or use it. Our freedom lets us choose any thought-form, which we have also created via the conceptualization potential of our akasha to act on the world of ideas, the ethereal world.

Personally I find that it is has been best to keep it (the wish, the meaning) simple. So I breathe in Life, and breathe out illness. The imagination is aided here by picturing the in-breathing as happening in the whole field of bodily consciousness, unless we want to focus on a particular locus of pain, or some other bodily “part” these energies.

In breathing out, I imagine this taking place in the elimination organs of the body. The skin breaths in the life and light, and some material aspects of the illness no longer belong, and the body itself knows what to do. In life, out disease, is then a means/prayer to act deeper into the course of illness … not in a heavy handed way, but a dreaming/spiritual way. Our will goes with and guides the life to where it is needed.

Yes, illness can weaken the will. In an acute case, the helpers can do the brushing, washing, and drying, and via being read to, or listening to music or natural nature sounds, the consciousness of the bodily ill individual can/will instinctively create the thoughts to be layered into the substances of air, water and solid foods. It doesn’t hurt to related this to a kind of regular Eucharist, without getting hung up on theological foolishness. Remember, the ill person is an aspect of the divine mystery as are all which has existence.

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The Age of the COVID-19 Madness

The Age of the COVID-19 Madness

If we have faith, we should not let this Madness interfere. If we do not have faith, there will be no understanding. COVID-19’s effect on the world is only being seen for its dangers, not its potentials. The Mystery sent an envoy, John the Baptist, whose contribution was this: the One coming after me will baptize you in fire and holy breath.

This is the Meaning of this time. All individual biographies are being “baptized” in this fashion. All.

Scientific materialism (all is matter, there is no spirit) is a false religion. In fact, human existence on this Planet has gone through more than one “change” of civilizations. Each development – the becoming and the dying of a civilization – was organic (living) in its fundamental nature. The meaning-story of each civilization has to do with the changes in the invisible aspects of the human being. The COVID-19 scare has to do with what happens in each that is spiritual in nature.

The body can get ill and die, but the immortal spirit does not. For an individual spirit to have lived through this modern materialistic confusion provides learning experiences, unique to each. Everyone’s story/meaning is actually up to them. We know we demand freedom. The most precious freedom is in the own mind~!~spirit … we take hold of the flooding-waters of this event, and ride it where it takes us. Each stream is different, and all are ships passing in the night.

True faith, which is trust (not a belief system) in the Mystery, is being challenged in such a way that the trial/rite of passage makes this “freedom of meaning” question acute. The novel 1984 is an artistic contemplation on the embryonic attempts at thought control that already existed when Orwell wrote it. Where does this lead, this need of the State to control our minds?

Why was China so vulnerable? Evil genetic experiment? Uptick in atmospheric electrification (5G)?


It was the extreme effort at thought control, being exercised on the people, whose true nature is being thereby invaded. Taking away my freedom to define my personal meaning makes me ill. It is an attack on my personal consciousness, seeking to place that in the chains of a hyper vigilant security apparatus.

Not just thought control was sought, but as well an attack on the feeling life – the heart’s mind as it were. CTV vision, aided by face-recognition software, that evaluated the degree of emotional expression, in an environment where the “wrong” facial expression would draw the attention of the “watchers”.

This emotional-stress, which is a spiritual fact that scientific materialism often ignores in looking for the causes of “pandemics”, … this type of stress was in the deep background of the 1918 flu epidemic. World War One, anyone?

“I am not a number” said #6, on the TV show: The Prisoner – back in the ‘60’s. Yet, in America, those seeking to keep political control have been given access to data points on each individual’s most intimate lives. Did your significant other just order a sex toy on Amazon? What books do you read?

So America gets this trickster spirit in its highest office, which is Mother’s way of taking a joker out of the deck and playing it at just the right moment. Purposeful? Trump’s being in office was due to a very small number of voters, in just a few states. His election was a stroke of fortune, and who do you think has an in on the creative dynamics of Fate and Fortune? What G. Washington called: Divine Providence, and most of us today “the Universe”, is the Mother’s contribution to the arts of the Mystery, such that our lives – all our lives – endure the unexpected lessons She, who has the whole world in His Hands, laid out in our path.

There are no accidents, although many surprises.

So the children are destroying the life sphere of the Planet. We, who are prisoners of scientific materialism, then begin to believe we are killing the Planet. Sorry, … She can no more be killed – made to no longer exist – than we can suffer such a fate. Bodies die, people do not.

The trip and fall of the influence of Western Civilization on this Age is dramatic. Huge. Science needs art and religion, if the intellect wishes to actually grasp the meaning of this COVID-19 scare. An aspect of this meaning is that the scare also effects politicians, who in trying to save their own assess over-react. Meanwhile, modern medicine, without a spiritual knowledge of its inner arts and crafts, flails about like a Mad Hatter at a tea party, who can’t stop filling the tea cup of human experience with fear.

The medical model of “pandemics” is warped by false conceptions. At the same time, one way to clean the house of this thought-debris is to slow down modern life to a crawl, which then allows for deeper reflection on the meaning element. This is the grace for the future of humanity. Time to pause, and take a deep breath, while having to live a way of life amidst scarcities.

Back to basics. Including – if we are wise – the need for celebration, daily. Industrial civilization is a dead end for the human being. If you want to plan for the long haul, take up a crew/tribe/pack of friends, and reintegrate yourselves with nature. Figure out how to farm and to live in the wild – once more. Our bodies will love it.


the Descent into Shadow

the Descent into Shadow

– another metastory –

The grandfathers waited. So did the grandmothers, and the fathers and mothers, and the young men and women, and the children – the little boys and the little girls. They all waited.

Then Teller-of-stories began to speak…“Now we can follow in thought how it is that the Death, and the Resurrection, of Modern Civilization, the change from Winter into Spring, comes to rest in each of us as individuals. 

“It is a doorway of sorts, although sometimes a maze and a labyrinth.  Its passage is not managed easily, and our encounter with this dark realm is one reason the Hopi Indians of Americas Southwest speak of this Age – this time of Strange Fire, as the Day of Purification.  Life is forcing us into dark places, both within and without, and challenging us to reach inside and transform ourselves – to purify.

“The fact is that we are, as individualities – or as some call it I-ams – unfinished.  The Mystery has given us much, the very best possible start by the way.  But the Mystery has also given us a challenge, and left us incomplete in such a way, that we only become what we choose to become.  What we become is also our choice, in much the same way that the moral is our choice.

“In this transition from Winter into Spring, we only go so far.  There will be other opportunities to change and grow.  The Mystery does not compell us to become all that we could in just one lifetime.   Our tasks are simple, and always right in front of us.  But in the Descent into Shadow we go as deep as is possible for most in this time – for in this Descent, which is an inward descent, a fall into our deepest natures, we come face to face with the Dark Within, the Shadow.

“Each of us has a dark aspect, something which is really not our I-am, but which is something other – a company of companions.  Just as how it is that without dark, from light alone there could be no color, so it is with human beings – our inner light is buoyed up by darkness, so that the soul is full of color, which we see everywhere around us in the beautiful complexity of human nature everywhere.  We are not saints, nor are we purely sinners.

“But the blessing of the Mystery is that this darkness is not our essential nature.  Our I-am, or spirit, is only of the Light.  Yet, in order for us to grow, to become, we have to experience earth existence – we have to be within matter so as to learn by struggle and effort.  If we just rest in our given light nature, we cannot change, but will ever be the same.

“Some, of course, would like this – would prefer to be of the given light alone and never exert themselves to change.  These will end up just childish beings supported by a loving god, but never mature into the true child-like nature that learns and grows and changes out of is own choices and spontaneous wisdom and insight – having discovered how to stand on its own.  Others, will refuse the light, even though they were born with it.  They will instead seek to be like the dark, and this too will be easy for all that is necessary is we abandon our humanity, with its moral and spiritual aspirations, and live only in our animal natures – creatures of instinct, of mere appetite and passion.

“What choices the Mystery offers are quite real.  We can rest, remain fixed in the given, which in Christian iconography is the choice of Lucifer – that is one choice.  Another is to abandon our humanity all together, and surrender to appetite and earthly delights, which is in ancient Persian mythology, the choice of Ahriman, the Dark God who opposed Ahura Mazdo, the God of Light.

“Or we can choose the middle way and find the courage to face the trials offered us in this time of purification.  We don’t, by the way, have to go looking to find these trials.  They find us.  Our biography puts right before us just what we have to face.  No one need go to the mountain top to meet the guru in order to obtain to wisdom.

“There are really two main “books” we need to learn to read: the book of life and the book of the own soul.  The Mystery cares for us far more accurately than we imagine, with the result that our biographies contain exactly those lessons most needing to be faced.

“How do we know this?  We know this because it is precisely our immediate life from which we so much want to turn away.  Our job may be boring, or our partner seems to hard to live with.  Or the children too difficult, or the parents to intrusive.  Everywhere we look are experiences that call to us to meet their challenge and learn.  Not only that, but these challenges have a somewhat peculiar nuance.

“They demand we change ourselves.  Our usual orientation, just as is the orientation of the drunk or the addict, is that life is wrong, and we are right.  We assume that life makes us suffer, and that we can only stop suffering by making everyone else change and adapt to us.  Eventually, however, we begin to realize that the outer world is exactly what we cannot change.  This is why the real demand of life is that we change. 

“Life itself is intractable, although many believe they come to dominate it.  Yet, if we are really paying attention, we eventually come to learn that the only thing we really can change is ourselves;  and once we make that observation and seek self transformation, then we encounter the Shadow.

“In order to change ourselves, and make a truly creative approach to our individual biographies, we have to face the dark within.  Yet, for all its unwanted realities (few of us are willing to admit how much evil comes out of us and into the world), life becomes seen as a mirror of our own soul, and we finally begin to appreciate the lesson Christ tried to teach in the Sermon on the Mount concerning: 
“Judge not, that ye be not judged.  For with what judgment ye judge, ye shall be judged; and with what measure ye mete, it shall be measured to you again.  And why beholdest thou the mote that is in thy brother’s eye, but considerest not the beam that is in thine own eye?  Or how wilt thou say to thy brother, Let me pull out the mote out of thine eye; and, behold a beam is in thine own eye?  Thou hypocrite, first cast out the beam out of thine own eye; and then shalt thou see clearly to cast out the mote out of thy brother’s eye.”

“This is the real gift of the own Shadow.  We face our own errors before we seek to change the outer.  Only on the basis of understanding our own darkness can we really approach the “other”, the Thou, in a way that is healthy for both of us.  As Emerson pointed out: only in descending into the depths of our own mind, do we really begin to understanding all minds.

“And it is very much a descent…an acceptance of the true trials life places before us.  We go into our own inward darkness, and from the knowledge acquired there, first really begin to be able to comprehend the light.”

the abyss of aloneness

the abyss of aloneness

– another metastory –

The grandfathers waited. So did the grandmothers, and the fathers and mothers, and the young men and women, and the children – the little boys and the little girls. They all waited.

Then Teller-of-stories began to speak…

“So, we understand that the Stories of Spring are to be found in the Mystery. We also understand that the Springtime of our civilization comes when It will, not when we wish it to. How is this to happen? How will the Mystery unfold this Newness? Are human beings completely passive in this?

“Let us first remember that this Spring is not like the one before, or the one before even that one. Each Spring is unique. The similarity is that it is always the Mystery that gives forth the New; how that happens in this particular coming Spring – that will be different.

“This is the difference.

“Before, the Mystery came on Its own. In the ancient Spring times the Mystery had servants – priests, magi, sages, prophets and initiates. But now this is no longer the Way. Now each individual personality must stand before the Mystery on their own – no intermediaries.

“Before, the ordinary human being looked up to the keepers of the Temple, to the shaman, to those who spoke for the Mystery – who served as interpreters of the Mystery to the People. But now, the individual must face the Mystery on their own – alone.

“How does this happen? Why does this happan this way – this new way, and not the old?

“The answer is this: Because we too are mystery. The Mystery is not something outside us, floating in the air, a ghost hiding in invisible realms. We are mystery, and it is only through that Gate – the own mystery – that the Source Mystery is found.

“So we look within, or we can. Not everyone has the will to look into this dark place, to bring the light of one’s own insight into the soul’s raw primal nature. Even so, this is the first choice – to look, or not to look.

“Here, in the face of this threshold choice, is revealed much, for just here the mystery, the small personal self, unveils its unlimited potential. This potential is written in the truth that the personal mystery is free to choose.

“Mostly we focus on what curbs our freedom of choice. We can’t have this, can’t do that, are not permited to go there, forbidden to try this. We often pay, being human, more attention to what is limiting, then to noticing what having any choice at all means.

“We are not like a rock, rigid in our passivity. Nor are we a plant, bound to place and fast asleep, lacking even dreams. Nor are we an animal, fixed in nature and only able to utter moans, and cries and wimpers.

“Rather we are human, self aware, awake, gifted with the word – inwardly in thought and outwardly in speech. We are capable of choosing: thought, speech, desires and action. We can end our life, or another’s. We can sing songs, write poetry and great plays, fight wars, build bridges and dance on the surface of the Moon.

“We can give birth, love, and hold each other gently.

“Many, in our age of confusion, will believe themselves diminsihed, jealous of another’s beauty, or wealth, or gifts of mind. And blinded by this comparing jealousy will not notice at all what a bright miracle they, themselves, are.

“Many others, however, will not be so blind. They will marvel at existence, wonder at self awareness, and ponder deep the mysteries of the mind and heart. To be human, what an astounding grace filled gift.

“So we come to the Gate of the Mystery, the small mystery, which is the own self.

“Some, confronting the mystery will choose to explore it. Each path of exploration is individual, but even so there are many dangers, delights and riddles that are common. While each individual will encounter these tasks and wonders in their own way, one particular common aspect stands out above all the rest.

“We do it alone.”

“Yes, we may walk side by side in life, with others who also are exploring the mystery, but each of us can only look within alone. Moreover, and this is central to all that is, or will, or has happened, we first confront our self as an individual.

“We confront desire, yes, but only in the form of our particular individual desires. We confront unwanted thoughts, yes, but something in us has generated those thoughts and only we can solve the puzzle; because, while it is universal in existence (the puzzle), it is always personal and particular in fact of experience.

“Choices, always choices. Some choices – the most difficult – are made alone, without guidance or support.

“Now not all choices are so bleak. Many occur in a social context and others, who share our life can play a part. But the most crucial choices, the deepest, the most difficult, these will be personal, particular and made alone, in the “dark night of the soul.”

“It is here then that our mystery makes its final preparations for meeting the Mystery. Because in facing choice at the abyss of aloneness, we accomplish an act, which cannot be prompted, supported or shared.

“Now it may be that when we are at this abyss, that Mystery will be there with us. Even so, we will not know it, or believe it, or feel it. We will instead, be utterly alone, empty of faith, or hope. We will have no knowledge, no pattern, no grace. We will, in fact, have to step off into the abyss in total uncertainty.

“You see, it is essential that our choice, this particular choice, not be induced with vague dreams of glory, or even the belief that God is with us, believes in us, or waits for us.

“This choice is to take place out of something in us that can only awake in this way, stimulated into being by stepping off into the abyss. Before this moment, it is not. Only this choice, only this primal act unfolds within us this essential core of our individual mystery.

“This abyss of aloness is not new. Others have experienced it, and it is their experience which gives our language such phrases as: “to be or not to be”; “the courage to be”; and, “the dark night of the soul”.

“Is it a single experience? Yes, it seems so, but is it also an experience we may approach many times and turn from because we are not yet ready and the time is not ripe.

“We approach it many times, dancing up to it only to back off and turn away. The darkness and uncertainty is fearful indeed.

“So we could ask, with good cause, why the Mystery places this before us. What purpose is served to be so alone in the deepest darkest regions of the self?

“We are, in the self, a given. We are, we exist, as a gift. But in this stark and lonely choice, in choosing or not choosing to be, we give birth to our true self, as our own act, shedding the given self much like an old skin, no longer needed.

‘The small mystery, as gift, dies, and a new small self-intended mystery is born.

“This then is the deep secret of the Age of Confusion, the riddle at the heart of the Strange Fire of the Day of Purification: From out of the given self, as an act of creation, catapillar becomes butterfly. We become mystery, because we so choose.”

the Age of Confusion

the Age of Confusion

– another metastory –

The grandfathers waited. So did the grandmothers, and the fathers and mothers, and the young men and women, and the children – the little boys and the little girls. They all waited.

Then Teller-of-stories began to speak…

“What does it mean, we are in Winter? How can we better understand where we are, so as to see more clearly where we might want to go?

“Not all Winters are the same. We are not just passing from one civilization – one metastory – to another. We are passing from a specific culture to the yet-to-reveal-itself successor culture. So the question for us is: Are there clues from Autumn and Winter, suggesting what the Mystery has in store for Spring?

“If I was to put the matter as simply as possible it would start to go like this. Autumn began in the 14th Century, when science was born. Now that statement is fairly abstract. We need to think more about this.

“The language we first speak, and unto which we are given at birth, gives us, in return, the fundamental initial experience of culture. In this sense, languages are living beings. They are a kind of live mental/spiritual atmosphere. We breath into our thinking their character and nature, as we absorb our birth language and the culture of meaning which it carries.

“Now someone may think, what do you mean by living? Well, just consider that we already call some languages dead, when there are no longer any living speakers and bearers of the appropriate culture. Not only that, but a language survives the death of its original individual speakers, as long as there is at least some small community of speakers to carry it. In addition languages grow and change as the culture grows and changes and as the relevant people experience the various crises of their history. Just because it is an odd kind of life, doesn’t, I believe, make it any less living.

“Languages have a grammar and a syntax. This structure imprints itself on our thinking. This is not the only source from which order is given to our thinking, but in terms of external sources of order, language is the earliest and the most fundamental.

“Why bother with this?

“When Autumn begins and science comes forth, the whole conceptual content of the world’s languages begins to undergo deep alteration. This is not just in the meaning of various words, but in the nature of those languages themselves. More and more the languages (especially in Western cultures) become abstract, and this means that more and more the ordinary thinking, of the people who breath in these languages, becomes abstract.

“What does it mean: to become abstract?

“Imagine a field of flowers in a meadow in the high mountains. I come to this field and I count all the yellow daisy-like flowers. I do this on many fields, in many mountain ranges. Then I write a treatise on the nature of the distribution of yellow, high altitude, daises. What I did was “abstract” some facts, usually only a small part, out of all the other facts, out of the context in which they had their actual existence.

“This is the process of abstraction. To see parts instead of wholes. And, of course, the whole ecology movement, the green movement, is a reaction to the consequences for the natural world of basing our understanding of that world upon abstractions. All that ecology now is beginning to understand, was first overlooked by those processes of abstraction.

“I believe you can see that something fundamental has been violated. Abstract thinking, in tearing the part from out of the whole, has severely limited what it is capable of understanding. Of course, what makes the whole thing worse, is that this abstract scientific cause and effect thinking has become the norm in politics and business, bringing all the disastrous social consequences we see today. Abstract cause and effecdt thinking cannot comprehend human nature or human communities.

“There is more to this story.

“One of the older ideas of Western culture, refers to truth, beauty and goodness. Now these qualities have their origin in certain aspects of the human soul, what we need to call our Inside. We have a capacity for reason. We have a capacity for imagination. We have a capacity for devotion. When these capacities are exercised, then reason leads to truth, imagination to beauty and devotion to goodness. Thus, culture has three main aspects: science, or reasoned truth; art, or imagined beauty; and, religion, or devoted goodness.

“Now I wish I could say the whole thing doesn’t get more complicated, but in the beginning it does. However, in the end, once we have some better word-pictures – ideas which are more whole and less part, less abstract then – hopefully we will have something with that aura of simplicity we recognize in the beautiful.

“O.K. So Fall begins with the appearance of Science. This begins the process of abstraction, the separation of parts out of wholes. Or to say it another way, this is when the tellers of the stories of truth abandoned beauty and goodness. At that point, the tellers of the stories of truth began to no longer believe in the value of the human Inside, our soul and spirit.

“More and more, only the outsides of things had any meaning for the tellers of the stories of truth. The inner significance of the world, and of the human being, which was, at that time, carried more concretely in art and religion, disappears

“The gay colors of Fall, of the now starting to die civilization, appeared in the Renaissance, the Reformation, and the Enlightenment. The Inside, that which was being forgotten, then gave to this dying civilization, all that it had left. First then comes those bright explosions of art (the tellers of the stories of beauty – the renaissance), then the rearranging winds of change in religion (the tellers of the stories of goodness – the reformation) and then the light that illuminates the Outsides of the world of Nature, science, (the tellers of stories of truth – the enlightenment); after which, the Death processes of Late Fall galloped forth in the Industrial Revolution (which was scientific truth materialized – but without beauty and goodness), to trample, in their unrestrained power, all that wonderful and subtle social order that had once existed in the so ordinary extraordinary everyday ways of life of families and communities.

“With the Inside forgotten, science proceeded to dominate our way of thinking, to the diminution of the full (true-whole) understanding of life that needs also what art and religion can offer. So we go from Fall into Winter, lost to our Inside; and the world picture we, of the present, are born into – are taught by our language and in our schools – is a world-picture only of Outsides. This one-sided view is at the very least a kind of madness. Thus, its broad application throughout our social life, in the absence of any real appreciation of Insides, has lead to social Darwinism, market economies, and the elimination of any kind of healthy idea of human nature in the decision making processes of our public, or political, life.

“Not all that has happened can be laid at the feet of Science. This would not only be unfair, it would be untrue. Science itself results from another change, one only yet recognized by a few individuals.

“The arrival of science arose out of a change in the Insides – a change in our consciousness. Prior to the 14th century, looking backward in time, a picture can be created which notices that the human being’s relationship, to the world of nature, to the social world, and to him or herself, was different.

“Thus, the transition into Fall, from Summer, has different roots. The Insides alter, then comes Fall and Winter, as characterized above.

“The Scholastics, the church scholars, of the 11th and 12th centuries, referred to the way they were related to the world as “participation”. This participatory form of consciousness recedes, and another form, an object-relationship form, appears. We go from participation to, what one author calls, the “onlooker separation”.

“First we are inside nature, part of it (Summer), then we are “squeezed out”, to become observers (Fall).

“We could go back further into Summer, but for now that would be too much. We should notice that the change from participation to onlooker consciousness takes many generations, and has its own roots deep in the Mystery. An aspect of this part of the Mystery is remembered in Taoism in the idea of “being at one with nature” – a form of consciousness from the past.

“Modern science arises from the new form of consciousness, and is an “observational” look at the natural world. The scientist – the teller of the stories of truth – begins almost immediately to forget he is part of nature. Not only that, but this is done intentionally. Scientific method, as it emerges over time, at first removes the observer from the equation. Only instruments are deemed objective. The senses of the observer are fallible, and the mind subjective.

“That is, to most of the scientists. In the romantics and the transcendentalists, this assumption was denied. Goethe, Coleridge, and Emerson (and many others, of course) wove all their thoughts out of an understanding that regardless of the qualities of our inner life – its seeming subject/object confusion – we remained a part of nature. Nature was a whole which included humanity, and that fact could be accounted for in the methods by which nature was to become understood.

“Now everybody take a deep breath. We have suffered through the worst of it – this is the story of the origins of the age of confusion after all, our modern age – and now, hopefully, we can go forward into Beauty, as the Navaho so wonderfully speak of it.

“The change from Summer to Fall, from participation to object consciousness, is also a harvest of a sort. Summer has produced an abundance, given birth to something that becomes a permanent part of our nature. The Mystery gives to the human being, in this act of separating us out from our participation with Nature, greater individuality. We are, in this bridge from Summer to Fall, set free from a kind of natural determinism.

“No longer is someone John’s son, i.e. Johnson, or from a place, i.e. de Chardin, or identified with a craft, i.e. a Smith. The emancipation from the determinism of our participation in Nature is accompanied by a further emancipation from the social/moral determinism of being a member of a family and a community.

“Modern feminism overshoots its mark by assuming that only women are, and have been, the prisoners of roles. Everyone has been; and, only now, after many generations of the social change, which accompanies the age of confusion, are all human beings beginning to find greater freedom for the self determination of their social/moral roles as members of human communities.

“The reach of the Mystery is deep. The age of confusion, for all its seemingly undesirable qualities, has been a necessary womb for the birth of socially and morally free human beings.

“At the cost of traditional community, we have been given individual freedom from social and moral coercion. Even so, for what do we now hunger? Having lost traditional community, we now sense its absence. We remember community, our story tellers remember it for us, as well. But everything has turned inside out; and, now community can only arise through the conscious sacrifice of individual impulses. To have community we must choose between unlimited license and mastery of the soul by the elevation of the spirit. The prisoners of fixed roles (at least in those societies which are the forerunners of these far reaching world wide changes), now have to choose how to make human communities work on the basis of freedom, rather then on the basis of tradition.

“The more freedom, the more responsibility.

“This then is a picture of the Fall into Winter which makes possible the Springtime of a new civilization.

“What then does this tell us about Spring?

“It will have, as I have been able to see it, the following qualities.

“A new form of language. No longer abstract, but imaginative and pictorial. The Insides will be returned. Beauty and Goodness will be reunited with Truth, imagination and devotion rejoined to reason. Here is a work of generations.

“As the story tellers begin to tell the new stories, the stories of Spring, then language will change, slowly and surely. The children will be raised into this new picture-language, breathing it in, learning to see the world and themselves as a whole.

“Out of these changes new social forms will grow, along side the changes in language that comes with the new stories. Human beings will reach up to touch the Mystery and the Mystery will reach down to touch human beings. A new civilization will be born.”

Signs of Spring

Signs of Spring

-a metastory-

The grandfathers waited. So did the grandmothers, and the fathers and mothers, and the young men and women, and the children – the little boys and the little girls. They all waited.

Then Teller-of-stories began to speak…

“Sometimes in life”, he said, “sometimes people feel old, even when they are not. Even a child, who has had a bad shock, an injury or the death of a pet, or the loss of a favorite toy, even a child will for a time feel old. Tired. Worn down by life.

“There is nothing unusual here.

“It is like breathing. It is part of the whole. A natural pause, a small moment of Winter.

“Even so, this does not mean there is no danger. People die easier in Winter. Illness is stronger in Winter. When we feel the deep mood “old”, life does not hold us as tightly as it usually does.

“Today, we are all worried, as we have every right to be. For today, the whole people feel old, worn down. We, as a people, as a civilization, are in Winter. For a long time there has been no Sun; and our leaders give us little light or illumination with which to push away the shadows and the cold.

“Many are, because of this, tired unto death. So we hide, wrapped up in ourselves. We feel we have nothing to give. All our energies are spent, exhausted, in merely trying to survive.

“When this is so, when our civilization – our culture – is worn out, what do we do?

“This is not an easy question to answer It is not ours to make Winter go away. The seasons, the rhythmical movements in the lives of peoples and civilizations, have their own Time.

“When clouds hide the sun, who among us would claim to be able to make the Sun shine. Winter gives way to Spring when it is time, not when we wish it.

“So we are back to the question. What do we do?

“There is an answer to this. But it is an answer with two parts, because it is not only what do we do, but what, as well, do we not do?

“Now if your child is hurt do you kick it? If it has no hope do you give it more worries? If it has no faith do you feed it doubts? And, if it is lacking love do you give it hate?

“So our civilization is in Winter, and our people move through shadows and cold. Do we want to paint with only dark colors the world of words which we share with each other? I think we do not. I believe we do not what to do this.

“Yet, to not do this is difficult, very difficult. Why is this true? Why is it difficult?

“One real obvious reason is, that it is no help whatsoever to lie, to pretend it is not Winter. There is darkness and cold, worry, doubt and callus indifference.

“Homelessness is real. Greed is real. Racism is real. Violence is real. Abuse of women and children is real. Pollution is real. Evil is real.

“Lies are not real. To lie is real, but what the lie is about is not real!

“Half truths are not real either.

“To the extent that politicians, corporate leaders, media personalities, scientists, the religious, gossips, or anyone else lies or tells half truths, they create shadows where there is no true darkness.

“The result is that, while we live in Winter, many of our leaders pollute the communal world of words and ideas and dreams, in which we all live, with empty ghosts and deceptive shadows that leave fear and mistrust and doubt and hopelessness behind.

“”We need hot tea and company, while they give us cold and bitter thoughts instead..

“This is all I know to say about what not to do.

“What to do is different and no less hard.

“In Winter it makes sense not to make things colder or darker, but when Spring has not yet arrived, when the stark reality of unchained evil seems to assault our souls daily, how do we find balance while we wait for the changes that are certain to come in spite of our doubts?

“We tell stories. Yes! We tell stories.

“We come together, we share a meal and we tell stories.

“Oddly enough, it is just here that we first sense Spring. When a people, when a civilization begins to renew itself, to find the forces of resurrection, after living through the death forces of Autumn and the waiting that is Winter, when this happens, stories appear.

“Winter is already the time of stories. Stories of remembrance. Stories of the past which bind the people and make them whole. These are crucial and we have these today. We remember when it was better and not so dark and cold.

“But how do we tell stories of the future, stories of the true yet-to-be. These stories have been missing. These are harder to tell. Those who would tell these stories, they must first confront the Mystery. For the future is born out of the Mystery.

“The remembered past dies into the present. Autumn gives way to Winter. But Spring is not a continuation of the movement which is the dying into rest that is the fall into Winter. Spring is not born of rest.

“Spring is New. What becomes the New is hidden in Winter. Winter is its absence.

“So to seek the stories of the New, of the future, the stories of Spring, is to go into the Mystery.

“There is no other way of it. That which is to become is born in the Mystery and those who want to tell of it must go and find it there.

“This is not easy.

“In life we are accomplished. We are often fathers and mothers and holders of professions and status. But to go in to the Mystery means to surrender these things.

“The Mystery is more Real than the real, and before it we become again little children.

“Only empty can we be filled. Only ignorant can we learn. Only silent can we hear the songs of the Mystery.

“When Winter ends what is the first sign? The song birds return. Even before the snow melts, trees bud or days lengthen, the song birds return and express their joy at life.

“So come the story tellers, the singers of Mystery.

“In the beginning just a few. Here and there. The people waiting, perhaps napping as a way of passing through the long pull of Winter, then hear something new, something different.

“The old stories, the stories of remembrance, the songs of the birds who stayed throughout Winter, these continue still.

“Not all the past is meant to die. The snow covers the ground, but seeds lay there warm all Winter long under their pure white blanket. Seeds of the past remembered, waiting to be awakened and to bloom anew in the Spring.

“But the Mystery also gives forth the New.

“And, when it is a civilization, a people, that is to be renewed, what has truly died is reshaped, given new forms, new names, new meanings and new purposes.

“Think deeply on this, for here is a great secret from out of the Mystery. Homelessness, racism, greed, abuse, evil, these names refer to the real but not to the Real. They are not the true names, but are instead the half lies, the confusions of the long Winter just passing.

“You think not?

“Consider this fact, a most recent melody in the World Song. When a certain people awoke recently from their Winter’s nap, they threw off the names “Negro” and “colored” and gave their own name to themselves: “Black!” And, intended, not just a new word, but a new meaning as well.

“Lead by a great story teller, a man who touched the Mystery and who was Touched by the Mystery, this people sang a true Song of Spring and dreamt the Great Dream of human freedom and dignity.

“So has come already a Sign of Spring, if one has the wisdom to see it.

“But a people, a civilization, is a complicated symphony in the World Song. There are many stories to tell and many songs yet to sing.

“So I say to you with all my heart. Do not despair, or be any longer frightened at shadows. Listen carefully instead.

The Mystery comes, carrying just that hoped for Spring which our long Winter’s wait has foretold. Have you heard it yet? Others have.  What do you think the environmental movement and civil society are about?

Let me end these words, with these most beautiful thoughts from the English rock group the Moody Blues:

“When the white eagle of the North is flying overhead,

The browns, reds, and golds of Autumn lie in the gutter, dead.

Remember then, that summer birds with wings of fire flaying

Came to witness spring’s new hope, born of leaves decaying.

Just as new life will come from death, love will come at leisure.

Love of love, love of life and giving without measure

Gives in return a wondrous yearn of a promise almost seen.

Live hand-in-hand and together we’ll stand on the threshold of a dream.”

A Report on a couple of visits to anthroposophical land

This first parts was written in response to a long quote of the thoughts of JvH, offered by John Harris, here:

It would be spiritual suicide for folks to fancy that the whole of “Anthroposophy” has been expressed through the works of Rudolf Steiner. To concentrate one’s cognitional resources on only one or two minds (Steiner and/or JvH, for example), is to develop one-sidedness of spirit. If your mind’s feet (lower will) is always trudging around on a hill – in the same direction – a defect in the gait arises. This defect manifests when we are down from the Mountains, and nearer the Caves and subterranean water courses. One leg is more developed, the other is not, and we end up walking in circles.

Anthroposophy is still incarnating. The Being Anthroposophia has many facets, and each seer/shaman/ etc. stands in a “place” of spiritual insight that is not always the same as any others.

Faerie, aka: the Underworld, was not well “seen” by Steiner; and, JvH – via adopting the language of Steinerism – also misses the essence. For example the use of the term: Antichrist in the above bit of JvH’s works … my spiritual experiences find her use as: missing the point as it were.


I am not saying her mystical visions are not true. Just incomplete. This is not a “bad” quality. Sort of a spiritual equivalent of Godel’s “Incompleteness Theorem”. Each system has its metaphors, and its special languages and assumptions. In fact to believe there are absolute spiritual facts (Mr. A.), or absolute truths (Mr. L.) is a kind of self harm. https://www.amazon.com/On-Becoming-Alchemist-Modern-Magician/dp/1590306872

RS saw the world as unitary (single) qualities in some situations, and threefoldnesses (trinities) in others. On the Earth then he pointed out that there was East and West qualities at a spiritual level, and East, Center, and West qualities at a soul level.


It is an observable social fact that the Americas are neither European, or Asian. This allows us to appreciate differences of skillful seer-ship, such that shamans in the Americas, who are connected to RS, are better described as pagan anthroposophists, should they be willing. Steiner called them “Platonists”. https://thecollectiveimagination.com/ http://ipwebdev.com/hermit/ZenA.html

Valentin Tomberg – in his works on the Foundation Stone Meditation points out (his point of view) – that fresh spiritual impulses, begin in the East, in the world of spirit Itself, and in a sun-ward east to west gesture, only then is fully on the Earth in the West. My research finds that in the Center, what arises as fresh spiritual impulses is not yet fully of the Earth. Neither of the Heavens (enlightenment … luciferic), or of the Earthly (shamanistic – ahrimanic), but in between (where Christ is the balance keeper). Religion has deeper roots in the East, while the True West is more scientific (Ahriman is here), and the balance in the Center is Art&Christ.

So the majesty of the Bhagavad Gita gets translated into European languages (around 1808), and not too soon afterward (1875) the Theosophical Society appears. Scientific materialism (all is matter, there is no spirit – the true “anti-Christ”) has achieved its heights in the 19th Century, in the middle of which America fought a “Civil War” (beginning in 1861, the year RS was born).

JvH seems to have no connection to the Holy Mother, aka: Planet Earth. Steiner’s lectures on the inner earth are all basically incorrect. For details: http://ipwebdev.com/hermit/Clarke5.html.

For the pagan Platonist anthroposophists, this omission is a grave tragedy. Given that the New Mysteries, in their wholeness – is not parts (East, Center, and West) but a unity. A kind of descent of the Christ Impulse (something individual human beings do). Christ is the Creator, and in the Bhagavad Gita we have the memory of His/Hers original works in the early post-Atlantean epochs.

Steiner united these through his life passage through (& out of) the Theosophical, and into the Anthroposophical. Spiritual-recollection becomes spiritual-mindfulness (offering healing to scientific materialism). Then, as these streams of thoughts of the spirit come to earth in the true West, we get spiritual-vision.

There is no viable future for Anthroposophy, if the shamans in the true West are ignored by the Aristotelians in the Center. Even RS understood that the three aspects of the soul had to work together.

Right now this is not happening. Besides the above JvH “visit”, last night I observed (and slightly participated in), a Zoom enabled Webinar style meeting initiated by the Anthroposophical Society in America. We had over 300 present, with only about 30 visually present until they divided us into much smaller groups. The gathering was allegedly a kind of sharing get-together given the fact of COVID-19’s “sudden appearance”.

What I experienced was a lot of older people, speaking of Steiner verses and the Six Exercises.

John Bloom began with offering four themes: 1) what really is illness? 2) what means social-distancing? 3) what is going on in economic reality? … and, 4) how can we promote help and social equity?

Other’s mentioned how we are co-suffering with the rest of the world. There was an attempt to do a make-over of “social-distancing” into two parts: 1) physically distancing, while 2) socially connecting.

The sub-groups had twenty minutes for discussion, and the group I was in only had four people, including myself. The only offering I could give (besides a remark that we are in the dying and becoming of Western Civilization), was kind of prayer we all could pray, for all of us. I asked the Mother’s help during a dark moment of the night about what to pray, and got this: Pray for everyone to find peace of mind and courage of the heart.

A meeting with no young people, and not much fire in the belly, given the outrages everywhere.

If you are not speaking of the Holy Mother, you are not truly doing spiritual-vision, because She holds the whole world in His Hands, and Her Ways are notoriously of the true dark and wild. I wrote of that here: https://thecollectiveimagination.com/2020/03/18/the-story-of-the-world-at-this-moment-of-intense-change-aka-fearless-reckoning/ https://thecollectiveimagination.com/2020/03/16/the-third-worlding-of-the-united-states-of-american/ https://thecollectiveimagination.com/2020/03/14/the-day-of-fearless-reckoning/

I recently wrote a letter to Rudolf Steiner Foundation, suggesting about how&why environmentalists needed to go to law courts, and sue multinational egregorial corporations on the basis that if corporation can be a person before the law, than certainly a “Planet’ can be a person before the law.

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So it goes …